

Username: Bloodscythe
Name: Scratch
Gender: Male
Age Range: Young Adult
Current Residence: Studio Apartment in Arizona











The Basics wrote:If you only listen with your ears... i can't g e t i n
a short mix to listen to while you read
n a m e;;Agust Hall
g e n d e r;;
Agust is a swedish variant of the name Augustus, a name symbolizing strength or bravery -- ironic, given his shyness.
This name is pronounced just as the month August!
His middle name is more befitting of him; Ambali. It is an indian name, meaning sensitive, or compassionate.
Agust's last name is Hall. It may sound anglicized or American, but it is a surname seen in many European countries, signifying someone who has served in a hall of nobles or royalty. Agust has never been a member of the upper class, and never will be -- even now, his family seems dedicated, and happy with, a role of servitude. Always willing to help and feed others, they don’t mind being “below” others. Agust chose not to hyphenate his last name -- he keeps his father’s name, a memento of him that he feels somewhat makes up for his absence during his early childhood.Agust is biologically male and uses male pronouns -- mostly for the benefit of his family and friends. Being a native of rural (and by that, I mean rural) Sweden, most of the people in his life only accept two genders; and those genders are always in accordance with sex. Although he is comfortable with the label ‘male’, he leans more toward the genderfluid end of the spectrum. On most days, he feels perfectly cozy in a male body, but he possesses a lot of stereotypically female traits, and envies women’s ability to outwardly express emotion and ‘pretty up’.
a g e;;Agust is 21, but often doesn't act his age. He can be childish and on occasion he throws mild tantrums when overwhelmed or upset. He tends to like things generally targeted at children. He has trouble interpreting some books and films for adults, both due to his slightly limited english and the fact that he’s not the cleverest kia. He simply prefers media designed for children and young adults. He enjoys being able to comfortably understand them without too much effort, and likes to indulge in lighter, happier storylines. You don't have to be a rocket scientist to enjoy something!
s e x u a l i t y;;Upon moving out of his childhood home, Agust has been able to explore his sexuality on his own. Agust never felt any real attraction to girls, both as a child and an adult - this being said, he identifies as homosexual; but he does find women charming and almost envies them in a sense.

