by walk. » Thu Feb 28, 2013 7:10 pm
N a m e ;;
I would name this beautiful yet unusual JMD Steam. This is because, when you react fire and water together, this is what you get. It has no particular meaning, but it does make sense.
A g e ;;
I can imagine him at the ripe age of 19, he has reached adulthood, yet he still possesses the assets of a grumpy teenager. He was born on the 5th of November, which is firework night. This adds to the irony of his jewel colour, being named after fireworks which are powered by fire.
G e n d e r ;;
This JMD can only be male to me, it fits his personality best.
P e r s o n a l i t y ;;
Steam is a concealed character. He is very quiet, and when people talk to him, it is almost a shock because it is so unexpected, and he often snaps. He is not very sociable, and has few friends, mostly because he is afraid of being judged. He is rude and mean when others do have the courage to talk to him, he believes it puts him inside an unbreakable shell, it covers up who he really is and makes him feel secure and protected.
His jewel colour has had a massive impact on his life, he is constantly teased and judged, even his name hurts him sometimes. He is often known for snapping at any given moment, years of reading have just made him stronger and even more unsociable than he was before. He is quiet, and actually enjoys his own company. More than anything, he is quite simply scared of what the world will think of him, he wants nothing more than to be accepted into society for who he is, but it's too late now.
He is a gentle fellow deep down, and would never hurt anyone, no matter how much they hurt him. The one thing he would never do is bully someone, he hates it himself, so why would he do it to others. The only time he is mean, is for self defense, or to take the pressure off himself. Too much pressure and Steam gets into such trouble, he throws tantrums, crying and punching everything. It might sound babyish at 19, but the thing is, Steam has a condition called asberges. This means he gets angry quite easily, but he has learnt to take it out on objects rather than people themselves. It also makes him sensative, which is why it has taken him a long time to ajust to the bullying.
How does he cope? ;;
To be honest, Steam doesn't really. After being teased for so long, he's sort of got used to it. This is all part of his shell strategy, he will insult others to make himself feel big and bold, and to stop them from hurting him, it makes him feel secure and protected, and this enables him to feel better about himself and to also stop the bullying. But after this has gone on for so long, Steam has just learnt to put up with it to be honest. If it does all get too much, then Steam can get very upset and just became overwhelmed with sadness and anger, but he is coping a lot better now than he was before. He copes emotionally by using his punch bag to take out all the anger, without harming the person themselves.
Does he ever use his power against others? ;;
No, never. Despite the teasing, Steam is actually a gentle fellow at heart, and would never hurt others. But one of the ways Steam hides from the world, is by just sitting in a lake, and using his fire power to create a cloud of steam around himself, to protect himself from the view of his teasers, he just finds it makes it easier for him to cope, having a good think about things and shutting off the world around him. He will occasionally use his power to get the anger out, but never on people, only on objects.
How has this affected him? ;;
This has basically shaped who Steam is today. The asberges has basically made his reaction to things greater than they would've been if he hadn't been diagnosed with the condition. When he was younger, Steam was a happy little boy but after going to school, things just got worse and worse, his condition was never really dealt with in the right ways, and bullying was what made it even worse than it already was.
Has he moved on? ;;
Steam is never going to forget the bullying, and he will always be wary and afraid of being judged. He has learnt to control it, but he will never forget. In this sense, the phrase, "forgive and forget," doesn't have a strong enough feeling to it to really mean something, because he will never properly forgive those who made him feel so sensative about all this. Steam will never be able to revert properly back to his old happy self, but he will eventually recover and be more open to the world and less afraid of others, it'll just take love, care and time. A whole lot of time.
Journal ;;
14th February.
