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username 》 vogelbiene
name 》 nivin
gender 》 male
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║╚═════╝ standing there, watching the waves roll in fluidly and sea spray fill his lungs, it feels surreal to nivin that he used to despise the ocean. he blinks once, twice, thrice, and smiles to himself, allowing his eyes to slide shut as he seemingly melted into the wooden fence surrounding the beach.
it was bordering dusk by now, and others were starting to pack up and dissapear; nivin's favourite time of the day. often he would never come here at this time-
hands are shaking, breathing shallow, skin pallid and oh lord, i can't breathe
- but today he felt daring enough to conquer his own evils lurking within his mind. and that's how he found himself slowly walking towards the sand, towards the waves. his paws stood in the shallows, feeling the ice-cold water almost travel up his veins. he closes his eyes; it's almost too much to see the waves roll closer to him.
they've taken me once, they won't take me again
he was only days old when he was taken under, current dragging him out to the depths and water filling his lungs. the frantic struggle to swim towards the sun, to swim towards light sticks to him like glue, and the sting of the lack of oxygen in his lungs still hurt him at times, even when he could breathe.
they said he was lucky, said he could have died, but was he truly that lucky if this had kept with him?
nivin opens his eyes now, searching the ever-darkening horizon for- well, he doesnt truly know. but he is at peace, feeling the water gently lap at his shins.
it's the one thing he hates to love about the ocean; waves always seem to take away, but bring back what they had stolen.
