The rain fell in endless torrents, and Caramella, stirring a latte, watched water flow like waterfalls down the glass windows of the cafe.
She hadn't meant to come here, but the rainstorm had caught her by surprise - funny how Mother Nature always created weather which matched her mood. Caramella leaned back against the chair and closed her eyes, remembering the events of the day that led her here, events which confirmed that she would always be alone.
She hated how crowded her neighborhood was, and how she could never escape other kalons. Those other kalons had jeered at her as she'd departed her university and ran towards home, taunting her with calls of "Run, run faster!" They hadn't even known her, and yet they'd found amusement in her suffering, making a dash for shelter from the pouring rain. Instead of offering help, they had laughed, thinking her nothing more than another kalon in their world, another thing existing only to please them.
This was the reason Caramella detested most kalons. She hated the way their actions implied that they thought they were the greatest beings in the world, and anyone else was as worthless as the ground underneath their paws.
She remembered panting, still too far from her apartment, and ducking into a warm cafe, collapsing against a table, too tired to run anymore. She could stay here, alone, overlooked, ridiculed, as she would always be, taking sips of a latte that was now saltier than sweet, from Caramella's tears. [250/250]
Diary entry #671: 24/09/2022
This cafe is my refuge. In this place I can make believe that I am in a caring society. At the tables I see all my imaginary friends in a transient community, laughing and engaging in delightful conversation. Talking about their passions and their dreams, not fears or concerns for the future. I have noticed that we are all born to need social bonds. We are born to need a sense of another, even if we are alone. It is terrible for the higher brain to know that we are solitary. And yet our life path has demanded us to learn how to be the warrior instead of the cosseted, the protector and not the protected, the hunter and not the hunted. However, we still find ourselves fooling the senses that this society is a safe place and that we belong to a tribe. I so wish that science did not ruin my innocence, as there is now no glimmer of hope left for me. I know how the brain works and what it wants, but I also know that full-fledged commitment chronically rots the mind until we go insane.
So, in this cafe, amongst the noises of others, their scent, their occasional glances and the chatter of the baristas, I give my primitive brain a little of what it craves, just enough to see me though.
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