username: persona
name: adira
aesthetic: hereby yefeistyle under CC BY-NC-ND 2.5╒════════════════════════════════╕dear whoever reads this,
life is droning on, and i miss my family. it's unfortunate we're so far away from each other; the
loneliness is getting to me. if i could make one wish, it would be that the earth crumpled under
itself to make the distance shorter. my mother said father misses me greatly, and i can't imagine
what she feels. she never tells others her sorrows.
i guess the only good to come out of this is distancing myself from the stress of it all. ironically, if
you're reading this it means i did go back to my parents, and have abandoned this place for the
time being. please take good care if of it if you incline to use this as a resting area.
not even the stars, my greatest friend, can comfort me in the anxiety i feel with my father's
health. sometimes i wish i could re-invent myself and start over but i can't. all i can do it walk
this path fate has given me. pray for me, and my father.
best of health,
adira.╘════════════════════════════════╛ Adira is no fancy empress or some high-ranking noble; she's never had those expensive clothes that shine in the moonlight or whatever poems they wax. Her mother worked to afford necessities, and her father stayed back to take care of Adira; it worked but it often meant long stretches of time without seeing her mother - an unfortunate evil. Because of this, Adira grew incredibly close to her father, and confides in him most of her troubles.
Whenever Adira fell into a flunk that seemed to have no fix, she'd go out to a pasture or empty field and lay on her back staring up at the stars. The eerie calmness and silence might've freaked someone else out, but it put her mind at ease. Her haven remained solely hers for a couple years until tensions rose in the town areas surrounding hers, and a small civil war broke out. Adira had been young, and didn't know for what - she still doesn't, but no longer cares anymore. War is a horrible act of humanity, and she has the scars to prove it.

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mom told me to write to quell my boredom. i guess i will. hm. well, today we got ambushed downtown which was scary as one of dad's horror stories. i don't know where we're going but i guess it's far away. uhhhh. apparently dad knows someone who can take us in. that'll be cool; it's like a long sleepover except we're running for our lives not for fun. i got caught in the crossfire of some fighting and now i have a couple injuries which don't hurt as much as i thought they would. i don't look cool now but i will when they heal.
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isn't it crazy that we're literally fighting in some dumb skirmish that we're not even involved in? i never thought i'd touch weapons but here i am! my friends wouldn't last in this - i hope they're okay. the stars have become a great comfort to me - at least i can bring them wherever i go.
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diary entry #243
i think dad is sick. despite the fact we haven't moved houses in a couple years, dad's health hasn't gotten better. i want to stay naive and pretend he'll get better but i'm not a child anymore. i do see him tending to those freaking wounds he got in that war a while back, and i think they never really healed. i wouldn't doubt it. nothing like getting infections to destroy an immune system.
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this place has been stressing me right out of my wits, and i hate to admit, but i feel i'd be better off taking a break. i don't to leave my father, with him being chronically ill but i need to leave. maybe it's my presence or something, haha. i heard there was an opening or two in the guard-thing nearby for the government. now, i don't pay attention to that stuff at all but it might give better healthcare. imagine the benefits. if there are any let's be realistic here. don't tell anyone but i went and looked at it, and applied for it, i guess is the word. if i get through the application process i'll be making more than i am right now, and my parents won't worry as much. i hope the stars bless me tonight when i go stargazing, and i make it.
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Adira is forever grateful for getting the job: her father has better care, her mother doesn't have to spread herself so thin, and Adira can distance herself healthily and create a life for herself. This guard job is the reason she left her family, and is the reason she went back - this opportunity allowed herself to grow as a person, and let her decide her own personal values: she definitely wants her family by her side. If there's one constant that's always been there for her - it's the stars, and she could never wish for that to be replaced, even in another life.