"He couldn't possibly join us! It'll just be an inconvenience to us all if he joins us!" a she-cat from somewhere close by hissed in outrage. Her words dripped with hatred and contempt, like claws raking at his heart.
He lowered his head slowly, trying his hardest to not imagine the frigid glare she was surely aiming at him. As he began to open his mouth and insist he could just stay behind, the gentle touch of a tail tip brushed against his flank. A calm, reassuring voice, as sweet as honeysuckle dew, mewed from his side, "Tati is never an inconvenience."
"Yeah! And he's blind, not deaf, you fox-heart!" another voice, much younger than the first two, snorted from the opposite side. Amaryllis and Turtle... they always have my back.
The fur along his right shoulder tingled as he felt the she-cat slowly nod her head in agreement, her own shoulder now brushing against his. Warmth and reassurance spread from her tender touch, filling him with a renewed sense of confidence. They were right, he wouldn't be an inconvenience. He would make sure of it. "I promise I won't be a bother at all. I can take care of myself, I swear it."
His words were met with silence, it echoed within the chambers of his mind. For he knew it was not true silence, rather, the cats surrounding him were speaking with their bodies. He could always sense when cats were conversing around him, even when it wasn't words they were truly speaking. It had once been frustrating for him, it felt lonesome. As if he were isolated within his mind, unable to venture forward. Unable to be a part of their world.
As his mind began to wander helplessly, Amaryllis' soothing voice spoke once more, "Come with us, Tati. Let's go now."
Hesitantly, he followed the sound of her voice along the familiar pathway leading out of the camp. "Is Reed not joining us?" he asked while his paws effortlessly maneuvered around the usual obstacles on the path out.
There was a brief moment of hesitation, as if the she-cat had been lost within her own mind, before replying softly, "That is correct, Reed will be leading a different patrol. You and I will go with Turtle to the moor." The tom's heart fluttered with disappointment, realizing this was no different than being kicked off the patrol. Again. As if sensing the discontentment of her kin-mate, Amaryllis mewed in an energetic tone, "It'll be lots of fun, Tati. Like our own little adventure! Isn't that right, Turtle?"
The boisterous tom audibly bounced towards the pair of older cats, his tail brushing against Tati's flank as they walked. "Yes! An adventure! We will have loads of fun, Tati."
The tom couldn't help but smile at the two cats, his heart feeling warm from their words of encouragement and positivity. How he wished he could see the looks on their faces at this moment. I wonder if they are smiling, he thought to himself, longing to know what joy looked like. All his life, all he knew was how joy sounded. Yet, he learned from a young age that voices can be deceiving and the images he attempted to produce within his mind couldn't compare to the real thing.
"Oooh, Ama, can we please go stop in the creek real quick? I want Tati to feel the cool rock I found the other day!" Turtle spoke from beside him, initially startling the older tom. The young softpaw seemed to turn his attention to Tatters as his voice got louder, "You'll love it, Tati! It's so smooth, like fish scales, and round. I suggested we bring it to play catch with the kits, but Ama said it could be dangerous. Ya know, cause it's a rock."
A quiet giggle escaped the she-cat, "Because it is dangerous, Turtle. But I think that's a good idea. Let's visit the creek."
With that, the trio traveled a little while longer into the Blessed's territory. Not long passed before Tatters could heard the gentle rushing of the creek. The dirt beneath his paws felt coarser and damp and the breeze carried sprinkles of water, landing upon his whiskers. The tom twitched his nose, feeling the droplets scattered across his chest, yet he didn't mind at all. He did enjoy the water, even if he wasn't able to swim like the other cats.
Pounding of paws echoed beside him as he assumed Turtle rushed forward, eagerly searching for his rocky treasure. The older tom decided to take a seat, wrapping his tail neatly around his paws. A shiver ran across his body as he felt Amaryllis' soft fur graze his as she did the same. Their shoulders were touching once she was seated. As close as they were he could even feel the rhythmic thumping of her heart.
"I think he found his rock," the she-cat stated as the sound of the softpaw's rapid steps got louder once more.
"Mfhere isht ish," Turtle's voice was muffled by what was presumably the precious rock he carried within his jaws. Once he was close enough, the tom placed his rock down and pawed it towards Tatters. "Here it is! Feel it, Tati!"
With a soft smile on his face, the tom reached out his paw and gently placed it on the rock. The young cat had been right, the rock was smooth like the pebbles you could find on the bottom of the stream. And yet, it still had a ruggish nature to it, a heft indicative that it was not just a stone worn by the current. Rather, it felt as if the rock had been worn out intentionally to form a perfect sphere. The grey tom traced his paw along the entirety of the rock, noting every part of it.
Amaryllis purred from behind him, "So, do you like it?" She asked, a teasing hint to her voice.
Flustered, the tom pulled his paw away from the rock and nodded at her, "It certainly is smooth, like Turtle said..." his words trailed off as a pained thought struck him I bet it looks even more beautiful. He let out a soft sigh and murmured quietly, "I wonder what it looks like..."
The she-cat shifted beside him, he could feel her tail pulling around his sides, running up and down against his forelegs. "There's more to beauty than appearances, Tati. That rock looks like any other rock, dark grey with cracks filled with dirt. What makes it special is how it feels, not how it looks." She paused and in that moment he could feel her eyes staring at him deeply. "There's more to the world than sight. Learning to find the beauty in everything, beyond sight alone, is incredible on its own. You're incredible, Tati. Don't ever forget that."