Username: Ayramite
Fanclub linkWhy I want him:I can name a thousand reasons why I want this JBD. For example, I have clicked with this guy--his personalty, his story, everything about him... It seemed to flow--with little to no effort--as he just seemed to develop, almost as fast as my fingers could type. While I needed to go back and add a little here and there, the picture in my head was solid. I would love to be the person to love him, shower him with attention, and develop him into the bean I see him as. Sharing his struggles and triumphs, with the JBD community would be an honor to me.
How I will treat him:If I was to win him, he will never be forgotten, or gather dust in a virtual attic. I admit, I haven't been very active on the fanclub lately, but that is due to my broken laptop. I am in the process of saving up, and getting a new one; for now, I use my nook, which allows me to go on the chat/forums when I'm not busy with outside life.
Soon enough, everyone would know who Rizos is. He would be the main muse of my art, once I get my laptop.
The BasicsName: Rizos
Gender: Male
Age:20
Birthday: December 18th
Orientation: Straight
Zodiac Sagittarius
Accessiories Ear gages, crossed industrial peicings, fingerless leather gloves, tongue ring
Mental Ilness: Multi Personality: at least two distinct and relatively enduring identities or dissociated personality states that alternately control a person's behavior, and is accompanied by memory impairment for important information not explained by ordinary forgetfulness.
PersonalitiesRizos Personality:~|Loner, Anti-Social, Quiet, Short Tempered, Stubborn|~
Rizos is considered to be a loner. Other than to his owner, he is rather anti-social--due to his memory loss. Those around him claim that he is rude and hateful, lashing out at anyone that tries to draw close. With no memory of it, and being his stubborn self, he refuses to apologize. Rizos spends most of his time with his head phones in, blaring some kind of rock music, or playing the guitar in his private little studio. Not one to draw attention to himself, he is rather quiet, and doesn't speak to anyone much. He can be short tempered if his music is interrupted, or if you walk in on one of his private jam sessions. That's where you can catch on of his rare smiles as he gets lost in the music
It's Personality: ~|Rude, Hateful, Resentful, Vindictive, Mysterious|~
Never giving his name, he is rather rude and hateful. His goal in life is to make Rizos as miserable as possible. He runs off anyone and everyone who wishes to get close to him, even going to extremes at times. He attempts to have Rizos alone--and just as angry and vindictive as he is. Once his protector, he quickly turned into resent. This was because he pushed back in the recesses of Rizos mind, and left there to gather dust, be forgotten. Now free and able to wreak his havoc, he takes over for short periods of times, leaving holes in Rizos' memory. He does his best to prevent Rizos from ever being rid of him.
How his mental Illness Affects Him: Brought on by a tragic event,
it originally served as someone to protect Rizos, but as he got older and Rizos was able to take care of himself, this personality started to change and become rather resentful--being trapped in his mind, forgotten. He now does his best to run off those that try to grow close to Rizos, leaving him with holes in his memories, and even causing a high level of frustration and resentment to build.
FavoritesFavorite Food: Spinach Alfrado
Favorite Drink: Blueberry Pomegranate Smoothies
Favorite Hobby: Playing guitar
Favorite Place: His Recording Station
Favorite Color: Cobalt Blue
Favorite song: Monster by SkilletHabits
~ Rizos always touches his
right ear when it rains,
due to the accident that
nearly took his whole ear.
~When Rizos get nervous,
he plays with his tongue ring,
clicking it along his teeth.
Quirks
~ Tail Twitch: Not knowing to many,
when his personality switches,
his tail does a small twitch.
This is the only small hint
of the other personality taking over.
~ Closed Eye Raise:
While he is listening to music,
and someone interrupts him,
he simply raises his eyebrows
while keeping his eyes closed--
only to open them to give the person
an annoyed look.
Fears:Heights: Rizos is terrified of heights. He refuses to even get in elevators--always takes the stairs, and refuses to get near any windows that are not ground level.
Alone Forever: Because of his lack of being able to make friends, Rizos is scared of being alone for the rest of his life.
It Taking Over: One of his biggest fears is the other personality becoming the dominant personality, leaving him to be stuck in the back seat, watching as the other personality destroys everything he has managed to keep.
Biggest Secrets:~ Other than his owner, he is the only one that knows of the personality, and he considers it his most precious secret that he will only tell those who manage to withstand his other personality.
~ His ear was nearly lost in his childhood accident, and his fur is shorter on his ear where it has healed. Not many notice it unless they go to take his head phones off.
~Not many know of the tragic accident that left him orphan and he only tells if forced.
~ He sings in the shower.
Likes
Rock Music
Quiet
Solitude
His Mp3
Night
Cats
Dislikes
Storms
Large Crowds
Piano Music
Birds
Loud noises
Interruptions
What's In his Pouch?:Guitar Pick
Mp3 player
Music Book
History:I remember the day
it was born as if it happened yesterday. The day
it returned, somehow so different than the first, and the continued struggles I go through to keep him at bay, and myself in control. Even as I speak I can feel him clawing to be free, to lash out at anyone around, and leave him a hollow shell of who I am now, but for you to understand both he and I you must first learn how he came to be.
