[Niyaru Delacroix]

username: Niyaru Delacroix
kalon # 1681
name: Eva Albine
what is something you're proud of yourself for accomplishing in 2019?: Making a successful move to a new state!


username: Niyaru Delacroix
kalon # 1682
name: Yana Vivek
what is something you want to do in 2020?: Get a job that I can be proud of and enjoy doing!

[peachpit]

username: peachpit
kalon # 1681
name: Mavin
what is something you're proud of yourself for accomplishing in 2019?: I came out as gay to my family and my trusted friends, and also went to my very first pride event! Doing this has given me much, much more confidence in being myself! Thankfully, coming out to people has gotten so much easier, and I’ve been accepted my everyone I be told so far! I am still trying to understand my sexuality and wether or not I’m bi or gay, but I am still proud of my bravery and growth. I’m hoping this year I can go to pride again, fully come out to everyone, and understand my sexuality better!
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username: peachpit
kalon # 1682
name: Nimbus
what is something you want to do in 2020?: I think there are several things really, so I hope that’s okay! Most importantly, I really just want to mature and grow as a person. I want to work on my confidence and self love, as I can grow in those areas and make myself much happier. Secondly, I want to come out of my shell and reach out to my current friends more, and create new ones! I also would like to get back into drawing and ice skating. Both are this I slowly stopped doing because of a challenging school year, but once I started doing them again, it really reminded me just how much I enjoy both them.
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username: peachpit
kalon # 1683
name: Juyo
what is something you're proud of a friend for doing in 2019, or want to happen to them in 2020?: my best friend is planning on coming out with her own album at some point this year, and I really hope that she gets the love and attention she deserves, as her singing is absolutely beautiful!! She’s been working on some of the songs since June and she planned on releasing them at the end of last year. But she decided she instead wanted to release a whole album and is writing some new songs! She was actually so sweet and asked if I wanted to help her make the cover for her alumni and listen to some of her songs before she releases it <3
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[lonk]

username: lonk
kalon # 1681
name: petunia
what is something you're proud of yourself for accomplishing in 2019?: i'm proud of myself for getting through my first semester of college! i was extremely nervous about it, as my family was moving at the same time so there was just a lot happening at once, but i managed to get mostly good grades, flourish in the performing arts (including getting a lead role in a play!), and make new friends that i can't even imagine being without. my little world just kind of expanded last year, and even if it isn't specific to the point of a single event, getting that first semester done feels like it wraps up everything i've accomplished in 2019. :3

username: lonk
kalon # 1682
name: oleander
what is something you want to do in 2020?: i want to try and get healthier. it's been something that i've been working on for a while, but after a whole bunch of things happened in late 2018, i kind of lost my way with that. i'm planning on taking up jogging again, and trying to make better use of the gym at my school, as well as attempting to fix how i eat. i'm probably still going to eat like crap, but hopefully i can force myself to eat less crap. either way, i know that being more active usually makes me feel good, and i want to have good energy in the new year!

username: lonk
kalon # 1683
name: leo
what is something you're proud of a friend for doing in 2019, or want to happen to them in 2020?: o, cheeb, my dear twin sister. i'm proud of you (and by extension myself) for being able to thrive by yourself. when we finalized going to different colleges, i was a little worried about how you'd do emotionally, as it's been a hard couple of years for us, but man. you're doing well for yourself. everyone in the drama program seems to love you there, and you're already on an e-board!! holy cow!!!!! becoming our own people rather than just being a unit, 'the twins', is something that i know has been a lot for us to handle, and i'm glad that even though we're still excruciatingly close, you're thriving as just being you instead of a half of the whole. i'm so proud of you al, and i know you're gonna crush it in 2020. ;'3

[Bowi]

username: Bowi
kalon # 1682
name: Nebula
what is something you want to do in 2020?: My resolution for 2020 is to do no harm, maybe I won't be able to help someone else, or even help myself, but I don't want to hurt anyone. Even if my pitcher is empty I won't steal other people's water, no matter what intent I have.

