who's that girl ?don't underestimate her.
don't you dare.
are you fooled ?
i'm sure you are.she can be mistaken as the princess type
too easilybut don't judge a book by its cover
everlikes ;-----------------
musicrap music
but not your typical rap music.
rap music with meaning.
rap music with a dark meaning.
a sad, twisted meaning.
not what you hear on the radio.
something you'd find while browsing soundcloud, youtube, or whatever
when you're feeling down.
" they're more successful than you "
" do something with your life "
" talentless, worthless, disgusting "
" disgrace. "lo-fi music
music with a soothing sound,
calming.
not calming.
it allows you to think.
to think about the world around you.
to think about your past.
what you've done.
how you've messed up.
" he doesn't like you "
" you're the reason he feels this way "
" it's all your fault "
" be sorry "----
rainthe only thing that calms her.
it's like music,
the pitter patter of the rain.
the way it puts her in a trance.
it can clear her mind,
it helps her day dream.
and escape from reality, is how she'd put it.
an escape from the problems she has to face.
everything is perfect in her head.
at least when it rains, that is.
" stop living in your head "
" don't run away from your problems "
" face the real world, stop being childish "
" it's your fault your life is like this. "----
love and carelove and care is all she wants.
she wants to be told " i love you "
and " i'm here for you, always and forever.
i care about you. "
care and love is important and a want from most.
but to her it is a necessity.
" he doesn't love you "
" nobody cares "
" you don't deserve love "
" you're not worthy of a gift as precious as genuine care "dislikes ; -----------------
sunshineit's too happy, she says.
pip finds the weather enjoyed by most to be annoying.
it hurts your eyes, it causes you to sweat.
she could list a million things wrong with it.
" stop being so different. blend in. "
" you hate the good things in life. this is why you can't have any "
" nothing is wrong with sunshine. something is wrong with you "
" be happy it's not a tornado. but that's probably the weather you deserve "----
fakenessa hypocrite, she would call herself
if she said how much she hated fakeness out loud.
she doesn't hate it.
she loathes it.
fake friends, fake words, you name it.
she's had it all.
it's influenced her in the wrong way.
she has a reason to hate it.
" fake friends is all you'll ever have "
" the love you get is fake "
" his feelings for you are fake "
" everything is fake. even you "----
cryingto her, crying is giving in.
she doesn't cry.
ever.
she doesn't allow herself to, even though she wants to.
she's strong; she won't give in.
the sound is terrible.
it's full of pain and sadness and those are two things she can't stand.
" crybaby ! stop letting your problems get to you. "
" you have it better than others, stop whining ! "
" get over it ! "
" you cry waaay too much. man up. "-----------------------------------------------------------playlist ; ( if needed, pm me and i will remove some of the songs )
lil peep -
crybabyxxxtentacion -
neverxxxtentacion -
i spoke to the devil in miami, he said everything would be finelil bo weep -
not ok but its oktothegood -
your eyes my eyespink guy -
helpeden -
gravity-----------------------------------------------------------interviewp = pip
i = interviewer
i : " three words to describe yourself ? "
p : " di- no, - afraid, anxious, needy "
i : " ah, okay. what's a feeling you feel the most ? "
p : " there's multiple. anxiety, sadness, loneliness. "
i : " oh ? okay. who are your closest friends ? "
p : " it's not who i consider my closest friend, it's if they consider me their closest friend. "
i : " okay, well, who's someone you love ? "
p : " whoever loves me. "
-----------------------------------------------------------quick backstorypip was a normal kid.
she cried over little kid things,
got mad over things every kid would.
but that changed when she got into fifth grade.
her anxiety levels were constantly up,
who hated her ? who was her true friend ? were they talking about her ?
what if she messes up ? what if she's wrong ? does she look ugly ? she's too fat !
questions running through her head all the time,
a never ending void of anxiety and sadness. it was
a hurricane of thoughts and unwanted feelings.
all she wanted was to be happy, to not be anxious,
to not get upset over every little thing. to stop
over analyzing and just be normal. normal kids don't cry
over their looks and worry if their friend approves of how they act.
she had one close friend, one friend she deeply cared about.
if he was upset, she'd be upset.
if he was mad, she'd be upset.
she wanted to help him but she couldn't because she was afraid
of messing up. she was terrified of losing him and wanted the best for him.
as long as he cared and loved her she could calm down. she just wanted love.
she wanted to know that someone cared.
this followed throughout her entire life; she is now in highschool.
a million questions and possibilities rush through her head constantly like waves
rushing past your legs when the tide comes in. it was unstoppable, unless she was sleeping.
she still craved to be normal; to stop being fake. what she looked like was not her, she wasn't a
pink princess. she was sad. but she put on a fake smile for everyone she saw; everyone thought she was okay.
and she liked it that way. she had one person to talk to; her friend. he understood, at least she thought so.
he knew the true her and he was the only one who did. she introduced herself differently to everyone, but she was never
true to anyone but him. she truly loved and cared about him, losing him was her biggest fear.

( the basics ( tl;dr )
name ;
pippy, but don't call her that. call her pip.
user ;
reb,,
gender ;
female
short desc. of personality ;
pip is a big ball of anxiety,
all she wants is love, care and happiness.
she wants to live her life without anxiety and sadness;
even if it's only a day where she's the happiest she's ever been and nothing could ever go wrong. she wants it.
she wants to know that her best friend loves her and cares about her, and that he doesn't just tolerate her and their friendship is genuine. he's the main thing she cares about, and losing him would be like losing your older brother.
she has a hard time loving herself and constantly puts herself down, she doesn't think she deserves anything good and thinks everything is her fault. she wants to apologize for everything, even if she was the one getting hurt.
she has talent; but she doesn't see it. she wanted to be an artist; she stopped trying. she was a straight a and b student; she stopped trying and started to fail. everything can discourage her.
OH MY GOOD GOD CAN U BELIEVE I DID IT
jk i'm not done
god i hate this already bye i am not happy with my work but i refuse to redo this
ic an't wait 4 someone to message me and be like yOUR KALON FORM SUCKS ! BLEH
o well ill pretty this up later lmao
pm me if i need to remove anything and i'll do it