by I r o n. » Sat Oct 31, 2015 12:08 pm
nobody listens.
they see it, buy ignore.. i understand, an ugly nerd like me doesn't need attention from anybody. an ugly nerd like me doesn't need to be trusted. and ugly nerd like me deserves to lose friends. an ugly nerd like me should have her so called friends ignore her. an ugly nerd like me shouldn't even have a life. she should be dead. they called me stupid, dumb, ugly, slow, and a b****.. i.. i understand, they never had what i had to feel.. they're rich, they have their own computer, 50 dollars.. get to go around to see their other friends.. they have a life. life's not fair, why does the rain have to bother somebody who needs the sunshine?
does he want to torture the weak? i thought he was good.. jokes on me again, hold back the tears.. lying everyday, trouble is me.. im sorry, okay? having something you tried so hard for being swiped away and thrown in the trash by your own parents? put your self in my shoes, what? oh.. you dont want to be me, sorry..
i wish i was with somebody i never seen, but she loves me like i love her.. so much. i wish we were sisters. she understands, she feels my pain, she gets bullied. kicked, taunted.. i want to hug her and say shes not the only one.. i wish i wasn't me.. i wish i had a good life, wealthy, girly-girl, sweet, have people like you, beautiful, my face describes pain itself..
if i told them everything, every little pain.. every single thing i go threw everyday, they would still bully me, because im a weakling.. im trying! i really am, okay? i want good grades, a good friend who stays by me forever.. obviously, she wasn't my friend, you dont look into the future to see if you guys will be bffs forever.. you think that.. you think that youll stand by eachother, you say it, to.. then she goes ahead and hates me because i said a joke about to other people she doesnt even like! and now shes on their side and hates me.. we did so much together, but i seen our friendship tearing apart as we went on to another grade, she stopped talking to me and went to the cool kids.. what a back stabber.. i want to kill her for what she put me threw, honestly.
i was happy to find out that im telepathic, it made me think that.. im special, i have a talent.. but no, they had to crush me.. i have feelings and they act as if im dump. trust is a word people think i dont have, because i break it so easily, its a sign that i'm just not ready to have a good friend.. ill ruin it, because i ruin everything! im supposed to be excited for halloween, but im not sure if shes coming to my house to go trick or treating with me, well, guess im going with my parents again, i never have any friends to trick or treat with..
sorry, i had to let that out.. and im sorry if theres that one person, that i wasted your time.. i like my feelings expressed to people i dont know..
im quitting this game, i dont even enjoy it anymore, but i really did while it lasted!