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username + number: parker; / 692500
kalon name: Ephrim
gender: he / him
playlist:

1. mowgli's road - marina and the diamonds

xxxwhat does it mean to rule?
to be the sole force of power over some spot of land on
the face of the earth? threats rise from the ground at every
turn, amassing into a horde capable of toppling any established
empire. and what to do when such a threat arises? simple, you
fight back and protect your keep to the last soldier, making
any sacrifice you need to. any form of power that can be used
against an enemy must be taken advantage of, regardless of
the source.

2. rory - foxing

xxxhowever, once the fight is over people seek out a scapegoat.
the time comes when it doesn't matter if some new, unholy
magic turned the tides in your favor. making a deal with a
devil doesn't go over well with the public eye. even if
selling your soul was the sole thing keeping them safe,
they turn on you, like vultures circling around a carcass
soon to be deemed a feast. they throw you out into the
badlands and expect you never to return, showing exile
as a form of their gratitude.

3. bad things - cults

xxxthey'll leave you to starve, to wither away
and rise again as something anew.
but, this comes with a lesson. kindness is a luxury
which does not exist, and when it does it finds itself
twisted into yet another form of jealousy to be turned
away over. all that is left is to turn to whatever grants
you control, the ability to protect yourself against
those who would cast you out. and when your soul
still proves of value to that same devil you made a
pact with years ago, you follow it. you thank it for
the rare, twisted kindness it bestows upon you and
seek to repay it tenfold.

4. beekeeper - keaton henson

xxxit becomes plainly obvious that life is better with a goal.
a burning fire somewhere in a hollow chest seeking
out revenge against the knights in shining armor
who thought their morals would have been able to
keep them safe. the people in denial who followed
them in, now spending your riches and sitting upon
your throne. the people who once saw you as a
benevolent ruler and fought by your side only to
cast you out at the sight of something they deemed
evil. when the day ends, there is hardly a difference
between the two. good does not exist without evil,
and evil relies on its conflict with what is good. they
are not two polar opposites, but a living force of the
grey in between.

5. willow tree march - the paper kites

xxxso when you finally come home
and see the traitors begging for mercy at your feet,
remind them of the kindness they bestowed upon you.
i threw them out, letting them take their ideals with
them. they'll spread stories of an evil lich, a death
knight ruling over some long forsaken kingdom. its
inhabitants filled with fiends and undead. they'll teach
their new heroes what is right and what is wrong,
and i will gladly break the fragile morals
blinding them from my truth.
<-- extra

[porygon-z]

username + number: carterwoods + 670598
kalon name: beelzebub
gender: agender (they/it pronouns)
playlist:

alien blues - vundabar
- "i need to purge my urges, shame shame shame, i need an alibi to justify and somebody to blame"

brave as a noun - ajj
- "we can conquer everything if we could just get the braves to get out of bed in the morning"

lent - autoheart
- "i dont wanna, i dont wanna, i dont wanna act like this, you know i wanna be free"

ain't it fun - paramore
- "aint it fun? living in the real world, aint it good? being all alone

leave me alone - idkhow
- "now i want you to leave me alone, they say the devil that you know is better than the devil that you dont"
extra:
they believe that there is no such thing as true purity. everyone and everything is tainted in one way or another. it doesn't consider itself to be evil however they feel they harbour more darkness inside than others.

[astral.]

Mark 💕

[!karkat]

username + number: karkat✧
kalon name: asmodeus
gender: a mess (it/they/he)


> letting you ─ nine inch nails
one hand upon your heart.one hand behind your back

> i’m gonna live till i die ─ frank sinatra
i'll be a devil, till i'm an angel, but until then hallelujah

> DESTROYA ─ my chemical romance
you don't believe in god, i don't believe in luck.they don't believe in us, but i believe we're the enemy

> angry sea ─ mother mother
another fool in history.i'll tell you what it means to me

> make room!!!! ─ my chemical romance
got a taste for cash and androgyny.anybody wanna come and rescue me?!

[klahoma]

username + number: klahoma + 1016752
kalon name: zagan
gender: agender (they/he)
playlist:


