by Fuscontidox » Sat Apr 16, 2016 2:44 pm
Username:
Fuscontidox
Which other parras do you own?
N/A
Name:
Molly
Why that name:
Molly means "Sea of bitterness" this has to do with her personality which I will get into
It would be nice if I could spell you know XD
Gender:
Female || Straight
Song:
Traitor - Daughtry
Why that song:
ah, I'll elaborate more in her personality and view on life but basically it has to do with her inability to trust others which leads into a TON of problems
Personality:
Molly is hard on herself, and even harder on others, she is extremely difficult to understand, mainly because she can sometimes be a contradiction of herself, or rather a paradox.
Since a while, Molly has issues trusting others, and it's become the focus in her life, probably her largest demon that she is still currently too weak to tackle at least on her own. She can seem nice at first, and will act like a great friend, however at some point she will suddenly turn her back, and say cruel things.
She doesn't just do this to people outside her family, oh no, no she does this to everyone, she can sometimes be afraid of herself because of the way she talks to even her own mother. She has trouble expressing herself, she wants to tell others that she really does care but then something in her mind twists and she suddenly shuts her mouth and dares to say nothing.
NOTE: no she does NOT have bipolar disorder, What she has is a phobia :3
Relationships:
Mother(Dots)- Dots is the only parent out of her supposed three that she can some what get close to, she doesn't see the other two often. she really does love her mother, but she just can't stand the moments when her mother takes time to try and figure her out, because she doesn't want to be figured out, she can't stand anyone getting close to her and so these moments end up driving the two apart, she's pretty sure that Dots has figured out how often her happiness is feigned.
Brother(Kiton)- Molly gets along okay with Kiton, though it's a little difficult sometimes because of his loud mouth, but even when she says something to him, she knows she's a hypocrite because she was just being a loud mouth to him about him being a loud mouth.
He seems to be one of the few of her generation that doesn't judge her so harshly no matter what she says, because of the fact that they share the common problem of being a loud mouth, even if their problems can be categorized differently.
Sister(Gouyen)- Molly's relationship with Gouyen is like magnets of the same poles, she doesn't want to be around her because, in Molly's opinion, she's kinda nosy, she is mature for her age because of all the reading she does, and Molly isn't into the whole getting advice thing, when ever she looks at Gouyen, she sees a lot of their mother(Dots) in her. Most of the time, its not the things she sees as positive in their mother's personality.
What Happened to Molly?
Molly requires a lot more support from others than she would like or ever admit, and had to learn to walk without this crutch in a rather cruel manner.
A group of young Parra that she looked up to had brought up a conversation, one in which she over heard unintentionally, and it was solely about her and how they hated when she would hang around them so much and act as if she was completely apart of their circle. They outwardly talked about her as if she was a book, readable to everyone looking, but they were wrong about a lot of things. She wasn't a leech or purposefully trying to make herself better than others, she wasn't a puppet either. It hurt that they could pin point that she was weak, but the reason she was that way was completely different than they thought. Instead of confronting them at that moment, she was determined to show them that she was stronger than they had first thought, they had been her piers, her mentors, friends, and trustworthy Parras, or at least she had thought so.
she ditched them for three days, and when they tried to contact her, each on their own, she shot them down with cruel things that she knew about them that none of them thought someone like her would notice, or ever pin point. Eventually, they all came together, and just by the way they walked she knew they were a mixture of mad, annoyed, and even some upset or seeming sorry. She took the opportunity to embarrass each of them in front of one another, using sly burns for things she had caught them in the act of. They were all so much more than they thought of each other, like a clear lake, you can see the bottom, but when you step in thinking you can touch it, you drown in water a hundred feet deeper than you initially expect.
She paused at the end of her judgment, and let it sink in before saying, "I noticed all these things in each one of you, to me you are all open books, I'm a book of missing pages, pages that were drenched by rain and then picked up and put in another book that you all named "Molly" despite being unable to read the smeared writing. The last thing you want to do is judge me, its the worst thing you could do, especially when you have someone like me admiring you, who pays attention to the details of everyone and chose to by-pass it all because I liked the differences you hid. you are all one way mirrors, and I am the one from the outside looking in, lucky for all of you, your mirrors just broke thanks to my spiel." she took one last glance at them all, and felt light, as if she was really flying for the first time, and yet chains dug into her legs and didn't seem to let her go farther than inches high.
When she got home, she collapsed in her room shaking worse than she ever expected, she didn't even make it an inch more before she found the world growing dark, and she crashed to the floor. When she awoke, she felt like suddenly the glass bubble she unknowingly lived in had shattered and cut through her flesh. The world outside was something new, different, she was now observing others without wanting to, this was her relation to her mother, in the light of being able to figure out puzzles, mazes or codes, only hers was personalities, actions, and the lives of others without needing to grow close.
She hated herself for what she had done, and yet her mind subsided, and from that moment on, every time she spoke to someone, a red flag appeared in the corner of her vision and her mind started a shut down mode.
"Hurt them before they hurt you."
it was horrible at first, she was so extremely negative about everyone, and began to turn people away without wanting to. She spoke without remembering she moved her lips, gave an attitude without a reaction in her body, she felt numb.
"Hurt them before they hurt you."
As time past the longest she could ever hold a friendship was a month before her fear suddenly slipped and she lost it, then she would be alone again. It was as if on that day, back when she rejected those who rejected her first, she had burnt the book of "Molly" and the writer of the original copy was missing. She was afraid, of others, and especially herself, her gift to see through anyone as if they weren't hiding anything, if you want to survive, you have to be worse than those who are bad.
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Fuscontidox on Mon May 02, 2016 12:40 pm, edited 7 times in total.
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