n a t i o n a l i t y;;
Agust is a native Swede -- he came from a tiny town in the corner of Sweden, so rural that it was never legally named. It can hardly be called a town; it was simply a tiny port surrounded by two or three houses. This may have contributed to his social anxiety -- after years of only seeing only the same six or seven people, any number of people seems overwhelming. He has since moved to a more urban area of Sweden, a town called Katrineholm.h i s t o r y;;Agust’s father was a herring fisherman - often gone for weeks or months at a time. Therefore, Agust was raised primarily by his mother. Agust has a lot of stereotypically “feminine” traits, but these were not imparted by his mother - she was a strong, barrel-chested woman, and sometimes overbearing toward her son. However, he is proficient in cooking and housekeeping. These skills were instilled early on in him by his mother, who did almost all of the work around the house; from laundry to culling local varmints that would prey on their herring haul. She was the kind of woman who is just as comfortable with a shotgun as a sewing machine, and she was the one who kept Agust warm and safe in his childhood years. This made for a rather interesting youth. His mother was never quite abusive, but rather too abrasive for his liking. This being said, Agust often found refuge in his next door neighbor - an older woman that represents almost a grandmother to him. Seeing as his parents were much older than most, they were rather busy finishing the businesses of youth. When in your late forties, your energy is drained, and there's not much left reserved for children - however, there was a wanting between the parents and thus Agust was born. Agust was raised to be kind and quiet - with the last generation's ideals. Agust lived through no extreme youth, nothing out of the ordinary, and yet he's still a character of beauty. By the time his father had the ability to retire (50 - thanks to strong Swedish infrastructure) Agust had already planned to leave his small home - for somewhere anywhere but there. At this point he moved to Katrineholm to stay with his Aunt and Uncle, finishing as much schooling as possible.
Today Agust still resides in Katrineholm - a beautiful Swedish town.
P h y s i c a l d i s a b i l i t i e s;;Agust has a heart murmur caused by an extra flap of flesh in an artery of his heart -- the poor boy quite literally has too much heart for his own good. It was this that deterred him from moving to the states, although he dearly wanted to leave Sweden - air travel was deemed too stressful for his weak heart, and Swedish healthcare is free, providing a better home to allow his heart to be monitored regularly. This confined him to his native Sweden.
m e n t a l h e a l t h;;While he has never been officially diagnosed, Agust and his close friends and family believe him to have a form of social anxiety. He is extremely anxious and tightly strung, especially around other people, and can often spend hours choosing exactly what to say in a given situation. If he stutters, or his accent butchers a word, he may hold onto this mistake for hours or days, replaying the moment over and over in his head, regretting every second. Currently he's working on coping with his anxiety, and perhaps one day he will seek more information on his illness.
e d u c a t i o n;;Despite mild dyslexia and his social anxiety, which was less severe as a child, he completed grades K-8 (he was homeschooled by his mother, but tested into 8th grade at the age of fifteen, a year or two later than most children). After moving to Katrineholm, he stayed with his aunt and uncle, who provided him with what he needed to attend high school. However, Agust dropped out of high school halfway through his sophomore year due to the overwhelming pressures of high school. His anxiety prohibited him from most school activities, and eventually from attending school at all. Later in life he attained his GED (after moving out of his Aunt and Uncle's) so that he would qualify for better jobs.
b o o k s m a r t or s t r e e t s m a rt?Agust has always been streetsmart above booksmart -- despite his anxiety, he is excellent at reading people and situations, probably due to all the time he has spent watching rather than being caught up in social situations. Although he often doesn't know what to do with himself when placed in a social setting, he is often able to give valuable advice to friends and family on how to deal with others. Despite his partial lack of education, he adores reading - albeit he reads incredibly slowly. However, how slow he reads also contributes to his comprehension! It takes him forever to finish a book, and his dyslexia certainly doesn't help his reading speed., but he completely immerses himself in the story, poring over every word. Nonetheless, this sure does show you what kind of person he is - diligent and dedicated to his interests.
r e l i g i o n;;In terms of religion, Agust marches to the beat of his own drum. When pried, he identifies himself as agnostic, believing in a higher power but one that is not necessarily embodied by a specific god. However, he also believes in some forms of reincarnation; not a complete embodiment of the self, but in other sentient beings taking on traits of another person or thing previously deceased, or the creation of an animal with preconceived notions or views based on those of a once-living person.
Both of these beliefs are unique to him (in his family that is!)t h o s e e y e s;;Agust’s closed eyes are a trait he originally developed to prevent snow-blindness, caused by the glare of sun and moon on bright white snow. Since leaving his childhood home, it has become less of a necessity and more of a security blanket. Keeping his eyes closed, in a way, shields him from what he might see - the world is a big, scary place, and keeping his eyes closed allows him one more barrier between him and its coldness. It lets him remain blissfully unaware of its size, both its emptiness and its terrifying fullness; when his eyes are closed, no one can pull him from his warm, dark home.