burning pile - mother mother
❝ all my troubles on a burning pile, all lit up and i start to smile ❞
zagan is known to struggle with quite brutal self-destructive tendencies. burning pile perfectly represents the endless rampages and internal conflicts that leave them seething with anger. whenever their temper worsens, every single thing that surrounds them begins to burn. though, once all that’s left is flames, zagan can’t help but to grin, for the fire is beautiful to them, and their irrationality only fuels it.
wires - the neighbourhood
❝ sick of screaming let us in, the wires got the best of him ❞
the depths of hell are torturous to many, and even zagan at one point couldn’t stand the utter horror they held. but after eternities of occupying its trenches, the madness of it all consumed them. the wires pulling every bit of sanity out from their bones, leaving them as nothing more than a wretched soul.
twisted - missio
❝ everyone in the world knows i’m a little twisted ❞
strained relations with their family left zagan nothing short of twisted. the tumultuous connections they had with others during their childhood caused them great pain, and their psyche never fully recovered. maybe that’s when the trouble started. after all, even their parents had said they’re crazy.
hollow - cloudeater
❝ i awaken with the thunder, a bold statement to end my hunger ❞
zagan finds absolute glee in causing distress and pain among others. they rarely feel remorse for the consequences of their distasteful actions, perhaps because nothing resides inside their soulless body. zagan is completely hollow, aiding them in wreaking complete chaos with little regrets.
mad hatter - melanie martinez
❝ so what if i’m crazy? the best people are ❞
insanity kills, that much is true. but after decades upon decades of loathing their existence, zagan came to the conclusion that being an archfiend wasn’t all that bad. in fact, it could possibly even be a good thing, a great thing. this mindset eradicated their self-hatred, and a new era paved way, one of complete bliss knowing they were a living hell. who cares they’re crazy when crazy is used to describe the best of creatures.

[Lex.]

username + number: Lex. [959439]
kalon name: Disdain
gender: Transmasc [He/Him]
extra:

playlist:
The House of the Rising Sun - The Animals
This song is a representation of his upbringing. It describes how he felt in such a home, never truly knowing peace or security. The ball and chain he carries around with him day to day is his guilt. Was he not worthy enough? Was he simply not enough of a person to be considered in the eyes of his god?
"And it's been the ruin of many a poor boy
And God, I know I'm one"

Paint It, Black - The Rolling Stones
'Paint It, Black' is meant to represent how he deals with loss and grief. The world around him no longer seems alive, and everything he sees has no color, no life to it. Having to deal with a hole in your heart isn't easy, and Disdain just let's in consume his being.
"Maybe then, I'll fade away
And not have to face the facts
It's not easy facing up
When your whole world is black"

Comfortably Numb - Pink Floyd
'Comfortably Numb' shows Disdains inner thoughts. The conversations he has with himself, trying to cope with the outside world. It's essentially the soul of his younger and older self coming together as one and accepting their state of being permanently and seemingly comfortably numb.
"Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me
Is there anyone home?"


Disdain sees himself as an evil being. Guilty by association. His youth was tainted by the lives of his parents, and he cannot live down the shame it has brought him. He feels as though he lives every day as a lie, and that there is an evil somewhere in him that cannot escape, or simply chooses not to because his body is the perfect vessel.
Hope is visible to Disdain, but it seems just out of arm's reach every time it reveals itself to him.

[Kyar]

x
x
i left the journal open. my feet found purchase
on the night-cold rail, arms heavy at my sides as
lungs filled with city air. intake the night, closed
eyes, waiting on someone who might just
listen.



how do you live with what's right and what's
--wrong? where is the voice (it should say to
me I KNOW). we put all our heads in boxes
and say I KNOW. but WHO is right, WHAT is wrong
when i don't have anything but the SELF--
if i am alone, who's the good guy?

x
username + number: kyar 320861
kalon name: vandregan
gender: male


playlist:
|| mama's gun - glass animals ||
|| long way down (clean) - robert delong ||
|| oh devil - electric guest ||
|| cough syrup - young the giant ||
|| unsteady (erich lee gravity remix) - x ambassadors ||

extra:


|| incongruence. the state or condition of not being in agreement, accordance, or harmony, or the degree to which things are in this state ||

my fingertips grip the edge of the old well, wondering why we spend so much time afraid of the dark ripples below. wells don’t dig themselves, and we don’t do it without a purpose. usually, life. water gives us life. it’s our home before our bodies ever sample “fresh air.” so why do we come up with so many dark imaginings, hiding just out of sight? if i breathe heavy enough, i can taste the heavy metals, the cakes-on minerals climbing up the stone walls.

do you suppose anyone will ever read this?

my fingers keep telling me to say it’s the last time. i don’t know who i’m writing for -- why i think anyones supposed to care. there’s all this good in the world that’s out there, but i can’t touch it, not even with my mind. i want to scream and someone to hear me, to understand me, but i don’t cause they won’t. irony is you’ve gotta have bad to have good. maybe i’m just meant to be the bad.

[SolarSam]

username + number: SolarSam + 836917
kalon name: Mort
gender: male (he/him)
playlist:
1. Fire - Barns Courtney
2. Can't Go Back - The Crane Wives
3. Arsonist's Lullaby - Hozier
4. Danse Macabre - The Oh Hellos
5. Farewell Wanderlust - The Amazing Devil

[dracopia]

username + number: lovechild & 897535
kalon name: tbd
gender: transmasc - he/it/they[/center]

playlist
>the devil in i
" You and I, wrong or right
Traded a lie for the leverage
In between the lens in light
You're not what you seem "
> the devil's calling
" We're fighting fire with gasoline
We'll leave the bridges burning
This is a warning
The devil's calling "
> i won't give in
" Every breath you take
I watch you slip away
You're slowly killing yourself
I won't give in "
> burning pile
" It goes, all my troubles on a burning pile
All lit up and I start to smile
If I, catch fire then I change my aim
Throw my troubles at the pearly gates "
> choke
" And what a lovely time
That it would surely be
So bite your tongue
And choke yourself... "

