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Toska; an unbearable sadness of indescribable and devastating quantity〗
Polyushka PolyeUsername: Master of Nothing
Name: Toska
Gender: bigender; masculine pronouns
Dec 25, 1967
The door to the cell opened. Creak... I jolted up and rushed to the door with excitement and caution. "Can I leave today?" I asked the man at the door, failing terribly at hiding my joy.
"Leave?" Harsh laughter consumed the empty room, and a food dish full of a mushy substance was kicked towards me.
"No more tricks, please, I beg you! I can still help you! What about my blood? You can use my blood! Please!"
"I'm not a scientist, kid, just a guard. I have no interest in your blood."
"Then bring me a scientist!" I pleaded, my voice cracking and my heart in anguish.
The guard paused. For a brief moment all I could hear was his steady breath and my own shallow one. "That... would contradict my direct orders from Good Comrade. For the preservation of my loyalty to him and the Motherland, your request will be denied."
Without any further discussion, the giant metal door was slammed shut. I heard the man resetting the many door locks.
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Yep, that's every day for me. Even now I'm stuck in that cell, and only occasionally they let me outside to preserve my sanity. I was born in a remote lab in the forests of Siberia, Russia, as a scientific experiment. I was genetically modified from the basic code of a normal plumerian, so I guess I'm like a clone that was made original. I was born 1958, a year after the famed Space Race started. I was meant to explore space and travel across universes within seconds, via black holes, of which I could safely navigate. I was supposed to be able to survive without any oxygen and little food. I was to be the prodigy of not only my country, but all of humanity. I would be a hero- a warrior, which is how I got my name. Voin, Russian for "warrior". I would be unstoppable, and no one could contain me. Except... they did. As genetics were a fairly new and highly experimental concept, I did not turn out to be the amazing little alien everyone wanted me to be. In fact, I was closer to a normal plumerian than anything, with only a few differences like an elongated lifespan. Unfortunately, the scientists that raised me did not discover this until I was three years old, so I had already been exposed to luxury and kindness. When they found out what I really was, they locked me up in a cell immediately. I was too unimportant to use, but too important to destroy, and so I would spend the majority of my life there. It's a cold, dim place, with cement floors, walls, and ceiling. It's freezing almost all year round, since the heater is broken and has never been fixed. I have a small little army cot to sleep in, but no other furniture. I get three meals of bland food every day, and I go outside only to get five minutes of fresh air. I'm aware it's less than ideal, but it's what I've grown up with. More than anything, it's lonely. That's why I renamed myself Toska, and Toska I will be forevermore.

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the version of Polyushka Polye I used is by Origa
art by me (Master of Nothing)
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