- i tried to paint water but idk how it turned out lgdksj art has not been fun to do recently
i am beginning to understand that the reason I don't have a whole lot of friends is that it is my fault c:
which yaknow. is a sucky reality.
I am a horrible messenger and tend to forget about things. I leave people on read.
I tend to stick to myself.
I get super anxious messaging someone for the first time so it takes ages for me to work up the courage to talk to anyone.
and even when i'm comfortable i forget about it.
I am just,, wanting to slap myself in the face because this is totally my dummy fault gfdlks
i need to fix things with the few friends who are still sticking around, but I am absolutely terrified to message any of the people who reach out to me online because I don't want to be disappear and then just suddenly reappear and be like .. https://youtu.be/rnw-TRbTng8
that video,,,