[captain dude]

username + number: captain dude 1003555
kalon name: Tiefling
gender: She/They
playlist:
Are You Satisfied?-- Marina and the Diamonds
Life has been spent proving herself, morally, socially, intellectually. Elven society has branded her evil, haunting, deformed, shifty. But Tief has wanted to live a life serving the light. She longs to be as trustworthy, beautiful, good. And sometimes it’s hard to get people of all species, both Kalons and the other creatures she encounters, to look past her exterior and see the blossoming doctor that she is becoming. She has worked her tail off to get where she is, working herself to exhaustion. She thought by being an Intergalactic Doctor Without Borders she will be redeemed in the eyes of herself and her society. Good enough. But she just ends up feeling… exhausted by her studies and efforts. And, at the end of it all, she discovered it wasn't enough. Not by a long shot. Not for them, not for her. There is no way to make herself proud and she feels like an endless pit of neediness towards others. Just as important as knowing she's intelligent is knowing she’s good… She has very high standards of what both mean. She has a very black-and-white view of morality that she is striving very hard to keep. It might not always align with what society views as morality but she is very strict about measuring up to what she thinks is right. Someday... maybe someday... with a little more stretching... with a little more reaching, she will live up to her exceptionally high goals.

The Judge-- 21 Pilots
She has bonded very closely with a Dralt of all creatures. Known for their conquest and coldness, the Doberman-like Dralts are rightly feared by and scorned by much of the galaxy as the leaders of all the evil forces plaguing them. Since Dralts don't get names at birth, she has nicknamed them "Pax": "peace". While they are considered the villains of the galaxy, this one seems alright. This Dralt seems quite pained with their past and wants to be "freed" from its wrongdoing in the eyes of other species. Even if it is only one. For Tiefling, that puts them in a bind. On one hand, her relationship makes her seen by other Kalons as "one of them", one of the traitorous Kalons that allied with the Draltic Empire, and a villain, no matter her motives or Pax's. But she isn't allied with the Empire; she's allied with Pax and Pax is not the summation of their society any more than she is. On the other, Pax was one of the few creatures who has ever seen her good side. Seen her with childlike wonder, not fear, in their eyes. Both long for freedom and to have someone who sees them the way they long to be seen is to have been liberated from the harsh judgement they've faced all their lives.

Heroes and Villains-- The Beach Boys
Pax brings out the playful side of her, being a renegade of their species. While Tief is rather unconventional to begin with (despite her great efforts to be "good"), Pax's presence allows her to lighten up and conform first and foremost to her own inner morality before anyone else's. They remind her the world isn't all divided up into "heroes and villains".

How Can I Keep From Singing-- Enya
Eventually, after being forced to choose between what's right and sticking by Pax or what her Elven society demands of her, she chooses to be branded a "heretic" and a "traitor". While both are ultimately imprisoned under treason charges, she finds herself surprisingly... at peace. She has finally come to honor what is true and right over being torn between the two motives. A newfound freedom, that freedom to never have to be consumed with what she had once struggled with, had finally come. And even in the darkest dungeon, it was glorious. Maybe one day, some day, when they were released or perhaps found a way to escape, there will be a better life for her, one now fully aligned with her conscience, but until then, they can live with peace in their heart that she is totally and utterly free in the way that matters most.

(700/700)

From the Depths

As the chains grow heavy
And the world grows cold
As my life feels tiresome
And my soul grows old

I think of what must have led to all this
And of everything you will miss

For it is not I who is locked in this cell
But you who will suffer your own personal hell

As right and wrong's true forms cannot fester alone
But must be exposed to light, to be honed



Yours is frozen, shaped by a mold
Allowed to grow tired and weary and cold

And a conscience that is locked while the body is free
Is something that can not always be

Yet it can arise from its frigid death
And you can once again give it its breath

But will you? Lo!
For such sins you cover? No!


"Almost good... almost there...almost enough"
Each encircled me in their chilling cuff

And yet I felt I was almost there
Yet we both knew I didn't have a prayer

"I'm a Good Person... I'm a good person..."
It was a concept that seemed foreign

But the shame I once had known
Has now been placed upon you and your throne

And some mortal government ought not have this power
Which crushes the candle's flicker and the blooming of the heart's purest flower

But it is no longer that which controls me
I have the power to truly just be

Right and wrong both are tied now in my grasp
My guides, my allies, that protect with the sting of the asp

Within us all is both dark and light,
To deny both is to feel the adders' bite

For consciences locked are self-destructive and cursed
And for them, I will always fear the worst.

But to feel and know both good and evil
The heart's motives it does reveal

And as for the soul, their bite does not kill
But only free, and reveal its true will

But as for my own soul, it can slip through these bars
It is light and free
Not jailed and left to rot
And though once blind, it now can truly see.