[ Grell Sophiete]

First off, I give I give Dawnbreeze10210 all the right in the world to take Grell back if she is mistreated. <3 I love her more than anything else, and would hate her to sit in a corner and collect dust. D:THOUGH MY SOUL MAY SET
in
darkness, it will rise in
perfect light; I have loved the
stars to fondly to be fearful of the
night
Username:
Kaycee Sohma
Name:
"Grell, Grell Sophiete, I know...it's not the prettiest name. But, it makes me feel special. That's all that matters in my mind. Now, regarding my last name....I have no idea. My mother must have thought it was elegant, which it is. It suits me, if you get to know me. I am very shy, and elegant, just..not in groups of people."
Pronunctuation:
g-r-eh-l. It's basically pronounce how it's spelled. Gr-Ell. :3
And Sophiete? So-feet.
Reason For Name:
Grell:
Well, I chose the name Grell because I am obsessed with Black Butler, also known as Kuroshitsuji. Grell is the name of a shinigami, or grim reaper, who is my absolute favorite character(Next to ROnnie of course, I can't choose between those two! <3). Grell is a guy, but actually believes he is female. For the reason he acts female, I chose his name for this beautiful Jewel. Everytime I hear the name 'Grell', I think of a mysterious, secretive, insecure, yet strong-willed person. As soon as I saw this wonderful girl, I saw me. The name Kaycee didn't fit her, so I chose Grell. It's my favorite name in the whole world, and when I saw this girl, the first thing that popped in my head was Grell. Well, Sebastian also popped in there, but that's another story, and it's a guy name, so I didn't give it another thought. x3
Sophiete
Now, I chose sophiete because the Grell in Black Butler's name is Grell Sutcliff. Guy name, right? Well my sister came up with the wonderful idea(*cough*notreallywinderful*cough*) of calling him "Grell Sophiete" because he has long hair like a girl. I just thought it fit this beautiful girl. <3
Name Meanings:
Grell
Grell is Germanic for 'easily angered person', and the pronunciation of it in Japanese means 'to go bad' or 'to stray from the right path'.
Sophiete
The name Sophiete is a name I got from the common name "Sophia". Since Sophiete is a unique name, it has no meaning. Although, I see it to have the same meaning AS Sophia.
The name, Sophia, is derived from the Greeks, means "Wisdom", or "Popularity". It is spoken as so-Fee-a. It is a female name. It was the name of a Greek saint who died due to the grief.
Nicknames:
With a name like Grell, you wouldn't have a nickname...right?
Wrong. lol.
Grell has two nicknames: Senpai and Kōhai. Jewels younger than Grell would call her Senpai, as Senpai is a Japanese term for senority, more specifically: A mentor. Jewels older than herself would refer to Grell as Kōhai, which is a term for a Junior, or trainee. More simply, these may be translated as senior and junior, or as an elder compared with someone younger in the family/company/organization.
Grell may also be know as "The Queens Guard-Dog." This is because her family has been loyal to the Queen of Englad for generations, and is responsible for helping the queen when Her Majesty can't do it herself.
All royal families are know as Miss, Misses, and what not. Before Grell was head of the family, she could have been referred to as "lady Sophiete." Now that she is head of the Sophiete family, she is "Madame" or "Dutchess" Sophiete.
Age:
"I am two years old in human years, making me fourteen in dog years. So, we can say i'm a fairly young teen."Gender:
"I'm female. I honestly don't see how you could think otherwise, I am after all very....Well, my voice sound nothing like a man's. I've lived alone
and will die alone.
But at least it wont
be a lost cause if it
does end here.Monochrome No Kiss wrote:I close my eyes, the touch of
your fingers
Through monochrome
the memory lingers
Into your hands I'm resting
the pain inside me
I clear my mind, of
this unforgiveness.
All of my scars, and
all it's traces
You and me, I see
A dream of blind destiny
And it's into your arms
I'm melting
And it's the first time
I've ever felt like this
You are the hand that's
dealt me
The tempter sealing
my fate
With a kiss
And in a flash, the stars
align
I search beyond the
words, wanting a sign
But lost inside your eyes
Lies become clearer to see
They tell a different story
So take the reins and don't
let go
I want this pain to scar deep,
for I know
All our past recieves healing,
with memories concealing,
We cry to the light of the moon.
This night's become a wonderful
haven
And in my heart, it's what
I've craven.
Addicted to this sea.
I've even lost the need
to breathe.
And it's out of my life,
you're fading.
And it's the warmth of your
arms I still desire.
