Username:
ToxicShadow
Name:
Sanako
Gender:
Female
Why are they so heartbroken?
Although it's an unremarkable tale, certainly one that is not just unique to her, it is one that lingers within her. The Sima she secretly had a crush on asked her out as a joke. Nervous and excited, she gladly accepted! Only for him to laugh in her face, as did his friends that appeared beside him, who had been listening in, against her knowledge. She was told he would never date, "such a weird, ugly girl." Since then, she's avoided most other Simas, unable to get over the harshness of his terrible joke. She is entirely afraid to even try to love again.
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It was the first day of the new school year! Young Simas from all over attended the classes held by teachers, learning the many skills they would need as they left their awkward teenage years behind and became adults, themselves. Sanako woke up early that morning, in spite of not being able to fall asleep early the night before. Late to sleep, early to rise, such a thing happened every year, it seemed.
in spite of waking up ahead of a time, she didn't arrive to their school site early. At home, she was distracted by one thing or another, until she realized that, if she didn't hurry, she might have actually ended up late. In such a rush to get to school on time, she wasn't paying close attention and, as it happened often, she tripped over her own feet. She tumbled into another Sima as she entered the school grounds, knocking them to the ground with her in an awkward heap.
"I-I'm so sorry," she stammered out as she pushed herself away from the other Sima and rose back to her feet. It was only then, after dipping her head in apology, that she looked up to see the other Sima's face. Oh. Oh no! They were angry! They were glaring at her. They were definitely annoyed.
"Why don't you watch where you're going?" He snapped.
Moving a step back, Sanako shrinked away from him. "I-I told you that I was sorry." That was all she could manage, never a very brave Sima. If at all possible, she tended to avoid wanting to cause trouble and confrontation, but here she was. Such an awful situation!
"Hey, are you okay?" Another Sima approached the two, stopping beside Sanako to look her over. It was the voice of another male. Definitely.
It was only after a moment that she realized he was speaking to her. "O-oh, yes! I'm fine," she managed to get out, turning to look at the new stranger.
That was it. That was when Sanako fell in love at first sight. He wasn't the most handsome Sima around. In fact, he was a little bit nerdy, but he was cute and he'd come to her rescue. It was really no surprise that she felt her heart pang in her chest as she looked at him.
"And you," he looked at the other male, the one that Sanako had bumped into, "are you okay?"
With another male interfering, this just wasn't worth the effort. Catching the eye of a teacher would have been a bad idea. He huffed. "Yeah," he answered shortly, turning to leave.
Once he was several paces away, the male that had came to Sanako's aid smiled over at her. "Hey, you're okay now. You'd better hurry, before you're late."
At the time, Sanako was too embarrassed, after realizing her sudden feelings, to answer him. She could only nod, given her own awkward smile back at him.
From then on, her eyes followed him everywhere. They ended up in the same class, so it was easy. She was taken in by his kindness but, no matter how much she tried to talk herself into it, Sanako just couldn't bring herself to confess to him. Days turned into weeks, and weeks into months. She watched him the whole time, but she was beginning to watch him change. At first, he'd been a fairly quiet male, himself, but he was clever and he was always helpful. She wasn't the only Sima that he was kind to. But, recently, he'd fallen into a bad crowd. He could have made friends with anyone, at least, she thought so, but he'd befriended some guys that were less than savory characters.
It was lunch time one day and, as usual, she was eating outside, by herself. She'd learned that he and his friends were often in the area at lunch time, so she couldn't help herself.
Unbeknownst to her, his friends had certainly come to notice her presence. "Hey, that girl always stares at you. I bet she likes you?" One of his friends pointed out, gesturing toward her with a nod of her head.
Her crush really had no idea what his friend was talking about, but looked over at her, and frowned. Oh. It was her.
"I dare you to ask her out as a joke," another friend said. "I bet she'll says yes."
"Yeah, yeah. If she does, we'll all pay for you lunches the rest of the week," his third friend encouraged him, laying down the stakes.
The three of his friends hid away then, out of sight, leaving him there by himself. He heaved a sigh, but approached her anyway. "Hey, Sanako," he greeted her casually, wearing that usual smile of his.
Sanako was taken in by it immediately, smiling back when she looked up at him, but her heart was pounding in chest. He'd spoken to her! He said her name[/u]! She just couldn't believe it. Nervous and excited, it was difficult for her to even manage a quiet, "Y-yes?"
"I was wondering..." he began, meeting her gaze. "Would you go out with me?"
For a moment, it was as though the entire world had stopped. Those simple words from him made it feel as though her heart was going to jump right out of her chest! No, those butterflies, maybe... maybe she was going to puke. Oh gosh. What should she do? This was what everyone always hoped for! That their crush would come and confess to [i]then. She could barely think straight, barely contain herself. She had to answer, she reminded herself. "Um... Yes?" She nodded her head, embarrassed and blushing. "Yes, I'll... go out with you."
It was only after she'd given her answer that the other three males burst into laughter, coming out of their hiding place in a group. "See! What did I tell you? She totally said yes," one of them said, unable to hide his terrible amusement.
"He'd never go out with such a weird, ugly girl like you!" Another said.
"Just look at you. You're so creepy, always sitting by yourself and staring at him!"
Sanako could only look on, horrified. Her chest hurt, as if her heart was sinking into the pit of her stomach, and her stomach was in knots. He... he'd only asked her out as joke! She was ugly. He must have thought so, if his friend said it.
"Isn't that right?" One of them coaxed an answer out of him.
"Yeah." Her crush simply agreed with them, laughing along with them, not even bothering to look at Sanako anymore.
Tears welled up in her eyes. She couldn't say anything. She couldn't defend herself. All she could do was scramble onto her feet and run away from them all.
She was weird. She was ugly. He couldn't possibly like her.
The damage was done.
Character Info:
At this point, Sanako is fairly insecure. She's not all that confident in herself and she keeps herself isolated from others, afraid of being hurt again. To be honest, even she realizes that she has probably overacted, taking those words to heart when she really shouldn't have, but she just can't help it. Still, a small part of her wants to change, but she's still afraid.
Most of her days are spent at home, whenever possible. Her home is comfortable. She's alone. There is no one there to judge her. She is free to be herself. In all honestly, she's a sweet girl and has a talent for things like cooking and sewing, but she does have some rather unusual tastes. As surprising as it may be, she has a thing for horror books, films and memorabilia, which she collects, as well as creepy things like medical models and other objects that one might usually find in a haunted house rather than a girl's bedroom.
She's the kind of girl that prefers quiet or stormy nights, curled up in a warm blanket, reading or watching one of the movies from her extensive collection.
Ultimately, she's actually very kind and protective of those close to her, but that's just it. She doesn't make friends easily. She never has, so, at the moment, that applies to no one. She just keeps to herself. Perhaps, one day, though, someone will come along and bring her back out of the darkness.
Random Tidbits:
+ Her room has black out curtains, which blocks out all sunlight, preferring artificial light.
+ Easily suffers from heat exhaustion.
+ Has a fondness for snow.
+ Ideal vacation is visiting a cabin in the mountains during winter.
+ One day, might like to open a horror museum.
+ Believes in ghosts and other entities.
+ Often drinks coffee, tea, hot cocoa, or milk.
+ Had piano lessons when she was younger.
