| TheComfortCorner | v.5

[fika.]

Things keep getting bad again. To the point where i'm scared i might fall back into a deep depression that i was in a few months ago. I want to scream. I can't handle this.
I can only talk about this to my therapist. But she probably thinks im overreacting or something.
At least back then i could help myself and handle it better. Now its all out of control. I love this.

don't think that,
your therapist is there to help you and not to judge you! c:
talk to anyone you feel comfortable with.
as for your situation,
try to find something that you enjoy doing
baking is fun, and you get to eat it afterwards
you can try drama clubs,
or going to the library just to get out for a while.
i really hope you don't fall back into
it, it's a horrible place to be.
good luck, i'm proud of you <3

[trans]

sometimes i think im getting better
and then my brain reminds me im not

[Montgomery Gator]

Why must everyone go at each others throats at school? if i want to be myself there.. I'm done for.

This.

Prison.

is.

Helpless.

[Jelly.]

I can't help it
it's everywhere I go
Even when I feel normal,
I hear that word, and remember why the teachers like me so much
Why i'm not bullied as much this year
Why we are broke for once,
why my family is falling apart
Why i've gotten some of the chances i've been given
Today,
a guest speaker came to school.
His mom died of it too
not the same type of course,
but the reminder is still there that
I could loose mine at any moment.

[0000007]

this is a dumb rant but I need to post it or I'll get a migraine again sorry can't continue like this. I can't. I don't even have real problems I think but I'm just tired of living. what will tomorrow be like? I don't really care. wake up early, get anxiety over the homework I want to do but can't force myself to, have my stomach growl all through class, sit and stare at a computer screen, watch myself in front of the class be like a fool, go home, rant about it, try to eat, try to sleep, think really hard about doing homework and get pumped, take out homework and feel sick, cry, pout, overreact about my dumb problems, watch my disrespectful brothers all night, feel either really bad or violent about the insults they yell at me, get anxiety trying to cook, can't get anyone to eat or sleep, declare my done-ness with the day but try to get them asleep anyways, go to sleep at too late of a time, wake up knowing I didn't do any work. think if homework. think if school. think if how lazy I am. think if when I can get to sleep but never do. or sometimes come straight home and sleep all day and get yelled at. there's nothing really fun anymore, so why do I care? school is unneeded, work is unneeded. most things humans do are unseeded. I can't stop thinking about how much grades matter and how I'm not passing even though I understand practically everything fine. and most of it I won't use again. grades grades grades grades grades grades grades that's all there is nothing ealse I'm just a big fat F trying to pretend to be an A just wait until my mom sees my grades. until I have to redo school because of my grades. the word 'grades' makes me space off. I can't do this, I can't. I feel like crying. I hate this. I hate complaining about practically nothing. its my fault but I feel like there's more to it. and sometimes I don't feel anything or really care but sometimes I just get sad and I really wish I could sleep forever because I can never have my ideal lifestyle and I don't see myself with a future, because I'll keep on being held back and stuck in school forever with all these little immature kids and gross gross gross gross I want help I want out of here I want to go home but I don't know where home is

[leverage]

Today was a really awful day.
I messed up and really hurt someone and I feel awful.
On top of that, everything went wrong. I did about a thousand things wrong and managed to slip in the ice and really hurt my crippled knee. I mean, it always hurts, but right now its unbearable.
I deserve whatever karma I get, but I just want to disappear. I know I deserve that pain I felt when I fell, I know I deserve to be hated.
I don't deserve any hugs or sympathy, nor do I deserve the kindness of the amazing people on this thread.
But if anyone has any extra hope to send my way I'd really really appreciate it...
Because I'm so close to giving up.

[headlight stereo.]

wow.
im done rn.
lots of drama involving my dad and boyfriend... he was livid i was dating a korean and cursed both of us out... right in a and w
my boyfriend started crying and hugging me after scared he would lose me and that'd he done something wrong and now my dads threatening to end his life over it.. please pm what i can do, might not respond because my boyfriend is laying on the couch sobbing ( he is self concious in his actions and a very shy bab ) and im making him hot cocoa with hershy topped whip cream, while telling him its alright. i feel so bad ohmygod.

[Thalassic]

I've been crying for like 2 hours now
honestly though
what do you do when the only thing that even has any chance of helping you is counseling/therapy
but its.. just not an option.. in so many ways...
the only way I could ever even hope to get better is.. not an option..

[headlight stereo.]

I've been crying for like 2 hours now
honestly though
what do you do when the only thing that even has any chance of helping you is counseling/therapy
but its.. just not an option.. in so many ways...
the only way I could ever even hope to get better is.. not an option..

oh god. i wish i could come over and hug you while crying telling you you'll be okay.. im so sorry, and i relate to this so much.. my stupid dad thinks i need it because i decided to date someone he did not expect and now he thinks there's something wrong with my sexuality, everything.. it's racist and disgusting.
whoever is telling you this that you need counselling therapy, tell them you're better then this, stand up to your fears, it isn't right for them to be scaring you, whatever is, and from someone being there it's hell. give them or make them use other ways of comforting whatever your problem is, but if you need it, you need it and im afraid theres not much i can do. just please stay strong and know you'll be alright. crying is okay, its good you're not keeping it in. just please be alright, you can pm me for comfort.

[Thalassic]

theres nothing anyone can do
not even me
ill never be okay