Stuck all alone, I'm praying
to never share my one kiss
with a liar.
And in the dark,
I'm left alone.
My heart inside is losing
every tone.
And spotting all your lies,
Wise of this path to be free
I'm writing a new story
I fall asleep to tainted dreams
I know that there is more to
all that seems
Wanting all my desires to
never retire,
I live by the light of the moon.
And it's straight to the sky,
I'm flying
And it's the knowledge that
you will not be there
Struggling through, I'm trying
To find my own escape out of
this snare.
And in a flash, the stars align
I search beyond the words,
still wanting a sign
But lost inside your eyes
Lies become clearer to see
They tell a different story
So take the reins and don't
let go
I want this pain to scar deep,
for I know
In spite of every sign crying this
night to be true
The sun will rise without you
So here's another kiss
To tainted bliss
A toast to empty promise
With virtue pretending
love as our ending
We fall by the light
of the moon
.:Everyone says love hurts.
No, Loneliness hurts. Rejection
hurts. Losing someone hurts.
In reality, love is the only thing
that covers up pain:.Theme Song:
Your Guardian Angel
And, not just one song..I mean, come on!
We all have multiple songs to
describe us, right?
SkinWhy This Song?:
Guardian Angel
Well, I chose this song because I
believe it represents how
Grell will stand up for those she
loves, if the time came to where
if she didn't, they would die, or
she would regret it. To show she
can be brave if she needs
to be, but prefers to keep to herself.
Skin
Not the best name, but the minute I heard this
song, the rest of the night I had THIS jewel stuck
in my head, and I even doodled her at school.
I chose this song because in the song, it explains
how those who look at her don;t know her, all
they see is scars. Only her friends know, and
see, the Angel living in her heart.
It also explains how she needs to step out of
the dark, wants to,even, to show her true
colors but is afraid of being pushed away.Songs To Describe Her Further:Theme song, yes. But just one
song can't descibe you completely, right? That
would be crazy! So, here is a list of songs I
actually cry to, because, well....they
are so beautiful, touching, and remind me
of this Jewel...and..myself.. <3
Wish You Were Here
Mad World
Butterfly Kisses
Birth Date: Grell was born on September 17th,
1998: 11:48 PM.Zodiac Sign(Astrologic):
About Virgo:
Your element: Earth
Your ruling planets: Mercury
Symbol: The Virgin
Your stone: Sapphire
Life Pursuit: To do the right thing
Vibration: Compassionate and caring
She has a motherly instinct, and is very kind
and caring, but as mentioned before: No one
but her best friend really trusts her.
Virgo's Secret Desire: To love and be
loved in return
All Grell wants to do is be loved, and be able
to love. But not being social...well, she finds
this hard.Zodiac Sign(Chinese):
Tigers, considered to be brave,
cruel, forceful and terrifying, are the symbol
of power and lordliness. In ancient times,
people usually compared emperors or
grandees with the tiger. Court officials
often said that 'accompanying the emperor
is just like being at the side of a tiger'. There
are also many legends on hunting tigers
dealing with struggling against evil might.Sexuality:HetroSexual
Grell is HetroSexual. She is attracted to those of
the opposite gender/sex. In her case, she is attracted
to males.CatchPhrase:"For I am daughter of a king."Favorite Quote:A thousand words
couldn’t bring you back…
I know this because I tried,
neither could a thousand tears…
I know this because I cried,
you left behind a broken heart
and happy memories too…
but I never wanted memories..
I only wanted you
WAIT!I want to tell Sea something!
...fine. This is for you, after all.
Thank you.
Now, Sea. We have been friends for as long
as I can remember, And I want you to know:
When i can't find the words, to say how much
it hurts, your words seem to be some of the
only words that are the healing in my heart.
When all I can see is broken memories, you
are my light in the dark. Thank you for being
my best, and only friend all these years.
Religon:Please don't judge this because
you disagree with the religon I choose.
I somply chose it because I find it fit for her,
and vecause I don;t know any other religon
really except for one me and my friends
mad up.
Grell is a Christian, not to be confused
with Catholics, although I have nothing
against Catholics!
Grell believes every word the Holy Bible
says, and she doesn't care if you think
she's an idiot because of it.Fears:Now, I'm pretty sure you've gathered
that Grell has plenty of fears, no?
Well, to name just a few Grell has
a fear of death. Ever since her parents
died, she has been scared of even the
