Username: Strudel
Name: Mephis
Gender: Male
Theme: Breathe Me- Sia Why this song?: Mephis is bright and cheery outwardly, but inside he's extremely insecure. This is a side of him he doesn't like others to see.
The truth is, while he's often found being silly and trying his best to make others laugh, he actually shies away from the attention it gains him. He has a hard time opening up to others, and making true friends.
His family is not large, and has drifted apart. The couple of good friends he managed to make when he was in school have moved on and found purpose or love elsewhere. He feels they have outgrown him. While he has stayed in the same place, wanting nothing more than affection and a real connection to someone.
The years have been harsh to this kalon, and he feels so alone. Often, he does and says things to himself that only accomplishes to hurt himself because of his insecurities and self-esteem issues. He constantly feels lost, and unconnected to the world. He wants more for his life, but he doesn't know how to move on to another phase of his life or how to simply even push it aside long enough to find some small measure of happiness in himself.
When he does eventually find a true friend, one that lifts him up and pushes him to find his true self, that friend will be very loved and appreciated for their entire lives, but until that happens, Mephis will continue yearning for someone to appreciate him and love him for who he is and who he can become.
Much like the instrumental end of the song, I want the end of his story to be powerful and meaningful, even without words. I want him to have a chance to grow into the kalon he is meant to be, and to find some friend who can raise him up and show him that there's more to his life than feigning happiness for others while he's in pain.
I want him to have that friend who will warm him up to the world and care for him.
This song is the song I have picked as his theme song, because it fits him now so well. Ultimately however, what I want is for him to outgrow this song, and grow into the kalon he was always meant to be.
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