☆ ★ ★ Sıпσυα ★ ★ ☆
the walker among stars
the walker among stars
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Nαмε: Sinoua
Nıcκпαмεƨ: Sinna, Sinoua
Pяεғεяяεɔ Nıcκпαмε: Sinoua
Gεпɔεя: Male
Aɢε: 26 human years
Sεхυαʟıтч: Pansexual
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Sinoua is a calm and quiet guy who mostly don't get worked up over anything unless really necessary. He can be quite the recluse at times, keeping away from everyone or just simple being up at hours other people aren't. He's also often described as an observer, just watching and taking things in from the side-line. This doesn't mean he's shy in any sort of manner, he just basically prefer to keep to himself and take in things in his own time. He's called and referred to as slow as it takes him quite a lot of time to come with a reply or reaction to things, but he basically just feels the need to think things through properly before he speak up. As he's both afraid of being misunderstood and hates when his words come out wrong. He's a caring sima who don't hesitate to stand up for others or protect other. He's philosophic and usually thinks on things or in a way that not many would do. He's reserved around people as he's afraid to do or say something wrong, this is also a reason to why he take his time to come with an answer. He's a fragile sima that easily take words and acts up to himself wheatear they were meant for him or not. He might not always show off how much things affect him but that doesn't change the fact that it does.☆ ★ ★ Lıκεƨ
Stars and galaxies
Astronomy and astrology
Stargazing
Sounds from nature
philosophize
Order
Blueberries
Darkness
Fireflies
ReadingDıƨƨʟıκεƨ ★ ★ ☆
people stressing over things
Unnatural sounds
Sudden sounds
Sourness
Disorder
Anger
Strong light
Cold
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Acтıνıтıεƨ:Sinoua doesn't have that many activities as a normal day basis, but a few things he does pretty often is stargazing, calculating things connected to space, philosophizing and night-time swimming.
Sʟεερ:Even though Sinoua sleep at a normal length as any other sima he usually prefers sleeping during the day, so that he can stay up during the night and look up at the stars and wander his way out among them.
Fσσɔ:Sinoua is pretty picky when it comes to food, he mostly only eat fruits and berries. But he also sometimes eats different vegetables and edible plants. He Stays away from eating any kind of meat though as he's a vegetarian.
Lσνε:Love is one thing that is quite important in Sinoua's life, He would love to settle down sometime in the furture and have kits. The most important or really the only important thing he would look for is the personality, he really doesn't care about the outside and just don't believe in love at first sight either. He looks for someone who's personality just clicks with him, someone he can feel home with and someone who will accept him for who he are.
Jεшεʟ ρσшεя:Being a pink jewelled sima he has the power of love. He's aware of his power and know what it does, but he refuses to use it. Love is a feeling that have to come naturally, you can't force it out. So through is whole life he hasn't used his jewel power once, and he's not planning on using it in the future either.
Sinoua wrote:"You see the sky as blue at the same time as you see the grass as green. You can say that that is what you see, but you can't really say that that is what it is. Cause the sky isn't blue and the grass isn't green, they are all the colours except the one colour you see them as. It's what you don't see that it is, but it's so much easier to just call the sky blue and the grass green, now isn't it?"
Owl City wrote:Way up in the air, you're finally free
And you can stay up there, right next to me
All this gravity will try to pull you down
But not this time
When the sun goes down and the lights burn out
Then it's time for you to shine
Brighter than a shooting star
So shine no matter where you are
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Tıмε σғ тнε ɔαч:Night
Sεαƨσп:Autumn
Aпıмαʟ:Fireflies
Cσʟσυя:Yellowy orange
Tнıпɢ тσ εαт:Blueberries
Bσσκ:Astonomy and astrology books
Cʟσтнεƨ: Lighter polo-neck sweater with a darker sweater vest
Sσпɢ:Owl city - Shooting star
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Bυıʟɔ:He's of average build, neither that sturdy not that thin. When it comes to height he's just a bit taller than average, standing around three inches higher than an average sima
Wσяɔƨ:He has a quite soft and quiet voice, that never really go up in volume or tone. His voice is tone-vice neither deep nor high, staying on an average tone. His accent his quite hard to determine but many would call it a and British English with more of an American accent.
Gεпεяαʟ αρρεαяαпcε:He is mostly seen standing pretty tall and straight up and down. But still even if he's standing tall he still has a general soft and welcoming look to him. His fur and mane is always well-kept and fluffy but quite thing and not that warm. His eyes always seem to spark with determination and interest.
Cʟσтнεƨ αпɔ αccεƨƨσяıεƨ:He usually don't wear any clothes or accessories at all. The only times here where clothes is during the colder months of the year to keep warm as his fur really isn't that good at keeping him warm. The clothes he usually where at those times are a light polo-neck sweater with some lighter colourful patches, usually at least one of the patches is shaped like a star, and he also has a sweater vest accompanying it.
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Sενεяαʟ Yεαяƨ αɢσ:It was a dark early-winter night, the snow that laid heavy on the ground was constantly built up by the snow that was slowly falling to it's new resting place, the ground. The only thing that disturbed the stillness of the night was a darker figure who made it's way through the snow. Puffs of white smoke surrounded it's mouth with every outbreath and it pushed it's head closer to the neck of it's polo-neck sweater in an attempt to escape some of the coldness this winter had brought with it. The grey male sima was trudging along, just going nowhere in particular. He didn't have anywhere to go anyway. The young sima named Sionua stopped in his tracks, he looked up at the moon shining weakly through the tops of the bare trees. He could come to the conclusion that it was just past midnight from the position of the moon. He tried his best to fluff up his fur just a little more to protect himself from the coldness, but it didn't help that much as his fur wasn't the most protective against cold in the first place. When he couldn't get control of his shakings he decided to continue walking, at least that way he could gather some warmth.
Sinoua felt his mind starting to wander off like it usually did, he tried to shake himself back to senses but he soon found himself lost in his thoughts again. He felt the taunts from the simas that he used to call his clanmates fill his head, He shook his head once again in an attempt to get rid of the memory as he fought to keep the tears from coming. He forced his paws to keep on ploughing through the snow, but he couldn't shake away the taunting words that echoed in his head. The forest around him opened up from trees to just a snow-covered patch of grass, the snow there where extra deep as there where to trees to protect the ground. Sinoua walked into the clearing where he let his body just flop down in the snow, he didn't care if his fur and clothes would get wet, he didn't care if he would get cold lying there on the ground, he just didn't have the energy to just keep on going with no destination in mind what so ever.
Sinoua Hugged a pile of snow together and put his head on top of the pile, the snow was surprisingly comfortable and not at all as cold as he had imagined it would be. He just lied there, just trying to get a hold of his emotions until his mouth formed words subconsciously out of his thoughts.
-I-i'm no-ot s-stupid or worthless-s. I-I'm not sl-slow I'm just don-n't wan' things co-coming out the wrong wa-ay.
Why can't th-they acc-cept me for who I am, why ca-an't they u-understa-and?
His voice was soft, but shaking slightly due to the cold but also due to the emotions that filled his body. It also just merely came out as a whisper, it wasn't meant for anyone but him anyway. he lifted his head up towards the sky and let his gaze wander around the stars. Sinoua had always found comfort in the stars, they where always there, day as night even if they where hidden behind clouds or hiding in the light they where still there. And there was always at least one of the more famous constellation he could find in the sky above him. His eyes flickered from star to star finding those who connected. After he had identified two of the constellation he knew by heart his eyes flickered on until they stopped at a point in the sky. His face formed a frown as he stared on one of the stars that just seemed to stand out form all the others. it just seemed to shine brighter than the others and he felt that it just didn't belong there. His eyes squinted as his mind went in circles trying to think out a possible solution to the present event.
Sinoua's whole body froze up for a second as what he had though was a star started moving about. It was slowly growing until that point the little glowing thing was right up in his face. his eyes looked onto the little glowing thing and noticed a small dark body of an insect connected to it. From the look of the creature he could come to the conclusion that it was a firefly or lightning bug as he had more commonly heard them being called. he felt himself loosen up at the same time as he continued to stare at the little creature in amazement. he had never seen a firefly in real life, he had just heard of them from what other simas had said and read about them in books. Still the little creatures had always interested him throughout his childhood, he felt really stupid for mixing a firefly up with a star. He mentally slapped himself for his own stupidity, without letting his eyes of the glowing creature. Something moved in the background of his vision and his eyes moved from the firefly just in front of him so his eyes could focus on the background. His chin dropped in surprise, the clearing around him was filled with loads of fireflies, lighting up the clearing in a surprisingly strong manner.
Sinoua's eyes flickered from one firefly to another. He was amazed by them, they all seemed to move at their own account but still they moved together and forming a dance of lights, a dance of stars. His eyes returned to the firefly who kept on hovering just in front of him.
-I understand why some call you lightning bugs but fireflies are just false marketing, but maybe that's just me. To me you are nothing like fire
Even though he know it was useless, he found himself talking to the little glowing bug. He looked around at all the fireflies, all thoughts that had haunted him gone with the wind, so had the coldness that had filled his body. His eyes stopped once again on the firefly closest to him and he said
-You are more like the stars of earth, our light in the dark...Like the stars you guide us, not by actual steps but with something else... Thank you, I didn't know I needed it but thanks
The fireflies swayed around in a last part of their dance before they one after one disappeared up into the sky again. Sinoua let his eyes follow them as long as he could. But once they all where out of sight he started walking again. With a new strength filling his body, a new hope.