slightest bit of blood. And when some-
thing dies, she may scream.
Grell also has a fear of life. She's
worried that someday all life will end,
which it will. She has the fear that it
may hurt, and that's what scares her:
Life hurts.
Grell also has a major fear of cutting.
The reason being is because the night
her parents died, she was little and didn't
know better. She felt like the pain just
flowed away with the blood.....but now
she knows that it did help, burying sadness
with pain. But she has scars to remind her,
as if memories of her parents wasn't enough.
Grell is also chlostrophbic. She hates small
spaces. She feels so..trapped. She actually
had an anxiety attack last time she was in
a small space.
Languages:Grell can speak fluently in
many languages, as it was one of her
jobs to learn them as a child.
English
French
Japanese
Hebrew
Italian
Greek
Chinese
Polish
Persian
Maltese
Dutch
Spanish
And of course, Swedish.Does She Have An Accent?:Of course, are you out of your
bloody mind? *laughs*
Yes! I'm proud to say
that she does, in fact, have a extremely
beautiful British/English accent!
"Ello Govna'!".:It doesn't matter how much
alike you are, it's what makes you
diferent that counts:.
Crush:
I have none...everyone who has ever looked
at me, and talked to me, thinks my sould is black, and
my heart shattered.Forcing me into my own world.
The closest to social life I have ever gotten is my
friend Sea Watcher. Plus, I'm just to shy to make
friends, let alone a boyfriend.Mate:
I have none, some say my soul is too black,
like a rose. Others say the only cure to my isolation is finding
someone who I love. History:
~In The Beginning~
I opened my eyes, and saw another jewel smiling sweetly at me.
The air around me was warm. As soon as I saw that Jewel, I knew
this was my mother. She was my family, and the only I had. I was
happy, and little did I know my early years would be some of the
only happy years of my life. I blinked a few more times and made
a gurgling sound in the back of my throat, giggling at the sound I
made. I playfully pawed at my mother's snout, and twitched my tail.
~And Then I Learned About Life~
As I grew, I learned words and how to walk, run, and play. My
mother used to tell me my first word was 'Light!', when I saw
a firefly. And I stood up on my wobbly legs and tried following
it. *laughs a bit* If only it could've stayed like that....Anyways,
ever since I learned the word 'light', well, until a few years ago
, all my artwork had something to do with it. Poems, stories,
drawings, you name it! I even wrote a book caled "The little
Light Bug", but...I don't know what happened to it. Eventually
I learned about the hardships of life. That's a lesson you wish
you'd never learned. But, life has it's reasons, I guess.
~My First Friend~
When I turned seven years old, my mother decided that
I needed a friend....so she got her friends daughter to
come meet me. Her name was Sea, or if you prefer, Sea
Watcher. We became best friends, and honestly, she has
been my only friend since. We would tell each other all
our secrets, be a shoulder to cry on. Still are.
~What?~
Not being the social type, and always shying away from new
people, my parents let me and Sea Watcher find stuff out
for ourselves. They were over-protective, yes, but even
they knew we needed our freedom. One day when Sea and
I were building a fort, Sea's mother called me over. I was
nervous..."n-no.....you...they...please. tell me you're
just joking!" The tearswere running down my face almost
before my Senpai finished the news."They died is a fire,"
She said. A fire....that's all? I don't think so. It had to
have been something more, to kill two of the strongest
Jewels I know.
~Inheritance~
It had been about a week since my parents death, and I kept
having these reoccurring nightmares about fires, and them,
every single night they get worse, and longer. to make things
worse, I am no longer "Lady Sophiete", I am head of the
Sophiete family.*sigh* it's a lot of work.....but I have Sea.
I just want my life to start over, ya' know? Change some
stuff! I never wanted this, not at that age! I was only seven!
~What About now, you ask?~
After that night, I cut. It was....different. It hurt, but
at the same time it relieved me of my worries. Later
I found the pain just comes back, so I forced myself to stop.
Now, I live by myself in the Sophiete Estate. Occasionally
I'll have Sea over, she practically lives with me, actually.
It may not be the most colorful, or happy place, but It's
home. I grew up here, and if I ever had to lose this place
after the fire burnt it down and I had it rebuilt.....Just
imagine, how you would feel if you lost everything you had,
got it back, then lost it again. Never to regain it?Some Art:

