name - Charlotte Rose
gender - Female
age - 18
date - 5/27/12
time - 7:48 pm
location - on a beach
Dear whoever has been lucky enough to have found my message,
It's almost eight o'clock in the evening. Im currently sipping on a cup of warm coffee lounging in a beach chair watching the sun turn the sky turn into a deep scarlet fading into a deep navy spotted with twinkling stars. For once in my life, I actually feel at peace with the world.
My name is Charlottle Rose. I am 18 years old following my dreams to become a well-known humanitarian. So with that you probably think I'm compassionate and caring for all kinds of people. And you're right. But it wasn't always like this. Growing up was difficult being as shy and afraid as I was. I always preferred to stay at home in the safety of my parents arms. I was an easy target to be picked on and bullied brutally. By high school i seemed to break out of my shell and became more outgoing and confident. And that has led up to where I am now. A bright, young, confident woman chasing her dreams.
Here is my story...
When I was just seven years old, I began to be bullied at school? Crazy right? We were so young. How could they do something like that? I don't have a single clue. When I was 12 years old, I was in sixth grade. I was the loser girl who never spoke and sat at the back of the close. And when I did speak, everyone looked at me as if it was the first time they had ever seen me. The girls were awfully brutal to me. Calling me names. Teasing me. Eventually even my friends began to stab me in the back. And I didn't even do anything for them to something to me. Throughout middle school I often went home and cried for several hours each and everyday. But if you saw me nowadays you have never even guessed. I was stuck in a deep hole of depression and anxiety. And I actually told myself several times that I would never be able to pull myself out. And I believed it. I spent most of my life hidden away in my room either crying or overthinking. And to make things worse. I told myself that all this stuff happening to me was my fault. Which I have come to realize that I was wrong. And then high school year came. On that very first day of school, I told myself while standing in front of my bathroom mirror, "I can do this." And I did.
In life you have your ups and downs and even times where you think that your life is just so horrible that you can't even stand to think about another day. But while you may sit crying in bed, a thought crosses your mind. You can and will make it. No matter how bad things may seem, you will always find a way through. I have always told myself that since that very first day. And this is why I wish to pursue becoming a humanitarian. I understand how life can just feel like it just through you down into hell and that nothing can ever go right for you. And it hurts. I love and care for every single individual person I have ever met in my entire life. Even though I may have been wronged more than once, I learn to forgive those people and move on. You can't let other people make you feel as if you are nothing because their opinion never really mattered in the first place. I wish to make other people realize this because it has helped me become the plumie I am today and I wish to see others just as happy as I am..
I now spend my time traveling around, investing my time into the things I love with the people I care about. Even when you may feel totally alone, there is always someone who will stand beside you.
So dear whoever may be reading this, don't give up. Don't ever give up.