Write a Letter you Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[Syla Delaney]

Hey you, reading this right now,

You aren't weird. There's no such thing. You might be old, young, taller or shorter than average, good at one thing or another, terrible at a different something or other, appear one way or some other way of your choosing, love someone who does not reciprocate or love no one but yourself.
You are not weird.
There is no such thing as 'weird.'
Saying so measures you only by your differences from those around you.
The only thing I can for sure call you is 'beautiful.'
You are beautiful regardless of gender or lack thereof.
You are beautiful regardless of who you love.
You take up space and you glimmer and gleam and breathe and shout and feel and speak and make what you consider mistakes.
But no.
There are no mistakes.
There are decisions and events outside of your control but no mistakes.
There are moments that hurt yourself and others but there are no mistakes.
Hold your head up and look forward.
Decide on your next course of action and step onward.
Nothing is hopeless, and to call yourself without worth is an insult. To call yourself anything less than a human deserving of love and all you can experience is worse than a crime.
There are no mistakes, and you. You. YOU EXIST. You must continue to do so as long as you can.
You aren't weird. You cannot be measured by your differences.
Continue to think and to breathe and to wonder and to experience and yes, to even do things that may hurt, as that is how you grow. That is the way of the world.
-Syla Delaney

[Julia]

Hey,

thank you for keeping my hopes high. You could have said one sentence that you love someone else and I would have left your life without saying a word. Thank you. I never want to see you again ever. But then again, you wouldn't want to see ME anyway haha.

[van Wolf]

Dear J
How dare you treat L like that! He thinks your his friend, and yet you betray his trust by mocking him behind his back. You make me sick! I feel sick when I see you together and you act like you're the best of friends. If he knew just what you were saying. I know you are just jealous that I happen to care for L alot. You are just pathetic, you bully those who seem weaker than you, but it's you who is the weak one. I was mad to even think about giving you a second chance. When I saw you after those years, I thought you had changed, while haha, I was wrong. You and your fellow morons make my life misery, but I am used to it. L acted like he couldn't believe what you did to me. I would say I hate you, but I won't because I am not like you, I want to be a better person.

Dear L
I'm not sure what you see in J but I know you deserve better. I love you and don't want you to get hurt. I hope you know that I'm always there for you if you need me.

[RaistlinAgaric]

To whom this may concern:

It has come to my attention that you fail to grasp my lack of response in your current email chain. It is obvious that you are misreading my silence as acceptance, when it reality it is denial. So allow me to take this time to clarify what I have been unable to properly specify previously.

I have no interest in hanging out with you or your female companion. You are both unnecessary individuals in my life. You are not my friends. You are simply humans that hold no interest to me. Do not attempt to make further contact with me. Delete me from your contacts and pretend I do no exist, as I am already doing that to you. If you attempt to contact me again, you will be met with far less kind words.

It is not personal. It is simply the fact that you are incapable of understanding the concept of social connection. You are human. I have no interest in an interaction with your particular group of humans. Thank you for your time, Do not speak to me again, and any attempt to do so will be met with aggression and violent words.

[Munin]

To all my friends,
thank you so much
thank you for just saying those two words, happy birthday.
You don't know how much it means to me, to know that my birthday has meaning.
I love all of you guys. I really, truly do. Thank you for everything.
With all the love in my heart,
your friend, whom you made cry tears of happiness.

[apollo.]

Dear ____,
Hey. I just wanted to thank you. I didn't even know you before this year, and honestly I still don't, we've only talked a few times, but you seem awesome. Despite the fact I barely know you, you seem to follow me around and catch my screw ups before it's too late. I forgot my backpack in the class, like who does that? My stupidity knows no bounds. But you reminded me before I got out the hallway. Seriously thanks, that would have been really embarrassing. your not the kind of person who spazzes out on every little mistake I make, you seem to just know when I'm about to make a big one and how to sort it out. I don't really know you, but I just want to say you're awesome, and thanks, really, you stopped me from doing lots of stupid stuff. I'm forgetful and have almost no filter, so it's awesome when you stick around me. Really hope we have more classes together.
Love, that girl who you frequently save from embarrassment




