[Cheeb]

aaa red what a cutie!! q o q
maaaybe gonna enter?

[lonk]

marking ;^)

[kidcandy]

username;; morray
kalon name;; tucker, although he prefers tuck !!
kalon gender;; male
writing or art;;

entry 459, winds are dead

It's only May 5th and I've made my way down the southern side of Scotland's Eastern Coats. The waters sure are gorgeous here. Theres a silence in the air that brings my soul peace. As I wait for my 459th sunset in a different area, I gaze across the sky. Something tells me I'm home, and I haven't gotten this feeling in more than a year... Never knowing my parents or even where I belong has lead to my sense of roaming the lands. The feeling in my heart here scares me... I've never had the sense of 'belonging' from any place I've been to, but here? Nestled among the dunes and comfortably resting is where my heart feels like it belongs.

For the past year and a half I've been traveling the world by foot, only carrying what I can on my back. I've always felt the need to, like I've never belonged or needed to stay anywhere. I've followed the wind my entire life and never thought about staying somewhere permanently. I think it would be boring, after all the things I've seen, done, and learned about. I have the faint memory of staying somewhere for almost a year, but my heart felt drained during that time. I just remember not being happy. I think it would be different here though..

In a lighter, more happy tune for myself, the sun is setting and I think it's probably one of the prettiest ones I've seen yet. The clouds are in the right spot and the light shines through in pink and sweet purple rays.The sun is a perfect orange with small flecks of white and yellow throughout the mass. As I lay here, I feel the warmth not only from the sun, but from the sand. Things here seem perfect. As the sun reaches its never ending destination I realize that my time here is coming to an end.

I can feel the winds shifting once again; they always did that for me when I needed to be lead somewhere. However, the winds aren't speaking to me now.. They've died down right when it's time for me to be lead to my next destination. I feel as if it's a sign from the Earth spirits. I look around, as if searching-- waiting, for something further to happen. Nothing... My paws curl into the sand and I instinctively lay my head down. Maybe it's not so bad to stay somewhere. Just maybe..

Signed, J.R Tucker

[sapiosexual]

oooohhhhh res

[sheepsorrel]

username;; cupcake frosting
kalon name;; skipper (call him skip)
kalon gender;; male
writing or art;;sketchbook serves as a dream journal!

[Wileyfangs]

Username;; Eternal_Flame //kalon name;; Theodosia //kalon gender;; Genderfluid //writing or art;;

Tuesday, July 19th
It's the first day. I'm so tired because my
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internet friend and I were talking all night into
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the morning. Still I can't say I regret it so much.
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She did tell me to go to sleep. Doctor's orders
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and all.I told her she's not a real doctor yet so
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that argument's pretty invalid. Hehe she got so mad
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though it was funny. Anyway I hope tomorrow is better
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than the train wreck I had today. You'd think people
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would understand. I mean I don't mind helping out
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there's too much for just one person to do.
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Wednesday, July 20th
My friend, she talked to me again.
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But she sounded more upset than usual.
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When I asked about it she told me she was fine, she sounded
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sad. I guess it was just her job. She told me she's a
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doctor of sorts. Must have had a pretty rough day...
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Well besides that I finally got a promotion today! Though I guess
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it would be a good thing, I can't help feeling as though it's a
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bad idea. Like don't get me wrong, I deserve it after
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working this long But, I can't help feeling as though
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this will end out badly for me.Ah geez, what is with this
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heavy attitude?!

Thursday, July 21st
I found out why my friend was so upset. She told me
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She had a patient die the other day and.....
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it was quite emotional. His name was Elliot. She
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asked me to remember his name. I wouldn't be able
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to forget. As it turned out my friend, has been really
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down. I hate to say I never noticed it but I honestly didn't.
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I just always thought she was in a bad mood. God I feel
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terrible. Work was stressful again today. I'm messing
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up pretty badly. I overthink things so much!
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But they always want things so perfect too and
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I know I'm not perfect at all though! I have to think
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but if I do think it through I'll mess up...
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I want to talk to my friend again
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She probably needs it. God I hope she feels better.
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I have no idea what that must feel like...

