[mandalorian]

Username: d,va
Name: pluto
Gender: genderfluid
What have they learned about themselves this year?: 497/500

mom and dad didn't understand. honestly, they'd never understand; that's why it hurt. even if they tried, which they didn't, something tells me it wouldn't happen. no one in this family is like me, and trust me, i'm not saying that to be edgy. i mean it. being different is absolutely terrible, and i don't blame people for trying to fit in. i've tried to fit in too, you know. every single day, i try to fit in. be like everybody else, be normal. it just doesn't work out that way, and it hurts.

i was standing, waiting, watching for something, anything. a sign that somebody cared, a sign that i wasn't alone. but there was nothing, and there would never be anything. i felt absolutely alone; and sometimes, that isn't bad. being alone and feeling lonely can mean and be many different things. it can mean that in a crowd of people, you feel alone. in a group of friends, you feel lonely. you're being cheered up, told you're cared for, but you feel empty inside. alone, empty, scared. sometimes, that isn't bad. sometimes, it's natural, and we need to feel that way for us to improve. why do we feel lonely? how can we change that? if we don't figure it out, we'll be lonely forever. that's why it isn't bad; because eventually, we figure it out.

but i was almost alone forever, or i thought i'd be. i felt like i was drifting through space and i was on my way to pluto, where i'd never be found because nobody cares about pluto. which is a total lie, by the way. everybody cares about pluto, even if they say they don't. somewhere in their heart, they care about pluto. i thought i was on my way to pluto, but truth is, i was pluto. i was someone who i thought nobody cared about, when in reality, everybody cared; even if they said they didn't. when my brother calls me stupid, or when my friends joke around saying that i'm dumb or something; they say it, but it isn't true. nobody knows that except them, and what's the problem with that? it's that if you don't say something, they won't figure it out. i didn't figure it out until i was told, so i'm not lying.

i am pluto, and people care about pluto. i guess that's hard to accept for me. it's hard to realise that people do care, you know? especially when you want to believe that they don't, and i don't know why our brains are like that. it sucks, and seems extremely unnecessary to me. but i think, i know, i've come to accept that. so i stepped back. i stopped standing, waiting, watching for a sign that somebody cared. i don't need a sign when i know that it's true. i don't need a sign when i am pluto.

because people care about pluto.
just like they care about me.

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[bakuraas.]

Username: Golden-Boy
Name: Xyvex
Gender: Male [FtM]

What have they learned about themselves this year?: [500/500]
Maybe, being on earth isn't as bad as Xyvex first thought it'd be.

He's not an alien, of course not, he just hasn't been too much on earth and he used to when he was young. Instead, Xyvex was in the stars, planetary travel. This year was the first year he had back home on earth since he first left. His family was gone, the people who he expected to wait for his return were gone. He was sure that this year was going to be his worst year, but being alone with himself all year made him realize something about himself that he never would have realized in any other situation.

He didn't want the life he used to have. He wanted a change, and he found it once he learned that little thing about himself. He was a hopeless romantic. He never believed that he would be, constantly spending his time on his work as a kit, getting the education he needed to go into space like he always dreamed of. He never really met up with anyone before, too busy with his studies. It's only this year that he realized he didn't want that. He realized that, even with his family, he was lonely.

Xyvex reinvented himself this year after this discovery, and found more and more about himself. When he was younger, he always believed that love was something that distracted people from the bigger picture in life. He believed that love made people unambitious and made them unable to succeed in life, but Xyvex learned that was false. He learned that because he realized that he himself wanted love, and he felt as if he had already succeeded in life. He discovered more about what he wanted to fill the void of loneliness, and he even found himself having a 'type' as many others would call it. He just...felt attracted to those who he could see protecting him from the world around him, and actually wanting him to stay on earth. He learned he was demiromantic in this way. He wanted to feel attached to someone emotionally, knowing that they'd want him to stay on earth and be with them, before actually bringing himself to be truly in love with them.

He also realized that he could show himself as male without being scared anymore. He was so used to being seen as an outlier just because he wasn't born the same gender as he identified, but now he was able to show it. Funny enough, his fur already blared his identity like a sore thumb, but he never really felt the need to point it out until now. He felt free to express himself, realizing he wasn't as alone as he originally thought. He felt free to be himself in so many ways this year, though he still misses being up in the stars. He realized this year that earth isn't that bad. He probably wouldn't have discovered himself so much in space anyhow.



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There was one day during the year when he wasn't home, and that was the first day. He had watched new years from the stars as he was being sent back to earth, able to see the celebrations but never being able to be a part of them. He felt something in him that day that started his change for the rest of the year. He wanted to see the life down there again, and the last time he did was when he was a teenager, but things were so different back them, he was sure. That day, he started to write a journal, meant to write down the different things he'd think through the year, and as he went through the year, it just became more and more packed with things he learned, making the journal look messy and chaotic. But that was okay for Xyvex, it meant he was learning!

He didn't really live anywhere this year, but most of the time he'd spend his days at a local tattoo shop, talking to the workers and customers and asking about recent events. Sure he went out more, but when he wanted to relax he went to the tattoo shop to chill out and have a nice nap every once and a while. Some of the employees figured out about his lack of a real home, and even allowed him to stay overnight, letting him sleep on the couch that was used to let people wait during the very rare rush hours. The shop owner allowed it, though he did make Xyvex take up the job of bringing snacks and stuff for the rest of the employees while he was out on the town. Sure, it was the tattoo shop's money, but they couldn't go out to buy a sandwich when they had clients.