Dear other guy,
Hey. I really miss talking to you. We had a nice thing going, you talked to me all the time and instead of doing work you would joke and amuse me. But you moved on to her which really sucks... I mean not for you, and I'm really happy for you both. She needs a friend a lot more than I do, and well I guess she makes you happier, and you should do whatever makes you happy. I'm really sorry for whatever I did to make you dislike me. And stay with your old friends ok? One of them really needs you right now, and the other one will keep you grounded. Frankly I should have been the one keeping you grounded, but we were never quite that close. Anyway, this may not be the best timing, but I have a crush on you. Like a major one. It's ok though, it was on your old personality. I guess that side of you is gone? I'm really going to miss you. Oh and I really think you should ask her out, you know she wants you to and you guys would make a really cute couple. Ok that's it thanks.
Love, apollo.

[Shiny Sylveon]

Dear ex best friend,

I miss talking to you. You were my only friend. Now that you have a boyfriend and plenty of friends, I'm once again that loner at the back of the class. I miss actually having a reason to talk...now if I dare speak, people think I'm crazy or talk to myself...not that both aren't true or anything, as they clearly are. I wonder if you're still one of the good people at my school, or if you've became like the rest of them.






From,
Your old best friend...

[Jaaay]

Dear my ex,
I cant believe its almost been 2 weeks. Two weeks since you've held me in your arms and told me how much you loved me. Two weeks since I woke up beside you with you smiling at me. Two weeks since I've kissed the man of my dreams. Two weeks since I've heard you say "I love you beautiful." Two weeks since you said "I'll always love you baby, and nothing is ever going to change that." Well I guess things did change, your just a lier.. I really thought you loved me, I believed you when you said you wanted to live the rest of your life with me. I really saw a future with you. I loved you, and I still love you. You act like I dont exist anymore... Your so sick, I just can't believe who you've become. I never thought you would do this to me. I guess theu were all lies, you did leave me, you did stop loving me, you found someone else. You found a little 20 year old girl that you can just go out and have fun with. Well do you wanna know what I think about that? I think she doesn't care about you, she's not your friend. When you run out of money because you lost your job, she's not going to care, she's not going to give you money and take you where you need to go, she could care less about you. I care about you, I did so much to make sure you were happy.. I risked so much for you, and what do I get in return? A broken heart, you betrayed me. You hurt me, and you acted like it was my fault. It was both of our faults. We both had problems that could've been fixed. I'm fixing my problem, I know I should've gotten help sooner, but I didn't see you getting your problem fixed. No, you weren't perfect. But I loved you for who you were, you had your many flaws, but I would've never left you like you left me. Your so blind to see how much you hurt me... I needed you, I still need you and you don't even speak to me.
Love,
your heart broken ex fiancé

[fika.]

Dear ___,

I seriously do not like the fact that you're making me sing in front of 40+ people on tuesday, as if my stage fright/answering questions in class isn't bad enough.

From,
Different

[noodle cat]

dear b, w, v, & j,
i just found that really old role-play, you know, the one with 1000+ pages?
it hurt to look at. not only because we were so bad, but the fact that we were just starting to become friends in that rp. i read through a lot of it and almost cried. it sucks that we're not friends anymore. i mainly think about you, b, a lot, i think about our old group a lot. b me and you were friends even before we found the others. we even met in real life. it was the best thing i've ever done. the feeling of hugging you still comes over me from time to time and it hurts. i screwed our friendship up. sorry.
but how did the entire group fall away from each other so easily? we were all like best friends, sisters.
i remember all of us making promises to go to the same college so we could all be in the same dorms. silly. i remember we were all going to buy a house together on-top of a mountain and throw parties and make pillow and blanket forts. haha we were going to buy lots of cats and watch anime all day and read manga, become pro artists and animators.
such 'big' dreams we all shared.
i look back at our skype calls, our group chats, our role-plays. we were all so happy.
ugh it hurts. i wish we could all get back up with each other. i wish i could heal what i had done to you b and w.
maybe one day we can all call and erase all of the past hurt. mainly caused by my lack of being a good person.
sorry.
i miss all of you so much, even you v. yeah even you.
maybe one day we can just look back at all the memories and just laugh. laugh at everything.
-cat