"Well, Valentines day. I suppose there is not much to say here, other than I was the only one who didn't recieve a card. But that's an improovement to last year, I'd rather recieve none than a ton of fakes which are made for teasing. It didn't bother me in the slightest, it's better than the abuse I usually get. I'm so glad I've nearly finished school, no more of this stupid bullying, A. I can't live with it anymore and B. My punch bag is getting rather tired. I had to walk today, alone as usual. Sadly I couldn't create my steam cloud, so had to settle with a hoodie, hood up and all. I could feel people's eyes burning through the fabric and I had to stop my urge to just lunge out and attack them, forcing them to say what they're problem is, because that would've been disasterous. When at school, I just went straight to the classroom and read my book, it's the only way to distract my mind from thinking about things I'd rather not say. First lesson was history, we learnt about Rosevelt. I'd like to be like him, an all powerful president who can tell just about anyone what to do, that would show those stupid bullies what's up. I spent the rest of the day in study hall, we were meant to be preparing for an english essay, but I just spend the whole time reading. On the way home, I heard a couple of the boys talking about me, one even threw a stone at me, so I gave him a hard glare and spat at him, well, I spat out embers anyways. I don't know what they're problem is, just because I'm blue with a red jewel. I know it's weird but... Oh well.
28th February.
Half term today, decided to go to the park. I found my usual secret spot, a little pond hidden by thick greenery and reeds. Despite it being winter, I couldn't resist wading in and getting trapped in my own foggy world. It was exactly like my mind, blurry, unclear and confusing. But I found it relaxing, having nothingness around me, it made my thoughts untangle and enabled me to think clearly for once, which was nice. But of course, I had to walk home. The gang jeered at me, I tried my best to ignore them but failed. I almost hit one of the guys, but thankfully distracted myself in time, and ended up just hitting a trash can, but it went away with a few nasty dents. I just stayed in my room the rest of the day, it was the only place I could be alone, just me. I really don't want to go back to school, but I just have to keep it in mind, that soon, all the exams will over and it will end. I will get yet another fresh start.
P o e m ;;
Why the judgement,
Why the pain?
Just to let bullies practise their game.
With the amount of abuse I've earnt ,
I'd be surprised if they have enough amunition to leave burns.
Why can't they just leave me alone?
With a few friends, to call my own?
What makes me so different to them?
My looks? Bah! to hell they're condemned!
I don't know what they find so bad?
My jewel, my condition, well they're just sad.
They've ruined my life, so I'll ruin theres.
Well, If I could I'd make their life hard to bare.
H i s t o r y ;;
Steam was an only child, both the youngest and eldest meant he got a lot of attention. His mother was a beautiful red jeweled, red skinned lady, she cared for her son so much. Yet, her biggest mistake was to let her husband choose the name of their only child. They decided to await the turnout of his jewel colour, it was a 50/50 chance between blue and red. His father was blue skinned, with a blue jewel. When it came about that their beautiful child's jewel was red, the same as his mother, he decided to name him steam, for that is what you get when you cross both fire and water. His mother was devastated, and the pair soon separated. Steam's mother devoted her entire life to her son, he was spoilt, but when diagnosed with Asberges aged four, rather than coming closer to her son, she payed less and less attention to her son. When it was time to go to school, Steam's morale was low and he was extremely vunderable to the bullies. He tried to tell his mother about what was happening, but she wouldn't listen. As it got worse, she was forced to intervene and moved Steam to a new school. It helped a bit, but then middle school came about. This was where one boy in the class discovered Steam's condition, and she of course told others untill the news was spread around the entire class. Poor Steam, was so upset, he began fending for himself, which made it worse. It just confirmed the rumour, and he became the prime bullying target. By the time it was highschool, Steam had cut off communication from his mother completely, not caring anymore. He thought it would be his chance to start afresh, and that bullying would be childish, but it had stuck with his old class mates, almost like a habit. Steam just learnt to live with it, he had to, he refused to let this beat him, although on several occasions, it very nearly did. Steam has now finished school and currently on his gap year, deciding what to do with his life and ajusting to his new freedom to do whatever he wants.
Last edited by
walk. on Tue Mar 05, 2013 7:18 am, edited 14 times in total.
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And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
Do you know me?
On hiatus ~