| TheComfortCorner | v.5

[samm.]

I think my mother has cancer. I overheard her talking with her mother, my grandmother, and she was talking about treatments and she said something along the lines of "its the size of a pea". I've suspected something was wrong with her for quite some time now because both her and my father have been acting oddly, and I suppose this confirms it..I know I should feel absolutely terrible, but I don't. I learned a long time ago how to block out my emotions, so right now all I feel is this slight pressure in my chest, but nothing else. I don't feel like crying, I don't feel pity towards her, I don't feel like screaming, I don't feel angry..Its just this emptiness, this nothingness. I don't like this feeling, because in the past, this feeling nearly destroyed me. I could really use a hug right now </3

[gone,]

I think my mother has cancer. I overheard her talking with her mother, my grandmother, and she was talking about treatments and she said something along the lines of "its the size of a pea". I've suspected something was wrong with her for quite some time now because both her and my father have been acting oddly, and I suppose this confirms it..I know I should feel absolutely terrible, but I don't. I learned a long time ago how to block out my emotions, so right now all I feel is this slight pressure in my chest, but nothing else. I don't feel like crying, I don't feel pity towards her, I don't feel like screaming, I don't feel angry..Its just this emptiness, this nothingness. I don't like this feeling, because in the past, this feeling nearly destroyed me. I could really use a hug right now </3

*Hugs* It will be fine, your family is just trying to save you the pain of knowing, but your mother will be fine, don't worry.

[shim]

I hate myself so much.

[Fading Dreams]

PM please?

[dwarjam]

I constantly feel so anxious and awful.
I've ruined my life.
I ruined school.
I have no talents, what am I going to do with my life.

--

don't you just love it when people don't consider depression as a real thing.
especially when they think you have nothing to be unhappy about.
anyone can be depressed, no one is excused, depression just comes, no one can stop that.

"just be happy, go outside and meet new people"
is your brain a rock?
good luck to me with that haha.
it doesn't work like that.
you ask a anxious, introverted, depressed person to go outside and meet new people?
I even feel super anxious when I'm going to the store and have to ask where something is located when I can't find it.
and I always end up not asking and possibly not finding what I was looking for hahahah.

--

could my parents just already realize that I do not want to get married, I don't want a husband, I don't want kids,
I don't care about relationships.

"you will change your mind about that"
no I won't, I've always throught like that, I will not change my mind.
things like that... gross me out, a lot.
please stop talking to me about it. just accept the way I am. isn't this what parents are supposed to do?]
no?
alright.

I don't care if you want grandchildren.
don't you think my opinion is important too?
why can't I do what I wanna do instead?

--

yes I am asexual.
no, I am not broken.
no, I do not need to be fixed.

"you're asexual because no one finds you attractive"
yes, no one finds me attractive because I am ugly as hell,
but no, this is not the reason why I am asexual.

"asexuality isn't even real"
shut up.


I am asexual, and yes I have had relationships.
they made me sad, I didn't want to be in none of them.
now I'm single and I am way more happier about that.
I don't feel right being in a relationship.
why do I have to hurt myself when being in a relationship with someone?
why do I have to risk with being cheated on or being hurt.
I'd rather be single and live happily ever after with 12 cats and dogs thank you.

--

I'm sorry I am so annoying.

[gone,]

I constantly feel so anxious and awful.
I've ruined my life.
I ruined school.
I have no talents, what am I going to do with my life.

--

don't you just love it when people don't consider depression as a real thing.
especially when they think you have nothing to be unhappy about.
anyone can be depressed, no one is excused, depression just comes, no one can stop that.

"just be happy, go outside and meet new people"
is your brain a rock?
good luck to me with that haha.
it doesn't work like that.
you ask a anxious, introverted, depressed person to go outside and meet new people?
I even feel super anxious when I'm going to the store and have to ask where something is located when I can't find it.
and I always end up not asking and possibly not finding what I was looking for hahahah.

--

could my parents just already realize that I do not want to get married, I don't want a husband, I don't want kids,
I don't care about relationships.

"you will change your mind about that"
no I won't, I've always throught like that, I will not change my mind.
things like that... gross me out, a lot.
please stop talking to me about it. just accept the way I am. isn't this what parents are supposed to do?]
no?
alright.

I don't care if you want grandchildren.
don't you think my opinion is important too?
why can't I do what I wanna do instead?

--

yes I am asexual.
no, I am not broken.
no, I do not need to be fixed.

"you're asexual because no one finds you attractive"
yes, no one finds me attractive because I am ugly as hell,
but no, this is not the reason why I am asexual.

"asexuality isn't even real"
shut up.


