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username ; Foxy The Pirate
name ; Mabaliw
gender ; male
element; descry
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appearance from the outside ;; Well,
Mabaliw from the outside looks like a reasonable gator. Looking actually fairly reserved, never making complete eye contact with any certain person. He makes breathing at the same rate every moment look normal, and not precise at all. An ear twitch, a double blink, a neck crack, all getting lost and unnoticed by many in a crowd. Signs of anxiety ignored by all, yes, he looks like anybody else inside this room our outside walking in the streets and swamps. His voice gruff, gravely, quiet. His eyes can be described as soft and hypnotizing, almost giving a false sense of security to the one's around him. Oh, they're all so unsuspecting for what's in store.
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the real inside story ;; Thoughts constantly running, always shooting in his mind, every single one screaming louder and louder for him to listen. Every single one being new, even if it's a slight difference. Then, once they all get too loud to hear, he's got to let the voices be let out through laughter. Random intervals for random lengths of time, a shower of uncontrollable laughter fall over
Mabaliw. His eyes widen, mouth widens, and his head gets thrown back involuntarily. An abrupt ending, his face returning to the calm and collected outlook. Breathing not so steady at first, but then back to the precise breathing. These bursts can happen even while he's speaking to another gator, a sullen 'sorry' afterwards.
personality ;;
Mabaliw is truly a calm and collected gator, perhaps at times showing a bit of machoness. He has bits of hilarity that shows at times and even kindness to younger gaters, though i wouldn't recommend letting him near younger gators. He has a touch of insanity, and falls into random bursts of crazy laughter and sometimes if you look close, you can see how it scares him at times. He has no record so far of hurting anyone, but he is afraid that one day, the worse will happen.
Mabaliw is also a "glass half empty" type of perspective, and will usually see the worst in many situations. Although, he has been known to surprise. In a climatic situation,
Mabaliw is the eerily calm gator to try and calm others and try to do what he can to help. Often though, through these situations he will keep it together out in the open, but in his own time he breaks down. Crying hysterically to himself, questioning if he did the right thing in the long run. Usually this situation is resolved in a warm glass of tea and soothing music, and maybe even a good laugh or two.
Mabaliw has learned that there's nothing to do about these laughing fits, and has only began to just apologize and move on. They use to beckon his name almost every night, whispering regrets. Now, he tries his best to ignore these voices, especially at night.
a story //his perspective//;; Outside, the air is fresh and calm. The scenery without others has already began to flood my minds. I'm out of my house which is very unusual for me in all honesty, but i was invited to this "important" party. I gotta make it, i can't let them down. These green shades are so beautiful at this time, dark and lights colliding in the already dimming light making it all collide oh-so perfectly. Spots of brown speckled throughout this swamp to make the scene even more unique. A deep breathe and a look to the floor later, I was on my way. I walk everywhere and anywhere, it's easier from where I live, and easier on me as a whole. I need to get one fit out before i leave if at all possible, but i know for a fact i can't force that. I wish it wasn't so weird when it happens in public... well, weird is one word for what i feel. If i was told to sum it all up in one word,
mortified would be the one that comes to mind. "Don't talk to him, last time i saw him he went nuts." "Don't get close to him he might hurt you." "
He scares me" These voices cloud around me afterwards and the last one is by far the worst to me. No one will like me at this rate, i don't need anyone being afraid of me. I was so close to not going to this party because of these... voices. By the time I had been basically talking to myself i realized that i was almost halfway there. Maybe if i think more, i can make i-hah.. haha..hahAHAHAHA. A growing sound of laughter filled the air around me, the echos everywhere sounding like a horror movie ambiance. Nothing is in my mind right now and my jaw is down to my knees. I feel my face contract and my eyes hurt, my neck is bent and contorted in an odd and unnatural fashion. Only i know that it's me making this noise but why do i feel like people are already judging me. My face and neck release themselves from their laughing chamber and I can finally breathe again. Phew... it came sooner than later which in hindsight probably won't help what-so-ever. Time to pull myself together and keep walking. I could still text them that i got sick, or that my goldfish that i don't own passed away... or that i just need a cup of tea. -Sigh- Gah... tea. The real escape and way to truly get to see my inner core. Invite me to a tea party, you'll get to know anything and everything about me. Even things that you don't need nor want to know, like the last time i showered or the last time i had a nightmare. Bookstores that sell tea are my kryptonite, take me in there and boom. I'm out of your hair until that shop either kicks me out or closes. Bookstores and when i'm drinking my tea is the only time i don't have a fit. As I look ahead of me, i'm at the front of a doorstep. Breathe,
Mabaliw. If no one likes you, maybe you can leave quicker. What if they kick me out? I knock and wait. Oh my gosh, it's happening again. I can feel my eyes as they widen, my neck as it slides back ever-so-dainty, and my mouth widening with a noise almost growling at first. Please, just let me be
normal for once.
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