by Furrydogs12 » Tue Apr 26, 2022 1:43 pm
user: Furrydogs12
prompt: Stuart's pov, journal format
I cannot trust anyone anymore, unless that is my mother. She’s the only one who cares for me a little bit, I guess.I watched my father attack my mother. I'll spare the details, but it wasn't pretty. I ran to the situation, where my father saw me, and said, “I’ll return for you!” and ran away. I feel bad because I didn't get there time because some of the things that he did will take months for her to heal from. Helping my mother back up and back to our place, with a couple stumbles along the way. I cried so much more than I ever have. I lost a line here because my tears got on the paper! I will mature from this, and I’m going to need to see my father and confront him about this.
After a few days of helping my mother, suddenly, she’s gone. I’m not sure where she's gone but she’s left me alone. I can’t express my tears falling down right now, but they pour, again. My father took my mother right from under my watch, and I am lost without her.
My mother left one night, and came back, blood all over her chin, many scars and a terrible appearance. She told me having these children would kill her, because she wasn’t taking care of herself, and that she wanted to kill him. But she left me alone for how long now? As she couldn’t withstand another child, or who knows how many more siblings, I knew she was a mess, but then I realized so was I, very soon. I once wished the worst upon someone. But when she returned, I panicked, and asked what happened. I won’t ever forget the words she said. “I killed your father.” she told me. She murdered him, fighting so hard it killed her as well. She would lose the children as well, and there was nothing I could do. I was alone. I thought those were the last words she spoke, but she took a deep, final, breath and said, “Run Stuart until nobody here will recognize you. Live a happy life, and know that I love you. Live a life you will remember, and talk to the girl you once were with. Make things right. I love you.” I didn’t stop crying for days.
When I got better, I lost my emotions. I couldn’t control them anymore. I ran so far from that place that my legs became numb and I fell multiple times. Nothing was happy about life to me, everyone I loved left me. Internally I had died. There were always tears running, but the amount of hurt and loss that I suffered from was too much. I felt traumatized, ripped apart, sewn back together to just be broken worse than I ever had before. First off, my father didn’t care for me. He left part of my childhood growing up, it has been a full year since the beginning of having this journal… I went from being a really young, happy boy, to now almost an adult pup… and I’ve had to go through all this, just to lose both parents at the end. But my journey kept going, to hopefully apologize for my only mistake.
On my last resort, I wondered if there was anything I could do to make up for my mistake, if there was any at this point. I found some water, jumped in and swam away. I actually ended up finding the island I wanted to head to. I made it to the shore, where hopefully I would be starting a completely new life. Once my body washed up on shore, I made sure to clean and lick the injuries I had. But I was tired, and fell asleep, all wet, tired and in pain.
When my eyes opened though, I saw very deep blue ones staring into them, and also a little bit of pushing on my chest by what felt like a paw. I wasn’t scared though, my father had boring brown eyes, and the ones I was staring at were all too blue and looked very kind. I closed my eyes, and then opened them all the way, getting a little bit of sunlight, but my focus came in fully, and there, for some reason in a very, very happy mood, was a wolfhound.
(732 words)
extras:
Quotes-
“All I need’s a little love in my life, because I wasn’t meant to fight on my own,” -Stuart/Rixton/Ashes Remain
“Hold on life, I still want you. Hold on, I still need you!” -Stuart/Chord Overstreet
“Are you insane like me, been in pain like me? I think emotionally, we can be heroes everywhere we go, no matter what.” -Stuart/The Score/Halsey
Personality:
(+) Positives Traits: Playful, Sweet, Observant, Genuine, Freethinking, Friendly
(o) Neutral Traits: Competitive, Emotional, Sensual, Sensitive
(-) Negative Traits: Easily Discouraged, Moody, Shallow, Wishful
Stuart is quite an emotional character, and his mood swings change dramatically depending on each situation, but it is due to the fact he is rather sensitive, and although he knows that his thoughts are quick to fall as either offended, scared, happy or sad, he also tries to counter those emotions be having small rants about why he feels someone could something like that about him, but after all, it's a process. He feels like he must explain himself, regardless if that looks like he's becoming defensive for himself, but when he has stronger emotions, the kitten feels he needs to protect those emotions from coming out. He does care deeply about others, like he does with his emotions, and he is very genuine and wholesome. He loves to treat others well, and he expects the same. Although he tries to think he's typically positive all the time, he also is a bit angry or stressed and will argue a bit though. He hates being called overly emotion because he claims "he can't help it." But he feels he's quite smart and knows more than others too, which is a downside because when someone disagrees with him he gets a bit salty. He carries a very bright and happy character, but is quick to change if something popped up. Stuart feels the need to tend to others, and will put his needs above his own when needed.
Stuart's life began out a bit rough with his parents constantly fighting. But after a while his life settled down when he left them. Growing up wasn't easy for him, so he mostly tried to stay away from the fighting going around him, and stay in hiding. When he was old enough, he left his parents and tried to venture out. He ended up catching up to someone from his past though, who gave him a little challenge, and ended up hurting his chest, which thankfully taught Stuart some of the things he needed in how to be a medic. He did however end up trying to swim back home, where he washed back up on shore, and was brought back to home where he could finally live alone without fighting, and meet the people he hid from.