I am asexual, and yes I have had relationships.
they made me sad, I didn't want to be in none of them.
now I'm single and I am way more happier about that.
I don't feel right being in a relationship.
why do I have to hurt myself when being in a relationship with someone?
why do I have to risk with being cheated on or being hurt.
I'd rather be single and live happily ever after with 12 cats and dogs thank you.

--

I'm sorry I am so annoying.

Just remember that everyone has talents, everyone. Its great that you are asexual, hey, i would like to live will dogs and cats my whole life. You are loved <3

[bark!]

I constantly feel so anxious and awful.
I've ruined my life.
I ruined school.
I have no talents, what am I going to do with my life.

--

don't you just love it when people don't consider depression as a real thing.
especially when they think you have nothing to be unhappy about.
anyone can be depressed, no one is excused, depression just comes, no one can stop that.

"just be happy, go outside and meet new people"
is your brain a rock?
good luck to me with that haha.
it doesn't work like that.
you ask a anxious, introverted, depressed person to go outside and meet new people?
I even feel super anxious when I'm going to the store and have to ask where something is located when I can't find it.
and I always end up not asking and possibly not finding what I was looking for hahahah.

--

could my parents just already realize that I do not want to get married, I don't want a husband, I don't want kids,
I don't care about relationships.

"you will change your mind about that"
no I won't, I've always throught like that, I will not change my mind.
things like that... gross me out, a lot.
please stop talking to me about it. just accept the way I am. isn't this what parents are supposed to do?]
no?
alright.

I don't care if you want grandchildren.
don't you think my opinion is important too?
why can't I do what I wanna do instead?

--

yes I am asexual.
no, I am not broken.
no, I do not need to be fixed.

"you're asexual because no one finds you attractive"
yes, no one finds me attractive because I am ugly as hell,
but no, this is not the reason why I am asexual.

"asexuality isn't even real"
shut up.


I am asexual, and yes I have had relationships.
they made me sad, I didn't want to be in none of them.
now I'm single and I am way more happier about that.
I don't feel right being in a relationship.
why do I have to hurt myself when being in a relationship with someone?
why do I have to risk with being cheated on or being hurt.
I'd rather be single and live happily ever after with 12 cats and dogs thank you.

--

I'm sorry I am so annoying.

You have many talents to which I'm sure people realize! Don't let your parents opinions change who you are, don't change for anyone unless it's yourself. Your job isn't to please them, or make them happy, your job is to make yourself happy with your own self, not them. Im sure you have many people who love and care about you, no matter what you identify yourself as/are, and no matter what others, or they think of you. Your far from annoying! Don't let society change what you are, who you are. I hope everything gets better for you, and your future is as bright as it can be <3

[bark!]

I hate myself so much.

Don't down yourself, hun! Your an amazing person for just being here, much less the physical and mental qualities that make you the person you are today, that many people love and care about! I gurantee your only seeing the small, bad things, not the bigger, brighter, beautiful bigger picture <3 I hope everything gets better for you!

[bark!]

I think my mother has cancer. I overheard her talking with her mother, my grandmother, and she was talking about treatments and she said something along the lines of "its the size of a pea". I've suspected something was wrong with her for quite some time now because both her and my father have been acting oddly, and I suppose this confirms it..I know I should feel absolutely terrible, but I don't. I learned a long time ago how to block out my emotions, so right now all I feel is this slight pressure in my chest, but nothing else. I don't feel like crying, I don't feel pity towards her, I don't feel like screaming, I don't feel angry..Its just this emptiness, this nothingness. I don't like this feeling, because in the past, this feeling nearly destroyed me. I could really use a hug right now </3

- huggles - I'm sure it will all work out in the end. And if it doesn't? well life will be life after all, but your strong. Strong enough to move on and power through anything. Wether you feel anything or not, be there for her, maybe? She is your mother after all, and I imagine it would hurt more in the future to know you weren't there supporting her if it was to take a turn for the worse. Maybe it's not what you expect? if it is, I wish you and your family the best, despite the outcome. I'm sure they're only hiding it to try and keep you from the pain, parents tend to do that, only to realize when its too late that it would hurt more hiding it than it would otherwise. Stay strong <3

[bark!]

Just a small departing message before I'm off to school for the day - My inbox is always open, Feel free for anyone to talk to me about anything, no matter how small, no matter how serious, I'm here for you through till the end, and I'll do everything in my power to help, even if it is just talking, or it gets to the point of helping in other ways, I'll do it for anyone, without a second thought. I don't bite, and I'll be online later! Hope everyone has a wonderful day, and the brightest of mornings! <3 <3