Teribly sorry this isn't transparent! ^^
The program I used doesn't support
transparency, and ChibiPaint kept
crashing. .n.

Finally got the Oekaki to work! ^^
ANywho, I drew her laying in the
darkness, nothing much, honestly.
But my shoulder hurts like crap now. xD

My shoulder hurts again. -.- Anyways,
this time I just drew a simple shot
of her sitting with her back facing me,
and then I colored it in a pencil-ish style. :3

Just a little Chibi I drew last night, at like.....
4 AM. I actuallt stayed up ALL NIGHT on March
1-2. :3

Remember in her backstory, when she told the
part about seeing a firefly and saying "Light"?
Well, that's what I drew here. ANd since she
was a baby when it happened, her jewels have
no color. :3

First off, the background is not mine.
Just thought I would clear up that I got it from
Google, and it is the background on my computer,
too.All I claim is the drawing of Grell, who is going
intothe dark for the first time. And she dared to
not use the light because of her eyes.

Many thanks to Petcharat for the beautiful
art. <3 This is Grell, crying her feelings out. Not for
the first or last time, and all she can think is about
how her power may be light, but it still feels like her
heart is in the dark.

"Go ahead and let the tears flow" I drew this on an IPhone,
hardest.Thing.EVER. But I got it done, and i'm lovin the
"finger-pressure", lol.

"For I, am the daughter of a King!"
I just drew this to show how strong Grell
really is, even though she may appear weak.
Everyone has their days, and Grell's days
just happen to be more often than others!
If you ask me, it's what's inside that counts.

"This is part of my disguise. "
Guys, I did it...I drew another anthro. .u.
I'm so happy with this. <3 I fail so bad at
anthros so to me, it shows how mush love
I can give this dragon. I stayed up until
3:00 AM just to perfect almost every
drawing, including this one. <3
Anyways, this represents how she
likes to disguise herself in the dark. :3

Ref sheet, and trust me: I never make these
unless I absolutely have my heart filled with
the character it's for. To tell you the truth,
I only have four ref sheets, including this one.
This one i have worked hardest on.
It has, name(Blank), Owner(Me? <3),
Species(JMD), Age(14), Gender(Fem),
and Power(light). Plus all the hex codes
and items and such.

I know the writing got cut off. Dx
But it used to say "Shadow Princess."
After all, she is the daughter of a king,
and she likes to stay in the shadows.
(Sorry if it looks rushed, I kinda drew
it in the middle of church, lol.)
Image To Big
Many thanks to Britasuarus.! This is
simply Grell, and I see the picture
as her running into the darkness.

