*Takes a deep breath.*
To Whomer Will Listen,
My Confession(s) you ask?
Well... I am Rain. An interent personality I wish I had sincerely. One that is nice, giving, and unfortunatley yes, selfish and annoying. I wish I was more like internet Rain. Just because she seems so much better than what who I am. I have a CS dream, too. It's tthat one day I will become a Mod on Chickensmoothie. One that's super friendly, super awesome, everyone looks up to me! Rain! The official CS Mod! A Mod, and a Custom, would set me for life. It would make me so happy, that I think I would give most of my pets away. Because, what's the point of negleting these poor pixelated pets? Especially if I won't give them as much attention as they deserve. My Real Life Dream is different. I almost don't believe in myself as much as I should to achieve this dream, but I still imagine it as clear as day, hoping to reach it one day! I want to be a therapist. One that helps those child criminals getting stuck in Juvi. I think they deserve help, someone to believe in them, someone to help and guide them through some scary times, as much as they don't want to admit it to themselves. Just.. One of the good kinds of therapists. Not one that doesn't sit there akwardly with you, trying to waste time. No. One that helps. As I've had many experiances with them myself. I have a seriously bad attitude. I feel as though I can't help it. But everything lately just.. seriously pisses me off! I'm sorry. I'm sorry Duke. Chris, Adam, heck, even Hector! I'm sorry. to everyone. I'm so so sorry.
Letter 2; Attatched.
Dear Duke,
Hey. It's me the 'Monster.' -grins- I have a confession to you too, Duke. but first I wanna say how happy I am that your my soccer coach. Your always there for me, always. No matter what mood I'm in, or how I'm playing, your there. And that sincerely means a whole lot to me. I love being your Monster. My confession is? I actually love any position. I may complain about it. But it's not just the position even. I love the game. I want you to know that.
Lette 3; Attatched.
Dear Aza, Bel, Sata, and everyone here on Mimics.
You guys, are seriously amazing. Ever since I've joined this website, I felt like a loner, a reject. But then I got to know all my fellow stalkers/mods/people here.. And.. Just a weight lifted from me. I've been going through some tough times, and you guys have seriously helped me out a bunch. And I really appreciate that. A lot. So this attatchment is dedicated to all of you. Because even though I might not know all of you in real life, you guys are still my most amazing friends ever. Thank you for being there, thank you for letting me be your friend, and thank you. For not setting me aside like I'm just a piece of trash. I seriously love you guys to pieces. <3
Dear You,
Hey. Remember me? Your Rainy? Rainy Rain. You always called me that. How are you? I'm great. Thanks for asking. Ever since you.. No. Sorry. Ever since I broke up with you, I've been regretting it ever since. You were my first for a lot of things. (~Please don't take this the wrong way. It's nothing bad.~) You meant.. You mean so much to me. It confuses me so much~! Never have I felt this way before. Although you treated me like crap, and you sometimes.. you just didn't care, I still loved you? This letter is hard to write. Because.. Because I have so much to say. So many times, I've wrote to you. Screaming at you, begging.. Now I finally have the guts to do so. I'm finally writing this letter. I still love you, yes. Everytime you walk by, my heart lurches. Were you watching me? Probably not. Why couldn't you have cried too? Why couldn't you ask for me back, or better. Even try to be my friend afterward. I feel.. I feel so stupid for tearing up. Everytime I replay that day in my head! Everytime I hurt, I cry. Why? Because I love you. I don't think anything could ever stop me from loving you. SO yes, this is my letter of feelings. This is my confession. And truthfully? It didn't really help. I don't think a lot of things can at this point. I hope you you replay all those.. Happy? Amazing? Still-Make-Me-Smile memories, as much as I do.
Love Forever....,
Rainy Rain~<3