Username: ToxicShadow
Yeena name: Nixie
Yeena gender: Female
Pride: Otherworldly Overseers [Oddity Pride]
Pride status: House Demon
Prompt:"You're only here to serve me!" "You're rubbish! You don't even deserve the food we give you!" "You know you're at the lowest level, right? You're just here to clean up our garbage." "You're just a stupid monster!" There are many, many happenings within Nixie's existence that she cannot forget, nor can she ever forgive. She was born as a creature that has come to be known as a "house demon," a strange creature with strange powers and a fear of the sun that are bound into servitude. Through her long, long lifetime, Nixie has had many masters and families to serve. Of course, never was she treated as an equal. She was always lower than everyone she served, little more than a nasty vermin or even the dirt that they walked on. In most situations, she was left verbally, if not physically, abused, with even her needs for survival largely neglected. She survived even when on the brink of starvation or even with commonly fatal wounds simply because of her species' ability to endure and heal even from such things. Still, healing from something doesn't mean that she didn't feel the pain.
For all of those that she encountered in the past, Nixie will hold her grudges against them until she ceases to exist within this world, and she may even carry them with her after that. For them, forgiveness is not an option, even if they were to lower themselves to the ground before her and beg for her forgiveness.
However, as much as Nixie holds grudges against them all, she doesn't necessarily hold onto her ill feelings and let them consume her. Yes, she will never forgive them, but she doesn't let what happened in the past ensnare her and prevent her from looking forward to the present and the future, nor does she begrudge them to the point of wanting to do them harm, now that she has nothing to do with them. Those that hurt her are not even on her radar anymore.
Presently, Nixie stays beside
Lethality, the captain of the group that calls themselves the Otherworldly Overseers. They don't often speak of the circumstances, but Lethality rescued Nixie by severing the magical binding that kept her in servitude as she was tossed around to different folks and families, and Nixie's gratitude came forth in her desire to then help Lethality in some way. She stayed beside her, at first, in order to find some way to pay her back for her act of kindness, but the two have since formed an unbreakable friendship.
"I'm so sorry, Nixie. I know what I said was careless and I hurt you. It's okay for you to be mad at me, I deserve it."But, of course, Nixie is fully well and capable of forgiving and forgetting when she needs to. If her friend makes a mistake and apologizes, of course she will forgive them, and she will forget the matter, as though it never even happened.
For her, the intention matters. Those that harmed and belittled her in the past we never remorseful of their actions, because, to them, Nixie was not an equal. She was less than. Toward her friends, and even strangers, if they own up to their mistakes, and treat her with some manner of respect, then she has no reason not to forgive and forget.
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