I can't line stuff up on the scanner worth a poo. xD
Anyways, this is a bookmark I painted. I hardly use
bookmarks, but actually, I use this one in the only
book I read(That's not on MangaReader, since that's
on my mom's IPhone). I hope this shows you how much
I love Grell. <3
Animation
Make sure you switch to the Flash
player, or else the animation will be to slow for the song, lol.
Also, Blood warning!!!! xD I just love the song iNsaNiTY, and
I think it just matches the fights Grell has with herself. :3
And I have atleast like......60 more drawing to scan. .u.
I could add to this form forever, and It still would not
be perfect and deserving enough for my little Sophiete. <3.:It's always the people that know me the least,
that judge me the most:. Narcissistic Cannibal wrote:Dont wanna be sly and defile you
Desecrate my mind and rely on you
I just wanna break this crown,
but it's hard when I'm so run down
And you're so cynical, narcissistic cannibal
Got to bring myself back from the dead
Sometimes I hate the life I made
Everything's wrong everytime
Pushing on I can't escape
Everything that comes my way
It's haunting me,
taking its sweet time
Holding on I'm lost in a haze.
Fighting life till the end of my days.
Don't wanna be rude but I have to.
Nothings good about the hell you put me through
I just need to look around,
see the life that has come unbound
And you're so cynical, narcissistic cannibal
Got to bring myself back from the dead
Sometimes I hate the life I made
Everything's wrong everytime
Pushing on I can't escape
everything that comes my way.
It's haunting me,
taking it's sweet time.
Sometimes I hate the life I made.
Everything's wrong everytime.
Pushing on I can't escape
everything that comes my way.
It's haunting me, taking it's sweet time.
Holding on I'm lost in a haze.
Fighting life till the end of my days.
Personality
Grell's personality may come across as dark and deadly
to those who don't know her. This isn't true at all.
She's just..insecure.
Grell's personality contains within it an
intense emotional power that can drive
her to put forth great effort to accomplish
herambitions and to do something noteworthy
and worthwhile. However, it is difficult for her
to materialize her ideals because of a restless,
unsettled feeling which causes Grell never to
know just what it is that she should be working
toward, and the very intensity of her nature
makes systematic concentration
and application a challenge.
Grell can have intensely contrasting feelings toward people,
either she is fiercely loyal or extremely intolerant. There is
rarely a happy medium in her feelings. Consequently,
Grell experiences many disappointments in people,
tragedy, and the loss of the very things for which
she may be intensely striving.
Bitter experiences have made her cynical, critical,
and argumentative. Grell finds it difficult to see
the brighter or humorous side of a situation.
Grell can be very nervous and highly strung,
causing tension affecting her
nervous system and solar plexus.
Likes:
~Darkness~
Grell finds the darkness more appealiing
than the light. She's been hidingin it for
so long, after all. The light hurts her
eyes now. She finds the dark mysterious,
and it's a place she says she can hide in
when no one seems
to want her.
~Cobwebs~
Yes, cobwebs. They facinate
Grell! Everytime she sees a
Cobweb, or even a newly
created spiderweb, she
finds it amazing how delicate,
yet dangerous they are. How
unique the spider must be to
be able to create such a beaut-
iful piece of art.
~Being Alone~
Exclusion. Grell has dealt with it
for almost her entire life. Ever
since she got her jewel color,
it made her different. And, as
you know, people don't always
accept those who are different.
SInce she was little, she isolated
herself from the other kids, and
cried out her feelings. She says
having so much alone time helped
her think life through....and it made
her stronger, in a way.
Dislikes:
~Bright Light~
Although Grell's power is light, she
finds that it hurts her eyes. Although
it may seem she just doesn't like light,
her eyes are very sensitive to bright,
vivid light. So, if she has to see light,
Grell wished it to be soft, and comfort-
ing; Like a fireplace or nightlight.
~Crowds~:
As you may have gathered, Grell hates
crowds. "Three is a Crowd." As she likes
to say. All she needs is a single friend,
and that friend is Sea. <3
~Death~
No, she doesn't really care for life
much either.....but ever since her parents'
death, Grell has hated every death she hears
about. Even the death of the tinyest spider
upsets her. She always cries over how it must
have felt taking that last breath, knowing that
your life is over.
~Life~
Well, she's not emo. So don;t even go there.
Grell's not suicidal, but when her parents died,
that small child wanted nothing more than to
curl up in a deep hole and die.
.:
How can you understand me when I don't understand myself?:.
Think darkness is your ally? You mearly adopted the dark. I was born in it, molded by it!




