I don't have any great plans for 2020, but I do want to do small things, I am planning on feeding the strays when I arrive in Uruguay. I am planning on getting my mother a gift for mother's day, a good, thoughtful one, I am planning on taking pictures and sharing them, but my only big resolution is to try not to hurt anyone, to learn, and be nice.

[rustyroxy]

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[✦ nemuri]

username: ✦ nemuri
kalon # 1681
name: emil ainsworth
what is something you're proud of yourself for accomplishing in 2019?: pride in myself is a weird thing to talk about because i've always struggled in acknowledging my own confidence and achievements, and for the longest time ever, it was just easier to ignore it all and pretend it didn't exist and carry on like it was a normal day. i grew up surrounded by literal child prodigies and people who kept persevering and continuing to expand their horizons -- and then there was me, confused about themselves, confused about their future, confused about whether or not i was even good enough. in the early years of elementary until maybe recently, it didn't seem like it. with my parents' expectations and the constant feelings of inferiority that stemmed from me envying my classmates and friends, i kept rising up, yet crashing and burning all the while. did i feel pride then? probably, if it could be called pride at all. was i happy? absolutely not. it also took me a long time to understand that for me, pride and happiness weren't synonymous, because in the past, i was either proud of my achievements and felt like crap about my life, or happy with my friends yet disgusted in myself for not being half their equal. since then, i've made friends that made me understand that it's okay to not care about outside opinions regarding decisions i have to make for myself, and especially since i'm stepping into adulthood soon, i'm trying to learn how to just... love myself more, with all my quirks and imperfections. this is so small and insignificant, but i'm proud of myself for at least attempting this, because i know that in the past, i would've been too scared to even try. i suppose this isn't exactly an accomplishment by a traditional sense, but like this, i want to continue to grow into someone that i can confidently say that i'm proud of.



username: ✦ nemuri
kalon # 1682
name: dominique lloyd
what is something you want to do in 2020?: there's a lot to say. i want to get back into playing badminton and piano, while continuing to draw and write. i want to get into college, even if i'm still unsure of whether or not i truly want this for myself right now. i want to find the bravery to go out and try new things, in an attempt to make up for all the lost opportunities that i've wasted in elementary/high school just because i was scared. i want to learn the things that i haven't learned before. i want to take better care and show more appreciation towards family, friends, and myself. i just want to be out there and live my best life, at the end of the day. there's just too much for me to focus on one right now, but this is just a rough idea of all the things i want to eventually do. it's okay if i don't get to them in 2020, even; they're just distant goals that i want to set for myself. i'm not really the kind of person to plan ahead, as i tend to reminisce and remain stuck in the past. i suppose this is another goal of sorts: i also want to stop looking back and lamenting the better times and instead look forward to the future.



username: ✦ nemuri
kalon # 1683
name: alouette beaumont
what is something you're proud of a friend for doing in 2019, or want to happen to them in 2020?: this is really general, but i think the thing i want to happen to my friends the most is for them to be accepted to the colleges of their choice. this is.. a stressful time for all of us, admittedly, but even if i'm a little whatever about everything, my friends absolutely deserve a chance at higher education at a place of their dreams. i have faith that they'll all do well, but a little extra hope for luck never hurt anyone. i also want for my friends to continue their hobbies even while dealing with school shenanigans -- i remember dropping a number of mine and trying to get back into the groove of things hurt as hell, and in general, it's just always nice to have a hobby there to fall back on when things are rough and you need an escape of sorts. im unspeakably proud of all of them for making it this far in life, and can only hope that they'll continue to live their life to the fullest. at the core, i just want them to be happy.

[nermal1999]

username: nermal1999
kalon # 1681
name: Pearl
what is something you're proud of yourself for accomplishing in 2019?:
I'm not really I person who gets proud about stuff about myself as often especially since 2019 has been a hard year.

But there are plenty of good things that have happened that have left me thankful and I guess in some way proud.

One thing I'm proud of myself for is that my art has improved a lot this year especially since I started trying out for Kalons. I've felt really satisfied and proud with the outcome of some of my work even if it's still not the best it's better then it was.

