[idyll]

username: idyll
name: Válde
gender: Male
thought process:
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reserve!!

[alpenglow]

res!!!

username: alpenglow

name:

gender: female

thought process:

it's a curious thing, getting lost,

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[OriGalaxii]

username: Lexxa_Astral
name: Xiomara
gender: Agender
thought process:
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Res!

[zoocyte]

username: copperfell
name: salamanca
gender: non-binary
thought process:
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wip

[not catdoqq]

res pls

[Tatangi]

username:
Raven Brigade
name:
Oliver (after the person mentioned in my thought process)
gender:
Male
thought process:

When I was young, the world seemed magical. As a child, we don't worry about how we are going to pay the next bill or if we will get 1 or 2 meals tomorrow. We had not grown long enough to understand that this world wants to tear you out of it. As I think back to a moment of peace I've had, I realize it's not a moment but instead a person. Much like a reed, people need to grow. I'm lucky enough to have someone in my life that makes sure I keep growing so that I reach my full potential. All plants need time to grow, and this person makes sure I get plenty of time and space to do just that.

When I look at the sky, I usually think of the worlds past our own blue world. Every star in the sky could have their own planets or galaxies that are just waiting to be explored. My favorite time of day is night, so that I can gaze up at them and get lost in my own imagination at what could be out there. Looking up and thinking of how vast this universe is calms me, because at that point my problems don't feel as overwhelming as they usually feel at first. Imagine how you see the moon. From where we are, it seems small and just another object to gaze on in our sky. However, the moon is actually massive and something humanity dreamed of being able to reach. I try to look at problems in that light. If I think it's a big problem, I'll get overwhelmed. However, if I decided to look at it as just a small bump in the road then I can easily move past it.

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username: ➷.River.➷
name: Muriel
gender: Female
thought process:
My thought process, I just have to say it's complicated. I forget, boy do I forget. My mind loves to wander, so it's hard to focus on just one thing. It starts with one idea, I wander to various elements of the idea and soon that can lead me anywhere! For example, I could be thinking of the sun. Oh the sun brings life, life is things like dogs, humans, plants, I love dogs! They are just so cute. I remember one time I saw my dog eat a bunch of grass it was pretty funny. You know what else eats grass? Horses. Horses are incredible creatures, they fascinate me. I recall in third grade I drew a horse skeleton for science. Science is fun! Speaking of which, I should probably try that volcano kit I have sitting in the back of my closet. That's what usually happens when I relax and think. My thought process is strange, it can go off on a wild ride just from one memory, visual, or occurrence. And sometimes I just forget all together what I was originally doing. Speaking of which, what was I going to say?

[lovestruck]

Definite mark

[raven [烏]]

username: norang
name: Anand [derived from the Sanskrit noun आनन्द (ānand), meaning happiness]
gender: male
thought process:

peace is something many seek, but i must admit my anxiety's taught me that peace is everywhere; we just simply do not see.


have you ever heard of mindfulness? what is it, you might ask?
you might be surprised, it's actually a very simple task.
just close your eyes, count to ten, maybe even to a hundred.
take a breath or two, take in that fresh air and let it fill your lungs.
with every rise and every fall of your chest, give it your all and give it your best.
it might seem silly, but just bear with me, billy.
soon you'll understand why there's no need to be in such a jiffy.
everything is calm now, yes, even your breathing.
it's so calm, and so serene, you can hear your heart beating.
as you keep your eyes closed, focus on what you hear,
if you listen very closely, you'll feel no fear.
it's the sound of a thousand little molecules of air,
the air that surrounds you and gives you life.
your energy flows in unison with the air around you,
blowing like the wind and flowing through your lungs.
now that you've heard of mindfulness, you finally understand.
some of us with anxiety know of peace you may have never had.
it's ironic to say the least, how fear can sometimes be the key to finding peace.

As someone who suffers from a mental illness, I experience symptoms of anxiety from time to time. But now, it's not so bad. I remember the time I first discovered mindfulness. I really didn't have much faith that it would help me at all, because I was beginning to lose hope, thinking I would be riddled with anxiety for the rest of my life. Despite my initial reluctance, I gave it go. Surprisingly, it seemed to work. It didn't make all my fear disappear, no, it just allowed me to accept it. I accepted my anxieties like a passing storm. It was there for awhile, but I knew it would go away, and that the sun would return once more. It's ok to feel scared. People who suffer from anxiety get anxious even when the trigger is very minor. One thing I learnt is that our minds are like chessboards; transcendent. It facilitates the gameplay, but it's not involved in the game. Our thoughts are like the chess pieces. Sometimes our negative thoughts overpower the positive ones, but whatever happens to the pieces, never defines what happens to you, the chessboard. You are NOT your thoughts. Your thoughts will pass, like a storm. Your beliefs stay, like seeds planted in your mind.
You will be ok.

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cece.
[ name ]

Pandora
[ gender ]

agender (they/them)
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Summer.
Which, if you’re a student, translates to freedom. Being free of the constant stress and being free of the constant hate around you. Being free from the endless hours spent studying for exams and the countless breakdowns because all you want to do is quit. You long for the chains to break and for the sweet smell of freedom to make its way to you, and engulf you in her scent and in her beauty. As soon as you get a taste, you want more. You crave this freedom you miss and as soon as you get a grasp of it, you don’t let go.
Summer.
She’s finally here and you’re finally free. Free from the stress and from the hate that’s broken down your walls and has left you without a sense of wonder. She’s finally welcomed you back home and your days and nights of freedom have finally begun.
The nights start out just before sunset. You and all your friends meet at the top of your favorite hill to watch the sun sink behind the horizon. The air is starting to cool and you all watch in awe as the sun slowly descends away and the night creeps in, and the beautiful hues of pink and red start to fade to purple and dark blue. The stars and the galaxies are giving off an iridescent glow above you but the damned city lights make it hard to see but a few bright ones poke through. You hear the cicadas and the grasshoppers orchestrating their songs and that’s an indicator your night has just begun. Roaming the nights with friends, singing Mr. Brightside by The Killers or Another Sad Love Song by Khalid at the top of your lungs and not caring about a single thing, is the perfect example of being carefree. The chill of the night touches your sunburn with a gentle stroke and with every blow the wind breathes, you feel the coolness of the night and it sends a slight chill down your spine. You lose track of time because the nights are endless, but you soon realize the day is about to break when you see the distant horizon transform into lighter shades of blue. Your night’s about to end but before you all head home, there’s on last thing you have to accomplish before leaving. As the sun slowly ascends in the sky, you all watch her paint the skyline with pastel pinks and yellows and your fun has officially ended, for now. It’s time to head home so you can have enough energy to do this all over again.
Nights like these are nights I will forever remember and memories that will remind me that life was okay. I was okay and I will be okay. I love to explore, especially in the summer. Whether it’s driving around town with the windows down and blasting music until my speakers give out or driving to an abandoned diner a few hours away, it makes me feel a sense of freedom I couldn’t experience during the school year. No curfew, no boundaries, no chains.
Finally, the freedom that I have yearned for since I stepped foot in the halls in August. When summer begins, it lifts a huge weight off my shoulder and I feel as if I can finally breath again. I can finally breath the air of freedom and my nights of exploring are back.