If you asked Sea how Grell is doing, how would she reply?Just because she comes off strong doesn’t mean
she didn’t fall asleep crying and even though she says nothing is
wrong!~ maybe.. Just maybe she is really good at lying..:An End Message From Grell:.My friend says I am strong deep down and I wish I could say this to her:
I am tired of trying, I am tired over crying, I know I am smiling but inside
I am dying! Maybe then others would realize I'm just a good actress. I
thank you for reading this, and I hope atleast someone understands
the pain I've gone through. I appreciate you taking your time to read
through this, and I hope you feel the emotions I did. If you've
ever tried your best to let go something you loved so much,
and you let it go, closing those tearful eyes. You try to look
the other the way. You try to let the feeling go, but the feeling
takes control of you. You cant look away. And when you look
back to the thing you loved, it's gone.
Don't make the mistake I did. Never give up on your dreams.
You are beautiful. Promise me this: You'll look in the mirror every
night and say this: You are beautiful(or handsome), You are strong,
You are smart, You are loved. The next morning, you will look and
the mirror and see a different person, someone who is loved, because
to be loved, you must love yourself. No one else can be you, so don't
wish you had someone else's life. What's makes you, you? You. Nothing
more, nothing less.
~Grell~
Beauty is not what you see on the outside. It's not how much makeup you wear. It doesn't matter it you have silky hair, a nice body. What counts, is what's on the inside. true beauty, is what is in the heart. True beauty, is the perfection in your soul.Lie wrote:Why can't it be perfect
This love's not even real
Why don't I cry for you
Love was gone from the start
I don't want you
I don't need you
I'll forget you
It doesn't matter
I'll play along
Writing our song
We are perfect
I love you
No, this is all wrong
Why aren't you gone
I know you're not that strong
Don't listen to me
We'll always be so perfectly
Happy
The lies you succumb to
Blissfully unaware
I don't know how you can't
See through my facade
I don't want you
I don't need you
I'll forget you
It doesn't matter
I'll play along
Writing our song
We are perfect
I love you
No, this is all wrong
Why aren't you gone
I know you're not that strong
Don't listen to me
We'll always be so perfectly
Happy
And maybe one day I'll
Get to see your smile
In the arms of someone
who loves you like I do
No, this is all wrong
Why aren't you gone
I know you're not that strong
Don't listen to me
We'll always be so perfectly
Happy...
Sometimes when I say “Oh don’t worry, I’m fine…” I just want someone,
once, to look me in the eyes and just say “Don't, tell the truth”.
Now, I would just like to say: Grell is no emo, she's not goth, she's not some jerk, nor some spoiled, lonely brat. She is simply insecure, and has had a lot of things happen in her past. I wanted a character to represent me. So, that's what I did. I actually put a lot of myself into thios form. FOr example, when my grandma died this January, I was this close to cutting. The only thing that stopped me was the thought of "What would my best friebd think of me afterwards?" It's never crossed my mind again. I've had a lot of tradegy in my past, including the loss of pets. I hope you understand the form, as I put my entire heart and soul into it. I broke out in tears re-reading it multiple times, and I honestly hope you feel the feels like I did. <3