The last thing I remember was the rain hitting my soft fur and the flashing lights. Several voices were audible as hands ran over my body, and a sharp pain seemed to be coming from my ear. It all seemed a blur as the darkness overtook me. I awoke in a clinic for JBDs, with people hovering over me. Wires everywhere, a thick bandage over my ear. My ear had almost been removed in the accident. No one spoke, just came in, wrote on the chart, and seemed to have pity in their eyes as the bustled around the room. It didn’t take long for then news to come, due to my parents' injuries, they could not care for the baby bean. It had been decided that I would be sent to an orphanage. The news hit me like bricks, as I cried myself to sleep that night. The nurses told me that my parents’ condition had left them with no memory of me, and so it was for the best. It still seemed to leave an invisible wound, to know my parents had forgotten me and abandoned at an orphanage.
The next day, I was left to bathe and get ready to leave. They had a bag with some of my belongings, and soon was greeted by two humans, and an elder bean who seemed to have a knowing look in his eye. As we walked the hall, he spoke of how I would be adopted in no time, and that I hadn’t need to have a care in the world. His words seemed to become a mumble as I was consumed with some other thoughts of my parents, and what would happen to me now that I was being taken to this place. Who would tuck me in at night, and sing lullabies to me as I fell asleep? Would the other kids be nice or pick on me? These thoughts and more raced through my head, but I couldn’t be ready for what was about to happen as we got in the car and the walked through the door of the orphanage.
The walls were lined with bunk beds, and small places where everyone kept their stuff. Listening to everyone talk, I kept to a single bed in the back. I was scared and alone, or so I had thought, as a sense of calm seemed to come over me. I didn’t know it then, but do now know, that was when
it was born. “
Shhhh, everything will be fine, little one, I will be there to protect you when you need it, but tell no one of my existence, or I will have to leave you, understand?” a voice whispered. I got an image of a shadowed figure that shared my eyes. They were kind, and his smile reassuring, and I felt myself instantly trusting him. He quickly became my only friend. I spent everyday talking to, as everyone else called it, my imaginary friend. If anyone tried to bully or tease me, they seemed to quickly walk away, though I never could figure out why. Until the day came, that I was pulled into the office because of what they saw as alarming behavior. Telling me I would snap or tease others, and often get into arguments with others, when I had no memory of it, but that never made a difference. I was told that till I could control myself that I would not be allowed to play with others.
I never figured it out till it was too late to make friends. I was 12 years old when the human walked in and asked to see me. Kind eyes and smile she bent down at my level, which wasn’t that hard, as she wasn’t that tall, but she’d asked the question I’d waited to hear for 10 long years: if I would like to go home with her, and of course I said yes. In the back of my mind I could hear
it warning me not to go, that it wasn’t safe, that I was safe with him, that I needed to stay, but I continued to push him out of the thoughts. I grabbed my stuff and head out the door as the girl signed the papers. I was finally going to a place I could call home.
A month after I’d been adopted, it seemed odd... She would always scold me for breaking things, or saying hateful things, and it seemed to come at random times, but she never could stay mad at me long. It did put a wedge between us bonding, making myself a studio and even buying me my first guitar, she quickly began to leave me to my own devices. For a year I was content with that, but then it started to happen again with no memory of ever doing anything. Other than watching TV with her, or simply reading the same book, she would claim I had broken or done something hateful. Those arguments were the worst, until one night I got the eerie feeling of something dark being there with me. “
Miss me?" a voice growled and I felt as if ice coursed through my veins.
It was back, and was different. I knew that from that moment, as I could see his memories because he allowed it. As if to mock me, that it had been him all along. After hours of thinking about it, I decided to talk to her and tell her what I discovered. My only fear was that she would be like all those other adults and scoff at me, but to my surprise, she didn’t, telling me she had seen this before and asked me what his name was and when he had been born.
That night I told her everything and anything I could remember. She sat and listened to me, and I realized then that I had someone to help me fight this. I wasn’t alone. But also that she was his main target now, but she didn’t care, saying that she would help me, but we had to learn his name. That was something I had never learned, and still have yet today. Control is all that I have, and even now I fear him taking over me.
Art: Running Through the Endless Night-by ravenhowlPrivate Jamming Session-by Calico TabbyRockin the Accessories-by ty_tayJust Beneath the Skin-by ty_taySculptureUnpainted Version
So I wanted to get these pictures up here, just in case I don't have time to paint him all together. This took me about 2-3 days to finish, and I couldn't get the claws right so he has paws. Maybe once I get better tools, I'll do a more realistic one if I win him, but I'm really proud of this, and I hope you can see how hard I worked on it even if the picture quality isn't the best.
Back viewLeft sideFront ViewRight ViewPainted Version
This took forever, and I still don't think I got his colors spot on, but as close as I could, and didn't think that the tail placement would make it so hard to do his markings on that side. Overall I'm very happy with it, and wish I had the proper tools to sculpt clay this was all done by hand and a butter knife and the end of a paint brush.
Close up face shotBack ViewLeft SideFront ViewRight SideFinal Note:
I normally don't do one of these one because I'm horrible with them and two because I usually ramble, but I've decided I really wanted to express that though my form isn't the prettiest or even the longest I really did pour my heart and soul into the form it's taken me weeks to get it all pulled together with all the life obstacles I thought that he would slip through my fingers as I did my best to put a form together from my phone and the days I could actually go to the library. I'll have to thank everyone who did art for me since I wasn't able to do it myself and you Polar for putting this guy up for adoption I wish you luck as you go through the process of judging I know it's not gonna be easy.