by Kallico » Wed Dec 23, 2015 9:11 pm
I have impossible, childish dreams as a young adult.
Such as creating my own Indie game featuring my own art and writing using the stories I always daydream about.
Yet I procrastinate almost every single day on practicing, so my art looks like something done by a ten year old and my writing is amateur. Not to mention I'm pretty clueless with script languages now.
Why do I allow myself to waste my days away? To let my dreams pass me by, leaving me to work petty minimum wage jobs? I'm not moving forward in life like I should be, I'm stagnate and unfulfilled because of my own lack of self-discipline, focus and self esteem.
Almost nobody respects my goals because they are childish and i don't even bother to practice the necessary skills when I have plenty of free time.
It's like if a skill doesn't come to me immediately, I don't bother no matter how many times i tell myself in my head to just do it. Nope, let's just watch Youtube all day and day dream about it instead. Much easier! Really now, how pathetic am I? >__>
Heck, my room looks like a wreck because I'm so lazy I never bothered to clean it like I really needed to today. I live like a slob, really.
I have my moments of inspiration, but I almost never work when I do because "Oh wait, let's just keep watching this inspiring video. I'll draw right afterward!" or "let's just keep browsing *insert pet site here* mindlessly to procrastinate some more!"
Edit: That being said, my ideas, characters and stories that are constantly in my head are great. I just need to stop being an idiot and not doing anything!!! I mean why do I do this to myself?! Why must I constantly doubt myself and not even try?
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Kallico on Wed Dec 23, 2015 11:44 pm, edited 3 times in total.

I could stare at this all day. <3