Friday, July 22nd
My friend is coming to America today and she's nearby.
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I want to comfort her so badly so I offered to go get her
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and that she could stay at my apartment with me.
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We could be roommates. She hasn't responded to me yet
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and I think my heart is going to explode with anxiety.
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What if she said no? Was that too fast?
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Would I look like a freak for asking? She doesn't say anything.
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Why won't she say anything? Crap! I messed up.
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I messed up!
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....
Oh. She said yes. OH.
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I got really scared there for a minute I
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I need a minute god that was....really scary. I...oh she can still
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see me and I'm crying oh geez! She tells me it's okay,
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she understands but I just couldn't and she's so nice.
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I listen as she tells me to calm down and to drink some water.
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She even sends me a little calming cat gif to help me out
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and I find myself relaxing.
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She asks if the offer still stands.
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I tell her yes.

[551/ 700]

[Ravendarus]

u s e r n a m e
Ravendarus

n a m e
Artemis Demetriou

g e n d e r
Female




Dear Diary Life Log

Day 280
I haven't spoken to you in 3 days, yes I feel guilty about it but I had a photo shoot to get to. Thankfully it saved me from the usually menaces I faced in the day. Being a model is truly a job worthy of my talents and bloodline. Yet if anyone knew about you my life would be ruined, a rich girl like me can't be caught writing in something as putrid as a dia Life Log. They would find all my darkest secrets and expose me for what I really am. Scared of the world. THERE. I said it. I'm afraid of the outside world, I liked having my pampered life sheltered from the common filth. Unfortunately there is the fact that we grow, we grow older and we lose our precious life essence, and sadly some of us... need to work. Ugh, I hate the word, work. Father thought it would be a brilliant opportunity to expand his business if his daughter was the head face of the company. Which was fine, but now I'm expected to go out, in public... thus leading to awkwardly awful encounters with the lowly stupid norms. Don't get me wrong, I love being a model, I love others beckoning to my whims and doing everything to ensure I look my best, however I hate actually having to show my face. Dreadful children try and touch me, their minds to undeveloped to realize my stature. Perhaps they will learn to address me accordingly. So long as I work hard I will be honored. I pray that day is soon.

- Love Artemis D.

Day 281
It was horrendous... they were horrible... awful little green monsters. This mother and her three babies wandered up to me and the kids mistook me for an actual Alpaca, they pet me. PET me like I was some kind of wild animal. I don't know how many more of these "mistakes" I can take... Thankfully I managed to mumble my discomfort to their mother who happily apologized and ushered them along like ducklings. I was free, but I couldn't help but feel disturbed by her nice smile. Didn't she even realize I was a Kalon? Scratch that, not just any Kalon, didn't she know who I was? Was she blind or just mindless? Truly this experience was completely ludicrous. If it wasn't for my magnificent coat I would be treated with the respect I deserve even by small narrow minded kids. Yet I cannot bring myself to cut it even in the slightest. What a tragic fate that has fallen before me.

- Love, Artemis D.

Day 282
It was a horrid sunny day, I have no idea what compelled me to leave the house once again. It's not like I want to put myself through this torture, I just didn't want to stay inside all day, what would be the point in just laying around the house. If I did that my fur would lose it's brilliant sheen, then I would be a disgrace. Then it happened! Like a flash of lightening someone ran into me! We tumbled to the ground causing my fur to get covered in dirt! DIRT. Do you even realize how long it takes me to groom my fur each and every morning until it's perfect. Now soiled with heaven knows what was on the ground, I yelled at the female, she was grey and blue and honestly looked like a walking storm of despair. I spat angrily about how she should watch where she was walking, then again I really didn't pay attention myself but she came at me from the side so I'm not the one in the wrong! She burst into tears apologizing profusely, her utter cries of dismay annoyed me to the ends of the earth but at least she knew she was the problem and exactly who I was. Thankfully she was easy to shoo away so I didn't have to listen to her revolting chatter. I must remember to avoid the gathering place of commoners. I seem to run into nothing but trouble whenever I do. Perhaps my luck will turn around tomorrow.

- Love Artemis D.

[Evils]

username;;
kalon name;;
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writing or art;;

[cardboardteeth]

username;;
froggie1
kalon name;;
dolly
kalon gender;;
female
writing or art;;

TUESDAY, JULY 19

unfortunately it's been a bad day for me today. i was walking down the street and was drenched in water by a passing bus. as you know i dislike water, especially when it's ON me. of course this happened today~ i had art class. i showed up anyway, and despite my best effort, my fur looked TERRIBLE and everyone laughed at me.. including the teacher. she tried not to show it but she failed. miserably. after class, however, was the worst point of the day. i overheard someone snickering about me to somebody else. they said things like 'look at her fur!' and 'she got water all over the classroom'.

[madness,]

username;; madness,
kalon name;; tbd
kalon gender;; tbd
writing or art;; wip!!

mark this is so adorable <3333