overcaffienated. wrote:overcaffienated. wrote:overcaffienated. wrote:i'm sorry guys, i know i've been posting a lot, but life is spiraling south these days, aha
if you remember, my (severely depressed and highly anxious) best friend has been on my mind a lot. well, i kinda didn't mention that she also desperately wants and needs therapy but her parents think it's 'just a trend' and a waste of time. i feel horrible about it, knowing that she's been suffering like this for years with no light at the end of the tunnel
so just today i was at the doctor's to get a prescription for anxiety meds (another thing i was feeling guilty about), and the pediatrician asked me what sorts of things caused my anxiety. after running through the school and home situation, i mentioned my friend (not a name, of course), and her whole situation, and the doctor said 'well i hope her pediatrician...'
well, my pediatrician's also hers, so my mom asked her if it was legal for us to tip her off so she could talk to my friend privately and just maybe talk some sense into her parents, and after a bit we agreed that, since the doctor wasn't sharing any of her information with us, we were fine
so my friend's got a physical this month and i'm honestly really nervous, because i feel like this might go really far south really fast if her parents suspect she's being 'brainwashed' or something (they have severe misconceptions about mental illness and therapy), and our friendship might be terminated if they suspect someone tipped the doctor off (which very well might send me over the edge, just the thought of her going to college makes me die inside), and i really can't take that
i'm just really anxious about this because i want her to get help and i'm happy she has a chance but there's so many things that could go wrong and i just
ugh
i told my friend, now i'm terrified. what if it all goes wrong? what if my friend gets in trouble? what if i do?
ugh this is unbearable
she just self-diagnosed with bpd too and i'm so worried about her
great, now on top of all this i have two finals, school, a concert, a psychiatrist appointment, and a therapist appointment that i have to somehow string together tomorrow
and i think i might just have dependent personality disorder
i can't do this anymore i really am about to explode
inkyy wrote:@Sasha hey, i know how you feel ;o for me, i find that looking forward to things in the furture gives me motavation. like, you have to keep going so you can do that thing ;D even tiny little things tbh. and if someone is pushing you away, not treating you nice, they dont deserve you <3 friendships change, and its better not to force things. yeah it will be hard, but you will feel better, sometime in the future <33
hello, im back again. tiny notice because im super bad at things like this. if i dont reply to your pm, thats a good thing because ive kinda sorted it out (im sorry ;u;)
just a little trival thing tbh.
i really want to go into town with my 2 best friends to go christmas shopping. this friday is the perfect opportunity and one of my friends really wants to go too! but my other friend is being super vague about it. we have asked them multiple times but they just dont answer properly "oh ill ask my parents" "oh yeah" stuff like that. they never spend time with us and we want to hang out more (they are my best friend) they always spend time with their gf, texting, hanging out after school- even though she isnt their gf anymore.
should i continue pressing for them to come with us? i cant just go with my other friend who wants to go- things have happened between us and i dont want to spend a long time along with them ;u;
reply here, or pm i dont mind!!
miss believer wrote:I'm in a better state of mind lately, but omg, I'm so stressed.
Math is kicking my butt and I don't think anyone can understand the agony that carrying this secret is putting me through ;u;
Uggghhh
Kyasu wrote:I could cry.
I could literally cry..
My crush just graduated today and... I may never see him again.
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