Something else I'm proud for is my sisters. I'm just so thankful to have them and I'm so thankful that we've been able to become a lot closer then we ever were this year. And though this last year had been really hard and we're still going through some hard stuff I'm just really glad to have them here beside me.
And I'm really proud of how strong they are. And I'm thankful for the many wonderful memories I have with them and I can't wait to make more this year.

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username: nermal1999
kalon # 1682
name: Galaxy
what is something you want to do in 2020?:
I've actually never really made a true New Year's resolution as I've never really had something that I've felt really inspired to do. And on most occasions I would usually just wish for a good year.
But this year I've actually come up with three new years resolutions that I'm really hoping to achieve.
So without further ado these are my three New years resolutions!

1#: I want to do better at watching what I eat as I tend to let myself slide when it comes to sugars/high calorie foods.

2#: I want to be able to learn 5 new things to cook on my own. I've just really struggled with being able to do certain things that a person of my age should be able to do. It didn't help with the fact that I had been sick from chemotherapy for a couple of years. And even to this day there's just some things that I've turned down from learning weather it was from discomfort or the fact that I've gotten use to not doing it. That's why I've decided to change that and do better. :3

3#: lastly my final New years resolution is a bit unique but it does have some meaning.
So though it may be weird this year I want to inspire myself to be more like the character (Tohru honda from fruit basket) I just really like how kind and understanding she is towards everyone. And I really like how optimistic she is Even when things are gray she's just able to smile and find happiness in the things around her. And even though she goes through hard times she never shrinks or falls into depression she's just able to be happy. And even though I'm more of a happy person I do tend to let things get to me and get anxious and shrink. That's why I've decided to try and be a better me without it being unhealthy, I just wanted to be able to go through life with a more positive personality and be a better person for my family.
So even though Toru is a fictional character I really think that she's a good character to be inspired by.

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kalon # 1683
name: Hazel
what is something you're proud of a friend for doing in 2019, or want to happen to them in 2020?:
I hope this year all my friends and people who I'm hoping to one day be friends with find great joy in this new year. That they will be able to make many wonderful memories and be able to have many days filled with smiles.

I hope that for those who have had a hard time can find peace and joy in this year and that it can be a better start for them. I hope that they be able to live a better life one that they want to live.

And over all I just hope that they'll be happy in this new year. No matter what happens I just wish for them to be happy and to never lose that no matter what happens.

[chamomile.]

username: chamomile.
kalon # 1681
name: Trombone
what is something you're proud of yourself for accomplishing in 2019?:I'm proud of the fact that I finally acknowledged that I could not deal with my anxiety and depression on my own, and began going to therapy. I went to therapy regularly, and worked through a lot of my issues. It was really hard, and left me crying multiple days, but it has significantly improved my life. In the last month I had gotten to a stage that I could manage my mental illness on my own with all the help and guidance of my therapist, and was able to stop needing to regularly go. I still have my ups and downs, but I'm far more stable and happier than I used to be.

username: chamomile.
kalon # 1682
name: Taiga
what is something you want to do in 2020?: I want to continue making forward progress with handling my anxiety and depression. One of the hardest things for me currently is that I get extremely anxious about going to meet up with people due to worries about them secretly hating me. It is something I have been working on in therapy, and I want to continue to keep pushing against those fears in 2020. I've let my anxiety cut me off from my friends, and I want to be able to spend more time with them. I don't want to keep letting unrealistic anxieties hold me back from being able to enjoy the roaring twenties we are walking into this decade.

username: chamomile.
kalon # 1683
name: Aflan
what is something you're proud of a friend for doing in 2019, or want to happen to them in 2020?:
I am very proud of my boy, feyghost. I've known ghost for a few years now, and we've been great friends since we met. They have really become someone I am proud to be jokingly referred to as the mom of, because I genuinely couldn't have a better son. They are an incredibly kind person, who really focuses in on trying to understand others and be a good friend for them. I have so much respect for how in the past year they have grown into someone who can calmly address arguments and tries to communicate rather than fight. I could really learn a lot from ghost on that account, and I hope to live up to how kind of a person they have become. Not only that, but ghost's art has really come into it's own in the last year. I am absolutely amazed at all the art they do, and how far it has come. Their pixel art???? chef kiss oh my god it's so good

[Swishy & Broken]

username: swishy & broken
kalon # 1681
name: barnes
what is something you're proud of yourself for accomplishing in 2019?:
in 2019 I made a lot of friends and a lot of really important realizations. I started off the year with maybe 2 or 3 people I could really call my friend, sad, and in a toxic relationship. as it progressed I realized that I could do so much more if I just tried and didn't hold myself back. i'm so proud of myself for going on vacation practically by myself last summer and actually visiting a friend i've known for a while. i'm proud of myself for working hard enough to get promoted. i'm proud of myself for figuring out how to approach situations that I don't like/ feel uncomfortable in. i'm proud of myself for getting out of the relationship I was in for nearly a year because of trauma, and instead reaching out to find a much more healthy and loving relationship. i'm proud I became a gh and have put so much effort into Stars AND finally joined in the kal community, I feel so loved and helpful here on cs now. i'm proud of all the growth i've had over the year and how many good memories i've decided to make.

username: swishy & broken
kalon # 1682
name: miletich
what is something you want to do in 2020?:
I want to improve on my procrastination. i've always allowed it to control my life tbh and I think it's about time I start to fix the things I've been putting off for a while. also, I don't want to allow myself to get as bad as I was last year about my mental and physical health-- i need to take time to focus on me if it starts to get bad again.
also, i would really like to work on my writing skills. i know it seems lame but i don't think i can say i've ever written something i'm proud of? i want to do that, at least once this year.

username: swishy & broken
kalon # 1683
name: horton
what is something you're proud of a friend for doing in 2019, or want to happen to them in 2020?:
i'm proud of my friend anna for finally stepping away from her toxic step mother. i know she's been through a lot, being kicked out and stolen from for the past half a year- but i'm proud she's trying her best to continue going regardless. i want her to get a job that will allow her to at least help pay rent somewhere so she can have a place to call home and to make friends she feels comfortable with. she's really calmed down from when we went to school together and i think she's been trying really hard to have some self reflection recently, which means a lot to me.

[monSOLO]

username: Strawberry Milk
kalon # 1681
name: Misha
what is something you're proud of yourself for accomplishing in 2019?:
In 2019 I started dabbling with art and I feel like I've made a lot of progress lately! I've grown a lot as a person and I'm happy with the person I see myself becoming. I got my first job this year and worked harder than I ever have, (despite it being a terrible job for me). I really put myself out there and did something I never thought I could after rejection after rejection. I feel like this has been the best year of my life, and a lot of it is due to myself and the strides I'm making!

username: Strawberry Milk
kalon # 1682
name: Kokabiel
what is something you want to do in 2020?:
In 2020 I hope to get better at my art and get to a place where I'm happy with the end result. I feel like I've wasted so much time not getting better at art and I'm really glad that I'm finally getting into it. I'm also planning to improve myself physically, by exercising more and eating better. I'm at an age where if I don't start good habits soon, I probably won't ever! I'm also planning on getting out of the house more in general and spending more time with my friends (and less on CS!)
I'm feeling really good right now about my future and I'm excited to see where I'm at a year from now!

username: Strawberry Milk
kalon # 1683
name: Poppy
what is something you're proud of a friend for doing in 2019, or want to happen to them in 2020?:
I have a few things I'm super proud of! One of my friends became a mother in September and she's turning out to be such a wonderful mother. I hope 2020 goes just as well for her and her family and that she can get through her school as well! Another of my friends is working full-time putting herself through nursing school and she's doing such a great job balancing everything. She's a wonderful wife and friend and I hope she manages to get through 2020 with the same amazingly positive attitude! And finally, my husband is doing his best at work and honestly doing such a great job. His job can be stressful but he does so well at work and is working so hard! I'm so proud of him for everything he's accomplished so far and hope that 202 brings him peace and fulfillment.