by vval » Fri Jan 08, 2016 4:45 pm
my anxiety/stress levels are quite high lately. going back after all what's happened (all good things) has made it so much harder to go back to school. i haven't gone a day without either trying not to cry, or crying. tonight i spent almost five hours working on a project due next week, and it just stressed me out so much more. this weekend i have some nice things planned out, so hopefully i'll be stress free and happy. but in the meantime i have to last one last day, which may be slightly stressful, at least i have a scrapbooking class for the last hour. but i'm just really depressed atm because after all the company left, everyone's back to work, and all the festivity is gone, everything feels so empty and life feels so pointless. school is just causing a lot of stress on me and i know it will be great for future education, but at the moment i really want to go back to two years ago, when i missed a month of school because my dad was in an accident (and i know this is bad but read further), me and my mom never argued once, except this one time where we had a tiny argument about something lost, but back then it was christmas, we were quiet, friendly, calm, y'know i wish things were like that, just not my dad in the hospital (he's perfectly okay now, he was one of two in every 100 people to survive his injury!) i hate having to be stressed out about school, my parents' thoughts, my friends, etc. etc. i've gotten better since monday, i pretty much cried all day at school, it was really stressful. today i cried three times, once because of stress, once because of happiness (my mom told me something about my birthday, it wasn't much but i was really emotional so) and once because i had an argument five minutes after that. i wish i could just go one day feeling happy
sorry for the long vent/rant
just wanted to get some things out
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