Xyvex eventually got a job at the parlor, a real one, not just being an errand boy so that he could lay on the couch at night. He was mostly in charge of doing small tattoos, primarily ones on the cheek or on the shoulder, that could range from tiny hearts to miniature skulls. Xyvex liked the job, and he seemed to be overly enthusiastic when he was able to put a tattoo on a client. He always seemed like a perfectly positive employee, and nobody ever really thought that he could be anything but positive.

The crew at the tattoo place of course accepted the male for his identity, though some joked that it was kind of obvious. But his inclusion into the family of the tattoo parlor was important to him, it made him feel like he had friends and family again, and they even teased him about his crushes like siblings would. He's highly affectionate towards his coworkers, because they seem less like people who work with him, and more like people who are there for him in the long run. And after being alone in space, it was a nice change.

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[Avisowl]

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So beautiful!!

[black water]

Username: •ιnιgo•
Name: cero
Gender: male
What have they learned about themselves this year?:
[252/500]
be careful who you choose to trust.

cato learned this when his best friend betrayed him. it was in high school. cero was afraid of showing his true identity, so he never really said his sexuality. he knew his friends would be accepting, but he didn't know about the rest of the school. and he didn't know if his friends would say anything to anyone else.
but everything changed for cero when his best friend caught him on his phone on some dating website, talking to a boy. besides that, everybody that cero had been talking to was male. of course, that didn't bother cero one bit.
cero didn't notice his best friend behind him. he only noticed when his friend yelled, "who is that?!"
cero tensed up. he quickly grabbed his friend and dragged them into supply closet. " why were you looking at my phone?! don't you know some things are private, fynn?!" cero whisper-yelled.
"you're gay? oh man, i need to tell the rest of our friends-!"
"no, fynn! don't!"
"don't worry, it'll be helping you."
and with that, fynn ran off. cero tried going after him, but he wasn't as fast. fynn told everyone. and i mean everyone. most of them were very accepting of cero, but others had no opinion. cero didn't even know how to feel
after about a week, cero found new friends. he realized that he should firstly be more secretive about things. and secondly, he should be careful of who he wants to trust.
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[liightning]

Username: salty.sweet
Name:
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What have they learned about themselves this year? (500 words): wip - possibly asking his best friend out? he learns he should never be ashamed of pride
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[HoneyLavender࿐]

Ana the Derp




Cerridwen - Goddess of moon, magic, agriculture, nature, poetry language, music, art, science and astrology. She was also keeper of the cauldron. Her name means “chiding love.”




Female




-The secret to happiness is the acceptance of yourself.
-Often those who aren't the easiest to love, are the ones who need it most.
-Heaven and hell exsist here and now, within your own mind.
-Life is the largest stage.
-Rememeber what your mother taught you, it came from the most sacred place of love that exsists.
-Forgive those that have yet to do you wrong, and you won't have to worry about it should the time come.
-Be grateful for this moment, it is all there is.
-You have to be your own best friend.
-The truth shall indeed set you free.
-Lies only exsist if we believe in them.
-Your thoughts create reality..
-The biggest lie is the lie of your imperfection.
-Being kind is more important than being right,
-Cherish those that you love, you never know if you'll see them again.
-it's totally ok to fail, or be bad at something
-Form your own opinions about people - don't just believe what other people are saying about them.
-Everyone is as uncomfortable and uncertain as you are.
-Never assume malicious intentions if you haven't yet ruled out mistakes, incompetence, neglect, or plain old thoughtlessness.
-Your parents are fallible humans and make mistakes sometimes, and that's OK.
-No one is paying that much attention to what you do — so do what you want and what makes you happy!
-You can't please everyone.
-You don't always get what you want.
-It's not all about you.
-There's no shame in not knowing.
-Perspective is a beautiful thing.
-Don't take anything for granted.
-There are no mistakes, only lessons we need to master.
-Forgiveness is a gift you give to yourself.
-Life is all about the journey and less about the destination.
-If you don’t believe in yourself, nobody will.
-Our attitude toward life will determine life’s attitude toward us.
-If you love yourself, chances are that others will love you also.
-The world won’t change if you don’t change.
-Loneliness is different from solitude.
-The more we express our gratitude, the more things we will have to be grateful for.
-Courage is not the absence of fear.
-Independence comes with responsibility.
-It's nice to be important, it's more impotant to be nice.
-No matter how far apart we are, laughter will always bring us closer.
-Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present and future.
-Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about,
-No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
-Always choose life.
-Forgive but don't forget.
-What other people think is none of your business.
-However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
-Time heals almost everything. Give Time time.
-All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
-Envy is a waste of time. Accept what you already have, not what you think you need.
-No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
-Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

[NaCl]

Username: NaCl
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What have they learned about themselves this year? (500 words):
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[sun struck]

Y-yes please;;o;

Mark<3

I’m going to have to drop out... sorry;;o;

[Chickpea]

Mork

[Kassypen]

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Definite res!