Axel's Dream wrote:Why do I always get stuck with the icky jobs?
That's always been my complaint. Killing my own kind for what? What do I have to gain from this? Sure, I've got the skill to be an assassin, but once you start, you never forget. My two haunt me in my dreams. I tell no one, and yet they all worry. Don't worry about me, I'm fine. There aren't many Viscets who go against the pack, and I regret being one of them. I went rogue, leaving my pack, the one that made me eliminate two of our number. Monsters...
Sometimes my dreams are peaceful. I dream of red sunsets and beaches. Though, sometimes my past catches up with me. I dream that the flames still bend at my claws, that they were still barking orders at me... That I still kill them. Something about it wont let me forget, no matter how much I block it out. I hear their begging, their protests... How could I do that to them? To protect myself? No... I'm not protecting myself. At least, not completely. I'm protecting my friends, too, and that human. The one that claims, but doesn't own... That one.
I may have gone nuts. Maybe I flipped my lid a long time ago. I haven't changed, though. I'm still my sarcastic, know it all self. Still, though, would you consider yourself sane if, every night, your kills came back in your dreams? Asking you why? I didn't think so. That's the extent of my dreams. Though, I guess those aren't really dreams. They're more of nightmares. Yet, they don't scare me. They fill me with guilt and sadness and they mess with my mental state. Sometimes I wake up, shaking and sweating... Why won't it just go away already?
All this I hide behind my personality. Just a guy who doesn't know how to show people that he truly cares, so he gives them a hard time. Yep... That's me... Good old fun loving, no nonsense Axel. Got it memorized? I've stopped my hunt for my own kind since no ones giving me orders anymore. Yet, they stay, the two I got to. They stay in my dreams and they won't let me rest. Anyway, I digress. I think I'm just scaring you at this point. Go, listen to some other story. Or stay. I don't care either way.
From The Mind's Perspective wrote: