[saint.EXE]

what a cutie -u-
not going to apply for this bab, but good luck to those who do!

[TabbiKat]

Username:tabbikat
Name:BellaTrix
Gender:female
Personality:wip
Extras:wip

[Mlggirl]

Reserve!

[jern.]

I honestly thought she was a gypsy at first. X3
Lovely design, jern~ <3

yea XD I thought about that after :'D
thank you everyone ;u;

[TabbiKat]

I honestly thought she was a gypsy at first. X3
Lovely design, jern~ <3

yea XD I thought about that after :'D
thank you everyone ;u;

me too!
(i'm playing a pirate in treasure island, she would be sooooo encouraging!)

[Tempest Rain]

Tempest Rain



Thorn

Her real name is Alicanna (Al-eese-ann-ah) or Alice for short, but her past shall explain why she decided to change it. She dislikes people calling her by her real name and she gets snappy when people call her by it. Only the closest of friends may call her Alice, but that is only if you can win her trust.



She is female, although she does not always act according to her gender. Her relatives and friends say she is a huge tomboy

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ＭＹＳＴＥＲＩＯＵＳ ☾ Wherever she goes, she always has a 'do not approach' aura and she is very distant from others. She tends to be quiet and no one can ever tell what she is really thinking. She is usually dozing off or staring into the distance which makes her seem unapproachable, which she does not mind, she likes the feeling of being alone, but every now and then, she yearns for someone to come by and say they truly understand how she feels. She can be very hard to read, she is unpredictable at most times and she often has a dark expression. She looks very boring on the outside, but on the inside she is the most complicated of kias and this makes her very unique from others.
ＲＥＳＥＲＶＥＤ ☾Thorn likes to be kept apart from everyone and live in her own fantasy, but she will step up when needed. Her reserved side of her is weaker then the rest of her personality, because depending on her mood will depend on how she acts. She has mood swings and this

can determine which side of her personality she shows more.

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ＤＥＬＩＮＱＵＥＮＴ ☾ As a child she acted very girly around others, she only did this to give people a good impression of her, and her personality in the present time was never the least bit like what she displayed as a child. She had many secrets and her true personality hidden away until just recently when she escaped her parents house, her true self arose and she began to not hide her feelings anymore, for she doesn't care what others think of her, she just wants to do what she wants. She wants the easy way out of every situation, even if that means to cause grief and suffering to others, she feels that she is getting revenge on the world and her fate for making her live the way she did.

ＭＩＳＴＲＵＳＴＩＮＧ ☾ Her crew trusts her, but she has a lacking trust in everyone and anyone. You can tell right away from talking to her that she seems wary of the encounter and she wont share any secrets with you. She dislikes people trying to pry into her secrets and she doesn't let anyone get too close to her in fear of being betrayed.

ＡＲＲＯＧＡＮＴ ☾ She tries to fix this habit of hers, but she feels that arrogance is necessary in the situation she is in to gain confidence from others and to let others know that she is alright and nothing shall leave her shaken and helpless.

ＥＭＯＴＩＯＮＡＬＬＹ ＳＴＲＯＮＧ ☾ Despite having been through the things she has, she keeps her head held high and she tries not to let it bother her, or to not show it on the outside. Inside she worries a lot about the past, but she'd rather not let anyone know about it to show that she can handle any problem or situation with ease. She can easily deal with stress but sometimes she gets irritated easily if she is under too much pressure that the average person can't deal with.

ＣＡＲＩＮＧ☾ Believe it or not, but she does have a heart and she does think of others quite frequently. She would rather not dwell on her hatred for others, but sometimes she can't help but to not get rid of it because no matter what, it lingers there, it is like her shadow and she can never get rid of her true feelings. She sometimes lets her kindness show, but not for long because she feels it would make her look too soft and helpless, but if anyone was in need of help, she'd step up to help them. In a sense, some would say she has a split personality, but this is only because she doesn't know which side of her to show more, her caring side, or her controlling/arrogant side, and therefore it conflicts with how she acts everyday.

ＵＮＤＥＲＳＴＡＮＤＩＮＧ ☾ She knows when she has lost an argument and she doesn't pester others if she knows it won't do her any good or if it will just irritate them. If someone needs to just verbally express their feelings, she will listen with utmost respect and honesty and she will try to help if she can, she dislikes it if she witnesses a problem she is unable to do anything to help.

“What lies behind you and what lies in front of you, pales in comparison to what lies inside of you.”
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... I never had a charmed life, I never expected to be given much of a chance or to have much of a chance in life. We grew up extremely poor and I do have a lacking tolerance for most people because they didn't ever give me a break in life, or so it seemed. My parents told me I had two siblings, but they disappeared supposedly and I never saw them or had known their names, I believe that my parents had lied when they said they strangely disappeared, but I couldn't care less about them, because wherever they are, they probably had it a lot better than I did. I am not the type to sulk around and expect attention from others, so I don't go out of my way to make others pity me. My parents were broke and whatever money they had were spent on drugs and alcohol and very little of it was put to good use, they never had the money to send me to school and my family was a miserable mess, of course it effected me emotionally, but I still kept a straight face and lied to others, not letting them know the horrors that happened. I had no life and I had no future, it was inevitable unless I did something to make it change. I couldn't live life like that, and I knew there had to be another way out of this.

On the evenings I'd sneak out of my house to go for an evening stroll just to get away from my reality and finally have peace and quiet, but afterwards i'd come back home only to find my parents arguing again. They hated each other and I knew they did, the only reason my mom stayed with my father was for financial support, which we hardly got anyways, so I don't see the point. They say that true love is hard to find, but kept forever, but when I look at my parents I feel that love is something forever hidden in this family. I had no friends to confide in and I had my enemies, my family, of course being one of them. Everyday was a fight, both mentally and physically, and at first it was tough, but I've grown accustomed to this life I had and i've learned to let most things go. Most people call it abuse, but I just shrug it off because it's not like it could have gotten any better.

What angered me the most is when my insane father came home and ravaged through my room destroying most of my valuable items, I asked him happened to my jade necklace that my aunt gave me years ago. I haven't seen my aunt since then, but that necklace was my most prized possession and I cherished it. My father got mad and punched me, he said he threw out the useless piece of junk and that I was no better then garbage either. I yelled back at him only to recieve another blow to the side of my face as punishment. It was useless talking to him, he was out of his mind, insane if you'd like to call it that.
Later that night, my mom came to talk to me, it seemed like that was the only time i've seen her sober since she'd constantly try to drink her sorrows away. She told me that she was sorry and I shouldn't have to live that way, she told me that she was going to give me up for adoption. Most people would like the idea in such a situation that I was in, but I hate how my irresponsible mother just decided my future for me, I don't want to live with strangers and I certainly don't want others looking down on me. It was that moment that I stormed out of the house without a word and ran as far away as I could. I didn't know where I was headed, but I just wanted to escape my reality, I don't want that life, it was a curse and I dreaded it, and anywhere would be better then staying there or being put up for adoption.

I ran with tears streaming down my face and I blinked them away and kept running, I had no idea what the future had in store for me anymore. I ran as far as my feet would take me, It poured rain that day, and I wound up seeking shelter in an abandoned straw house. The water would leak through the straw lining, but it had enough insulation to keep me warm enough I guess. I wrapped my tail around myself and buried my muzzle in my fur and hoped it would all end. I closed my eyes and tried to forget what happened. I had contempt for the world, it made me this way and there was no going back on what I did. I will decide my future, and I will take responsibility for the choices i've made. My future was unclear at the time but I still continued to fight my way through life as often as it takes to survive in this world.

I lived in that shelter for many days afterwards, and I continued to struggle and I hardly had any food to eat, whatever meals I got were what I stole and got away with. Throughout my struggles things had gotten much harder for me and I found it more difficult to cope with. I tried to stay alive but I didn't know what cause I had in life and what good would it have been to keep a miserable mess such as myself alive.
Just when I was about to give in to my own despair, someone had found me, it wasn't just anyone, but it was a tall, lean husky looking figure hovering over top of me, he had scars etched down his legs and back and he definitely didn't look like the kind you'd want to mess around with. He was menacing and scary but I was too weak to care, maybe if he killed me, I thought, then my sorrows would disappear along with my soul. I gave a weak smile, as if accepting my fate, but what came next left me baffled and speechless. The menacing figure that loomed over me had a saddened expression on his face, but I couldn't quite figure out why someone as mean as he is would show such an expression. He sat down beside me and explained to me that he was the captain of a well-known pirate crew. I couldn't care less about what he was telling me, but what shocked me the most is when he offered to let me become a crew member. I know it sounds ridiculous, but it was probably going to be the only chance i'll ever get to be who I really wanted to be and to live life the way I wanted to, and I've waited for so long to finally be given a break in life, I wasn't going to let this offer go.

I stayed with the pirate crew for years, and although we were pirates by name, we acted like a gang and I liked the fact of how close everyone is, they were very welcoming to me when I joined and they are both my friends and family now, I don't need anyone else in my life. I named myself Thorn to rid myself of my horrid memories of my past and I very much dislike people calling me by the name my dreaded parents gave me, I find my new name to suit who I am now a lot better. I am now in control of myself and I know where my future is headed, I am proud to say I was a pirate, although i'm not in the present time, but being a pirate opened up so many opportunities for me, and I found value and love in which I had never known before. I believe that those struggles are what brought me to where I am, and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of how lucky I really am.

"One advantage in keeping a diary is that you become aware with reassuring clarity of the changes which you constantly suffer."


Contents(some words got cut off):

"Ever since I've left home I've had to take charge
of both myself and others. I try my best but
I dislike the idea of being so heavily relied on.
I am an individual as well and I
certainly have my faults just like everyone else.
I am not special in any way,
but many still look up to me

I try to appear and act strong
but the truth is,
I am still very insecure and helpless
and I always worry about
losing all that I have gained.

I wish I could be better
and that no one would
no longer look down on me,
but I still don't know
how to achieve that,
but I will find out how
and then people will learn of my name,
I will no longer be harassed.

I think it's time I finally
step up and do something about it.
My dream is in sight
but I am blind to my own reality.
Someone please save me from this darkness,
I don't want to be alone anymore.."

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Gemini Pro's:
- Reliable
- Understanding
- Hard workers


Con's:
- Superficial
- Impulsive
- Restless
- Devious
- Indecisive

In-depth:
Gemini have been known to be extremely independent. They will not be pinned down by anyone or any rules. They like to tread their own path then following everyone else. They need to experience the world on their own. Change and freedom are extremely important to Gemini, They will never let anyone dictate them. They are independent and freedom is essential to their mental well being.

Gemini tends to disperse their energy on different tasks and not just focus on one thing thus leaving a trail of unfinished projects in their wake. If they were to focus their energy in one place, their cleverness and intelligence would allow them to complete their project with success and creativity. Gemini makes an excellent manager, they can motivate a team with their enthusiasm and vitality.
Gemini have the ability to react instantly to situations, and as a result, they have a very nervous temperament.

One downfall of Gemini is their superficiality. Instead of looking deep into a person's real qualities, Gemini will judge a person by the way they treat them. This can lead Gemini to have wrong impressions of people and can cause problems in relationships. Gemini's can have feeling of discouragement and moodiness although they never allow this to be seen by anyone but their closest friends or family.

Gemini people are many sided, quick both in the mind and physically. They are brimming with energy and vitality, they are clever with words. They are intelligent and very adaptable to every situation and every person. Gemini are curious and always want to know what's going on in the world around them. They are not one to sit back and watch the world go by, they want to be involved.

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“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.”
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It may sound silly since she has a tough exterior personality and she gives off the impression she wants to be alone, but one of her greatest fears is being alone, sometimes she likes it, but she doesn't want the feeling of being all alone with no one to confide in, even Thorn needs some support despite her not knowing how to ask for it.
Another fear of hers is to be hated by her crew members who she secretly thinks of as her friends because they accept her and they are the only one's she has in her life, if she loses them, it'd be like losing her life and she absolutely can't stand the mere thought of it.

Likes:
Swimming
Fishing
Collecting
Jewelry
Animals
Ocean
Rivers
Being apart of a group
Writing
Painting and drawing



Dislikes:
Her family
Being sociable for too long
Being alone
Rain/Storms
Receiving gifts, they make her feel like she doesn't deserve them
Mindless people/kias
Arguments
Conceitedness

A hobby of hers is scrap booking, she has done it ever since she was little, her reason for this is for entertainment and to take her mind off of family matters and it was a good way for her to relax and she found peace and enjoyment in the hobby. As a kid she was addicted to scrap booking, but she has grown distant as an adult and even though she does enjoy adding to her scrap book every now and then, important matters usually come up and she is too busy to update it as frequently as she'd like, but she makes an effort to get back into the hobby.

She has always been talented at art and literature, so writing and drawing were her strong points. She loved to draw whenever she was feeling frustrated and if she didn't want to do any scrap booking. Her art book consisted of many drawings and she'd always flip back on them and think of ways she could do to improve her art skill. It was a childhood dream of hers to become a famous artist.

When she was little, she hid away from being seen by her parents and she'd always used to wish that they'd make up and be more welcoming. For a short period of time, she went to stay with her Aunt and when she told her Aunt about her life at home, she was hugged sympathetically and told everything would be okay. Her Aunt handed her a Jade necklace that she said was passed down in her family and that it makes wishes come true. Up until Thorn lost the necklace, she was led to believe it was true, so she'd go to her room and hold her necklace close to her heart while whispering silent wishes of her family being happy together in hopes of it actually coming true. When the wishes didn't work, she just figured it was because no one could help her and that she was rendered helpless either way, but she still deeply cherished the necklace from the memories of her Aunt that she misses dearly.

Arт eɴαвleѕ υѕ тo ғιɴd oυrѕelveѕ αɴd тo loѕe oυrѕelveѕ αт тнe ѕαмe тιмe;;


As a young child she tried teaching herself how to paint and draw, she found it very relaxing and she was very engrossed in it. Painting usually preoccupied most of her day, and when she was having trouble letting go of her emotions, she'd draw in her scrap book to relieve the pain.
To this day she still likes to doodle and paint, but she has to be motivated to do it now and she usually doesn't have the time to.

Thorn is bi, although she leans more towards men. She wants a strong guy who can pick her up off her feet and help her through life, someone who is both kind and strict and will let her know that she is special in every way possible.



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Extrinsic or intrinsic: (Outer motivation or inner)
Thorn definitely likes to have an inner motivation, she hates to be motivated by a cause
and she doesn't seek recognition from anyone,
as far as she's concerned, as long as her needs and her friends' needs are met,
then that's all that matters to her.

Clumsy or controlled:
Thorn is a little bit of both, she is more in control of herself,
the odd time she tends to be forgetful and clumsy, but she quickly tries to fix her errors so she doesn't embarrass herself.

Talkative or refined:
Depending on the situation, she will talk as much as she feels is necessary but she has been known to be quite talkative, if she's moody or upset she'll keep to herself and won't say much, or will but it would be short sentences. She does try to act leader-like so she makes an effort to talk a lot.

Selfish or gracious:
At times, she can be a bit selfish,
she does try to meet the needs of others first before her needs are met,
but that is, only if the kias are close to her. If they are close friends then she will make sure to do everything she can possibly do to make them happy before she is satisfied.

Forgiving or holds grudges:
Thorn is definitely the type to hold a grudge,
she feels it would lose all causes if she forgets what was so important to remember,
and she knows others will respect her more if she makes what had happened in their past between each other haunt them until they cave in, she can be very malicious this way but she believes it is best to do. On slight circumstances though she will forgive others if she feels that it won't get her anywhere to hold a grudge.

Reliable or unreliable:
Thorn is the type to hold true to her word, if she promises something, then she will fulfill it no matter the cause. She is utmost reliable and you can always trust her to follow through with what she's decided on.

Lazy or enthusiastic:
She leans both ways on this one, she is generally lazy, but if a job needs to get done, she'll see to it that it will be completed. Around others she tends to act enthusiastic to lighten to mood and motivate others when they are down, but something even Thorn may need some motivation herself.

Emotionally stable or easily upset:
This can end either way with Thorn. She is generally stable with her emotions on the outside, but on the inside she could be full of concern and worry, but she won't let anyone know unless they are close friends or Kias she knows she can trust.

Assertive or docile:
Thorn is definitely assertive, on the outside she is the very definition of confidence and it seems to radiate off of her so much that it'd seem that nothing would get her down or in a bad mood, she just seems like the type to want to lead and give off confidence to show that she is positive in a difficult situation or that nothing will slow her in her journey through life.

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"An echo among many; A future of unknown darkness that guides thee"


Ferocity comes in many form
Most of a broken heart
Scars covering thy soul
Eyes an empty mirror

Trust none with quiv'ring voices
A bead of sweat give way to mutiny
With a tongue covered in words
Let none be released from thy dungeon

Dauntless, a walk down the plank
Fear naught what lies below
Serpents serve no terror
A myth of old passed down

Silent, an owl hunting at night
An empty space of ghoulish graves
Haunting words a lingering fog
Lost soul's howling tears the silence

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Instrumental themesongs:
Moon Trance - Lindsey Stirling
Stars Align - Lindsey Stirling

Reason for themesong(s):
In a different sense, the beats of the instrumental songs represent the wavering feelings inside of thorn. How near the beginning the song shows the composed figure of Thorn, but when time goes on, it all builds up and can't be controlled. This is just like Thorn's personality, she is tired of trying, and she feels like all these emotions building up inside of her will eventually begin to leak out despite her attempts to smile and act like nothing is wrong, when really, she feels like she can no longer handle herself or her emotions and she wants to be able to let them out and express herself without losing respect she's gained from others.


Quick interview to get to know Thorn better:

What do you think of friends?:
"Unless they are reliable people, I don't want to waste my time with them, it'll only lead you to trouble."

If you could travel to anywhere in the world, where would you go?:
"Hmm, I don't really know, I do a lot of travelling anyways but I don't plan on leaving my territory for the means of travelling."

What is your opinion on family?:
"Being raised in a household full of hatred, I have no good memories of my family, it wasn't ever a good ending that people hoped for, I only had a better of the two options so I moved out when I was still very little, I could not stand to live there any longer. I cringe at the very thought of the word 'family.' "

Do you like the way you are right now?:
"As a child, I always hoped for better, i've achieved that now and I don't like to look back on who I once was, but I do believe that it was my past self that shaped me to who I am right now."

If you could do anything to change the world, what would you do?:
"Meaning that if I got the chance to make things right, what would I pick? Hmm.. Well, first of all, I wan't the world to be peaceful and full of love and welcoming people, although not too much that it'd get annoying, but enough that there wouldn't be any instances of what happened to me that could happen to others. Basically, I don't want anyone to ever have to go through what I did, so I believe a peaceful world is a world worth living in."

Art
By Rosepetal50
Gift art by the amazing Swurk<33
By the lovely .:Evanessence:.
Transparent by Evanessence
Animation by me
Lost prayers. by me
Without color
Fading hope. by me
Flower top borders by me
Thorn's necklace by me
By Sporemon
Poem by Swurk

[Downn]

Smexy cx
Whoever wins this kia, I shall be stalking you. ouo

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[Beastlyhobbit]

The Beast is out~

[glass]

"Stop playing around! You're not a baby anymore!" Beatrice turned her head to the left and gave Charlie a death stare. The plushie's black-orb eyes were empty as they stared into hers, but in Beatrice's head Charlie's voice responded "You said it yourself, two years old and you're a child, not a baby..." Beatrice sighed, pulled off her bandana and said "One day, you and me will rule the sea, instead of my bedroom." Grabbing her cuddly friend, Beatrice snuggled into bed, ready for the night's sweet dreams.

By the way, if you haven't noticed, my username is Glass.

Out.