Username: fantasy girl
Equid's Name: Beyla
Age: 4 years old
Height: 13hh
Sex: Female
Gender: Agender
Personality: Beyla is a mare that has gone through drastic changes in her life, all which happened during a relatively short period of time which affected her personality and behaviour dramatically. As a young filly to a young mare who was starting to grow towards being sexually mature she was a happy, and joyful filly who was filled with life and energy. She just couldn't stand still and had a sincere love to explore anything and everything that she passed, with the other foals in the herd she was considered very sweet and kind, and was always included. Beyla always felt the safest when she was surrounded by others, and when the only thing she could hear was the roaring laughter and cheers from her friends who were tackling eachothers and racing around. Yet as she grew her surroundings grew more and more distant, she started getting problems differentiate other equids and her surroundings. But more importantly, any potential threats and dangers was left unseen by her. Her sight had degraded as she matured, and had left her extremely nearsighted. The sudden lack of a vital sense left Beyla to be extremely spooky, and unpredictable. She became a threat to anyone and everyone as her first reaction to anything that spooked her was to aim her hindlegs at them and try and injure them before she could race off to give her the advantage of hiding. With not much suprise she soon got left behind, which left her instincts go wild as she ended up being blinded and controlled by the growing fear inside of her. Her nerves were completely high strung, and she would spook by anything and she started to grow suspicious and distrusting her surroundings. Which made finding food that she considered safe to become a close to impossible task. Because she had no one to show her that this plant was safe to eat or not. With no older equids who could teach her basic survival tricks during the colder months Beyla was facing a dark faith quickly. Her trying to push herself into trying different plants as her hunger grew turned out to be a struggle in itself due to the fact she had taught herself to not even dare to try. Yet somehow she managed to survive on the few plants she knew she had consumed before. It didn't take long before her being so extremely on edge about everything showed it's negative effects, she became aggresive, moody, distant, and fear was starting to get replaced with apathy.Though after months of being alone and when winter was starting to show itself with snow and cold winds she finally gave into her desperation for company and food and nearly collapsed into an old farmer's paddock containing a large draft horse after a lot of wandering. She spent her days in that paddock or atleast close to it, refusing to leave letting her stubborn side shine through, and got fed in the end. As she grew to be more of a permanent visitor, Beyla began to show the first signs of trust towards her paddock mate. Until he provided her with the eyesight she lacked, relieving her from the burden she had carried so poorly. It has taken almost a whole season, and the progress is painfully slow, but with small steps her nerves and instincs are starting to unwind and calm themselves after months of being acutely aware of everything. Which leaves the young mare who had no worries and had her days filled with laughter to begin to shine through the crumbles and cracks. Yet her high alertiveness is something she'll always carry with her.
Extra: ClickStatement: Ghost is the kind of person you can look up to with ease, she is extremely kind to everyone and is an amazing artist. Both as an artist for wild mountain equids, but also in general when it comes to drawing equines or other species.
I settled on dedicating this statement to her as I feel like she has had the biggest impact on me when it comes to this specie. Because she has pretty much always been there with words of encouragement and advice, especially when it came to when I'm drawing, but also in discussions and conversations that came up along the way. I've had several times where I just wanted to quit and give up, or had art blocks that lasted longer than I wanted. And no matter if it was from a simple little chibi or to when I tried something new with an artwork she would always compliment me and have me keep on going and believe in myself. That is something I treasure more than anything, and it always makes me smile when I see her joining into my streams or when I can simply talk to her about anything as I know she won't judge me, and instead offer words of advice and try to help me if help is wanted. This is one of the biggest reason why I've stayed in this community, and actually been active in it and not feeling like I've lost all my motivation.
So in general Jepha has been a huge inspiration for me, both in how much of an amazing artist she is, but also in the sense that she has never once given up on me or let me give up. And she deserves all the best things in the world, because to have someone to encourage you with little words is so important, and I can never re-pay her for the kindness she has shown me.