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Sinoua was born in a group of 14 simas that referred to themselves as a clan. Throughout his whole life, Sinoua never really got to know his own mother as she died very early on in his life. He lived out his childhood with his father, and grew up mostly from his ways. His father had always been more or less depressed since the pass away of Sinoua's mother and from time to time locked himself in into himself, So Sinoua quickly learnt to take care of himself and find his own ways around in life. Sinoua was quite a loner already as a kit as he was the only kit to be born the year he was and the ones closest to him in terms of age was still at least five years older than him. Which mostly lead to him being alone most of the time as he was both too small and also too young to really understand and be able to play with the older simas. He quickly found an interest in books, as it was a way to satisfy his curiosity to explore the world around him when he yet was too small to really leave the clan's area. The times he didn't spend reading and learning about the world he spent with his father. Those times was mostly filled with his father trying his best to learn Sinoua about the stars, the way they connected and moved. Sinoua's father was always patient with him and always gave him time to think things through before going on, a thing that no one else really did to him.
When he grew to the age of six years he was a intelligent and well kept sima, but Sinoua himself had found a problem. His mind had easy to just spiral away in thoughts, making it hard for him to focus for longer times on conversations or things that happened around him. This quickly made a ground for the slightly older simas to pick on him, as for them he appeared retarded or just plainly stupid as he had a hard time even following a normal day conversation. This made him keep off to himself even more which only really made the problem worse as he almost completely stopped trying to follow what happened around him. He also due to this got more and more stuck inside reading or spending his nights awake with his father looking out among the stars.
In the end of his sixth year in life his farther broke down completely, and he left the clan forever. He told Sinoua he was just going out to get some air, but he never came back. Sinoua accepted this pretty quickly, he had known for a longer time that his father never would last long. But after this Sinoua became even more of a loner as he now didn't have anyone he really wanted to talk or be with at all. With this the taunting and picking from the older simas also grew more and more. In the beginning Sinoua just ignored it and pushed all the words and everything away, but he soon found the words started to grow too much for him to handle. In the beginning of the winter season, about half a year since his fathers disappearance. Everything just tipped over for Sinoua, all the words to much for him to handle. So he followed his fathers steps and just left the clan, without any notice. Just leaving everything behind to search an opportunity to just start over. And since then he has been mostly on the go at all times.
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Fεαяƨ:Sinoua don't have that many things he fear in life. But the ones he ha is the fear of being misunderstood in general, both due to his appearance and due to what he says. he's afraid of having his words come out wrong slightly due to the fact that he's afraid of being misunderstood. He don't really know himself where these two fears came from, but he thinks that it might have something to do with the fact that he was misunderstood most of his childhood as he never really got the chance to express himself properly.
Pяσвʟεмƨ:
Another fear he has is the fear of deeps and the underground, basically he's afraid of going own deep underground or just generally thinking of going down below earth scares him. He prefers to have the sky open above him. This fear has more or less come during the later years of his life from nowhere really. When exposed to this fear he becomes very tense, quitter then normal and almost paranoid. His eyes keep flickering towards a possible escape and he caries his head low.Other than fears Sinoua has some other problems in life, the biggest one of them is the problem that his mind has so easy to just spiral away from focus. He basically can get lost in his mind at even the most inconvenient of times and without even noticing it himself. During time he has gotten more used to this problem so he can more and more notice it by himself and shake himself back to senses before his mind goes too deep. This is however still a problem that appears pretty often and this makes it a pain for him to follow along in conversations for longer times and generally just focus on the surrounding for longer times. Surprisingly reading books is as for now the only thing where his mind don't spiral away even after hours of reading.
Another problem he has is the fact that he don't really know how to express himself properly, he can talk about random stuff an explain that good and so, he's just not good with when the subject comes more to himself. This comes from the fact that he has lived by himself most of his life, not really caring to show himself off. To the day it makes it hard for him to connect properly with other simas, but he still tries his best as this is a thing he knows it's important. even though he most of the times prefer to be alone, it's still important to have people in your life you can just talk to or hang around with when ones feels like it.
- [I'm sorry if I have includes something that counts as traits in the personality. English is not my native language so I had a hard time trying to figure out what a trait was... And also forgive my grammar sometimes e-e
Also art by me, the pixel was put together by me using a couple of different pokemon sprites]
