Username ;; Trollish
Name ;; Narcissus
Name Meaning ;; A man who fell in love
with his own reflection in a pool. Story that
inspired the word 'Narcissist'.
Gender ;; Male
Prized Possession ;; His horn decoration.
He feels it completes his appearance and makes
him truly stunning to all those who lay eyes upon
him. He suspects that it will make other see
himself the way he does. He doesn't know how
he plans to do it, but he dreams of being able
to share his vision with another somehow.
What Do You Mean? ;; By seeing himself the same way he sees
himself? Well that's obvious enough! Narcissus sees the world under
a different light than most. Narcissus is slightly colorblind, his eyes
make him unable to see most cool colors, leaving him with only the
warm colors in tact. The cold colors are replaced with grays of
varying hue. Regardless of that, he has a vivid imagination that
paints his world differently. His mind attempts to grasp hues he
cannot see, filling in images with false colors that don't truly exist
in the normal spectrum. His over-active imagination makes things
appear differently to him as well, though the items he sees have
mass and space. How is that? Well, his fairytale world overlays itself
with reality. In his own mind's eye he's a prince of some faraway land,
abandoned by his family and left to find his own way in the world.
He views it as his responsibility to act more modest, but he struggles
with this and often slips into an overabundance of confidence and
charisma characteristic of the prince he wishes he could be.
Dreamscape ;; Narcissus is living in a world of his own imagining, really, whether he's willing to admit it or not. Where he dwells is some odd mix between reality and fantasy, and while his interactions with others aren't overlapped, he still does see the world in a different light. He's aware of this, in adulthood, primarily due to outing himself in childhood and almost getting saddled with a counselor or professional. Narcissus is convinced that this dreamscape of his isn't really inhibiting him. He doesn't truly know what the world looks like, but he likes the way he thinks it looks just fine. He doesn't really want others to know that his mind isn't quite perfect either, and he's content hiding away in his not-quite-perfect impression of the world.
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-Personality ;; Narcissus has an overflowing confidence that often comes off as cocky or all around overwhelming. He has a stage presence, as if life were just a show for him to perform within. He's a bit on the loud side, commanding attention rather than requesting it. These traits make him quite a bit annoying, but Narcissus is largely, if not completely, oblivious to this. He's at least somewhat chivalrous, believing himself to be a prince does result in him trying to convey himself as an important figure, but it also ends in his attempt at proper manners. He acts like a price or hero from older cartoons, characteristically trying to save the 'damsel' and bowing to kiss the back of her hand; that sort of thing. He has the bravery and audacity of a knight, but his nobility is mostly an attempt to maintain his princely ideals. He is quite vain, and Narcissus knows himself to be quite handsome and charming. He doesn't often boast of this out loud, but his pride is constantly swelling inside him. Narcissus often behaves well for the sake of receiving praise, and he is prone to fishing for compliments. He cares deeply about the opinions of others and can be quite easily hurt, though he'll pretend that he doesn't care and that it doesn't sting regardless of how much it might phase him. He's a crybaby when it comes to getting his feelings hurt, and despite his weak lack of true emotional courage, he tries to be bold in the face of physical danger. In his own imagination, he's so much stronger than his physical form allows; which gives him comfort and faith in himself. Most of his confidence is, ultimately, built upon a foundation of lies. Despite this, Narcissus doesn't know, or at the very least he refuses to acknowledge that much. He constantly acts like a righteous, courageous and outgoing prince of a GG; while in truth, he has a lot of doubt in himself and constantly strives for the approval of others to validate himself. He doesn't really realize he's doing it, nor does he understand why, he simply claims that a prince needs support from his people.
Family ;; This GG lived in a wealthy family, though they never particularly had time for him. Being shut off from them and most other things likely caused his mental escapades to become so rampant. He knew very little about the adults in his life, so he thought his mother and father to be a queen and king-- making him a young prince. The mansion was left to him when they both passed, his father due to overworking himself, and his mother shortly after. He didn't know them particularly well, but it still impacted him deeply. He took the hit hard, and dealt with it in his own way, one could say. He shut himself off for a good while, burying himself in dreams, surrounding himself with his fantasy to hide from the cruelty of the real situation. Eventually, however, he had to come to terms with it all. He vowed to uphold the honor of the king and queen by serving in their place as the new ruler of the 'kingdom'-- their estate-- and managing from where they left off. He's ultimately been able to live a comfortable and carefree life, however, due to the fact that his parents left him a considerable fortune-- and Narcissus doesn't particularly expend much of it. He's oddly good with managing finances and numbers, so he has few worries in those regards.
Real Life ;; In the waking world, he lives in an older mansion that was given to him by a hefty inheritance. The mansion is a large and expansive wonderland in and of itself, though despite this it's rarely visited. Narcissus doesn't often harbor company in the long span of things. Outside of those who work for him, he doesn't let many stay on his estate. The mansion is several stories tall, and Narcissus occupies the highest floor in the large bedroom his parents used to inhabit. The garden outside of the mansion is a bit lackluster compared to how it was when his parents were still alive-- his mother had an exquisite taste in flora-- but Narcissus still tries to manage it all the same. The color combinations are rather quirky due to his colorblindness and his lack of perception to reality, making it quite odd to look at, though still rather beautiful, in its own regard. There are still individuals employed by Narcissus to manage the grounds and wait on him, though the numbers are significantly fewer than in his parents day. He considers practicality more than the flashiness his parents fawned over, so he keeps it simple.
Fantasy ;; His mind shows him a valiant castle, marble carved beautifully into spirals and whirls proclaiming wealth and high standing. The garden is an intricate maze, making entry to the castle challenging at best. The hedges create a maze-- one of the few things in Narcissus' wonderland that doesn't have real mass. The maze is his mind's projection of his inability to truly let others in-- a symbol of his loneliness and a reminder that only he can show them the way through. Flowers weave through the hedge and dance, mingling about the ground surrounding the castle. The open expanse of estate is a whimsical forest to Narcissus, alight with magical weeping willows that obscure the world's eye from peering through. Hidden within is a part of Narcissus' fantasy that he loves to frequent-- though he won't tell a soul what's hidden there. The castle is much more splendid than the older, more dated mansion. The individuals under his employment are often portrayed much more finely dressed as well.
Why The Horn Decor? ;; Narcissus believes his golden horn ornament can help others see his world because he believes it to be a magical artifact, passed down the royal line. In truth, it's an heirloom from his parents; but in his mind, its magical power may be the thing that finally makes him truly able to share his reality with another. He longs for the kind of validation openly sharing would give him, and he yearns to feel as though he isn't truly insane. To him, the dreamscape is just a method of coping and a way of life, but to others it is easily chalked up to being mentally ill. Narcissus does not believe this to be so, as he believes people simply see the world in many varying ways. He just wants to be accepted, and he still hasn't really dealt with his parents absence fully, so he clings to the idea that the thing they left him, most notably, in death-- will be his ticket to freedom from loneliness.
by boat » Fri Apr 08, 2016 12:18 pm 