Agust is born under the zodiac sign cancer (June 23rd). He has a strong instinct for keeping himself and others safe, and is in touch with his emotions as well as the emotions of others. However, he can sometimes take things a step too far, and is subject to mood swings - one comment can turn his mood around completely. He is conscious of the fact that he is "needy" and craves affection, but finds it difficult not to come off as clingy. He relates to cancer's avatar, the crab, more than one would think - he feels an intense fight-or-flight response when he feels threatened, even slightly, and has a strong sense of self-preservation. He also tends to lash out and snap when overwhelmed - he needs space and time to cool down, or he may snap his claws shut on your finger!
Relationships wrote:Agust ➳ MeribethAgust walked closely behind Meribeth, fighting the urge to grab onto her steadily swishing tail for guidance, not wanting to accidentally trip over a stone or root, and afraid of losing sight of Meribeth - not wanting to be stuck in the wilderness alone. He stumbled slightly, falling directly into her.
"Watch it!" Meribeth started - her eye were daggers.
“S-sorry!!” Agust blurted hurriedly, a blush spreading across his cheeks, feeling clumsy and stupid in comparison to the adept hiker. He felt like a fish out of water, wanting to enjoy himself but unwilling to open his eyes. She huffed and turned to face him.
“It's fine,” she spat. "Just - be careful."
Agust answered with a shy nod as he trotted to catch up with her.
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“I wish I hadn't been so nervous -- I think she would have liked me more. Maybe if we had met somewhere else? I don't really think I like hiking much... Somehow I managed to get a bird's nest stuck in my tail...”
Agust ➳ PatrickAgust ➳ Gatsby
Patrick smiled widely, hoping to give Agust an extra bit of confidence, but when the quiet Agust did speak up, Patrick did.
“You’re a quiet kid, huh?” he spoke, breaking the silence for what seemed like the hundredth time, Agust not easily picking up on his cues and forcing him to carry the brunt of the conversation.
Agust flashed him a shadow of a smile and began to fidget with his paws, looking desperately for an outlet for his nervousness.
“Y-yeah... I guess I’m a little shy...” the younger kiamara replied.
"Nice to meet you--" Patrick paused, his face contorting into a wicked grin. Agust had only too late realized his mistake; "--a little shy." Agust sighed in annoyance as Patrick continued. "I'm Patrick."
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"He was really nice! Just - the puns..."Gatsby stepped back slightly, regarding Agust’s new attire, watching him shift and squirm uncomfortably. He sat down, then stood again, trying to get comfortable in the fitted clothing, used to a soft, loose fit. “Does it at least look good...?”
Gatsby scoffed lightly, a smirk crawling on to her face. “Well, it’s better than what you were wearing.”
Agust let out a nervous, jittery laugh, not wanting to offend the person that had so kindly outfitted him. “Is it really worth it? I mean, when’s the last time you wore something comfortable?”
Gatsby laughed again. “When was the last time you wore something fashionable?”
She smiled, before turning and leaving Agust alone with his new attire.
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"She was sweet! I'm just not sure if she was kidding or being nice, but I guess I like these clothes!"
Agust ➳ Chernobyl & PandoraAgust hung back behind the two others he was walking with, hoping to avoid Pandora, an excitable woman seemingly bent on beating Agust into submission through pure extroversion. Agust had taken a liking to Cher, but Pandora made him nervous -- She drew attention to their little group just by, well, being Pandora. Agust switched sides, walking beside Chernobyl, hoping that the lively young woman hadn't noticed him, but she demurred, changing her position as well, walking directly beside August -- forcing him to realize only too late that she had been aware of his presence ever since she had joined him and chernobyl.
Agust ➳ Iz
“Hey, baby, who might you be?” she chimed, giving him a playful wink and nudging him in the ribs, catching Agust completely off guard. He scrambled for an appropriate response, his brain not able to catch up with his mouth, and he let out a panicked groan. He huffed and hid his face in his coat, embarrassed at his pathetic attempt at conversation. Chernobyl gave him a pained grin, as if to say, “We’ve all been here, buddy.” he gave him a comforting pat on the back, only causing Agust to cough and stumble. “I-I think I have somewhere else to be...”
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“Chernobyl is really nice! I think he liked me too! But Pan... She kinda scares me. Is she gone yet..?”“Can I get you a martini, babe? Hang on, lemme get you a martini.”
“N-no thank you, I don't drink...!”
“Hang on, honey! I cant hear you. I'll be back in a sec.”
Agust realized with dismay that, despite his protests, Iz had brought out a second martini for him. He eyed it nervously, managing a weak smile. “Thanks...”
“Of course, sweetheart.” the older made herself comfortable on the couch again, looking at Agust encouragingly. He gave her another weak grin and ate the olive off the rim of his drink - soon after Iz fell asleep on the couch.
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"I hope she didn't how wet my bag was - I just kept pouring them in, and she just kept bringing them... I didn't have the heart to tell her I can't stand booze..."
Agust ➳ RaAgust had spent nearly the whole day tagging along with Ra and his friends, enduring hours of playful and not-so-playful teasing, keeping his head down in hopes of a moment alone with Ra, a young man who seemed to be the kingpin of the jeering group of kiamaras. Despite being at the back of the pack and ruthlessly berated, he remained in somewhat of a daze - the poor boy was absolutely smitten with Ra, who seemed to dismiss his feelings entirely. While Agust had tried to write it off as a schoolgirl crush, he simply couldn't shake it.
Ra trotted up to Agust and spoke in a hushed tone "Listen, I'm sorry I'm such a jerk - if it causes any problems - I mean, like depression, anxiety - just let me know."
Agust beamed up at him, unconcerned by his previous attitude.
“I don’t mind! I-I mean, I know we're still friends and all.” He paused for a moment, nosing at the fur around his neck. “Um... we are friends, right...?”
Ra snickered "Sure kid - I can't believe you've stuck around with me, honestly." Ra laughed "I'm awful - you're a pretty tough kiddo."
The bigger male paused for a moment "But uh - don't tell any of the guys, would you - about my concern. They'd catch wind of my own problems, and that'd be the end of that." After a chuckle and a brief farewell, Ra disappeared.
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Agust stammers and laughs, trying for some time to force out a coherent sentence. Eventually he gives up, a bright blush spreading across his face as he buries his nose shyly in his fur.



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