Write a Letter you Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[Mercury.Muses]

Dear Alice,
Please let your story be in the libraby! I really wish to pay visits to the Cherish Cat.
Me

[Laark]

Old friend,

I want to apologize.
I dont know whats wrong with me anymore.
I want to apologize. I need to.
I need to know youre still my friend. That you still care.
But I'm just so...
Skaay like. You know. In the before, before he became soft. You know what I mean.

I dont deserve you. You amazing, strong, incredible, dorky woman. I have never deserved you.

so why did you stick around? Why did you hold onto me even when I wanted nothing more to do with you? or her? because of him.
Why did you help me through those dark times after him, why did you support me? You could have been done with me. You could have left me there in my own self hatred, but instead you picked me up out of that puddle I was wallowing in, and you forced me to stand on my own legs for once.
And I resented you for it. I resented you for saving me. Maybe I still do. I dont want to. Im working so hard to stop. I love you and I miss you. I miss how we could pick up conversations from like, a month ago and just run with them. Skipping no beats.

I miss how you made me laugh with your bizarre comments, and faces. And how not alone I felt when you were around.

I dont like many people. I truly dont. I tolerate them well enough, but if something goes wrong I just walk away without a second thought.
But with you, I just feel sick. I feel heartbroken in a way I havent felt since he left. Im not in love with you, but I still feel heart broken. I feel like my sibling left and isnt coming back. Like i wont get to see you again.

and its my own fault. Im aware of that. Im so self destructive that I destroy those bonds I have with those around me. I'm so sorry. You will never know how sorry I am.

Im so afraid to even apologize to you, because i fear you'll tell me what you told me years ago, when we had a fight. You smirked and told me you knew id be back, that I was just like her.
You were right of course. It hurt, but you were right.

Im sorry that I cant be a better friend. I want so badly to be. I just dont know how. I hope you never stop being strong. never stop proving me wrong. Never stop being what others dont want you to be. Im sorry Im too weak for you. Im sorry Im not as strong as you, or her. Im sorry I'm not more like Skaay. Maybe then I would fit in a bit better than Laark ever could. Im sorry Im not an alpha like Skaay.

Sincerely, the cowardly omega.


((please note that skaay is a character of mine, and not a real person/based on a real person.))

[qwill.]

dear mom,

the doctor still hasn't called us back. it's been almost two weeks. it's time to do something different!

that means we need to call the private clinic I researched. yes, they might not take out insurance. but the key word there is might. your daughter is suffering! she gets nosebleeds every day and has raging headaches. this is her busiest time of the year and she's constantly on pain medication because the stupid doctor won't call us back.

you need to realize that more steps must be taken because this path has run its course.

love,
your daughter who's in serious facial pain

[alouetta]

Dear horrid older sister,

Sometimes you make my day. Sometimes you ruin my day. It's not that I don't love you, but seriously, can you just knock it off? I never knew you could make someone's day into pure hell until now. You annoy me so much, and sometimes for that I hate you. You bug me all day long, and really.. Just please stop. Like, now.


Your younger sister.

(Please note that "Hell" is not a bad word, it is simply a bad place.)

[Jared.]

For all the nights we spent together, for all the times we laughed.
I miss every moment, i never once left your side and you did the same.
You always said "Nothing Is Perfect" but what we had, that was perfection.
For all i know you sit in a dark room emotionless and dead. You can't remember me because you don't exist.
Death is serious, how could you still go out with a smile? how was it so scary that you smiled, was it for me?.
I stopped like you asked, i did everything possible, and yet i still try to remember you.
My head is aching from thoughts, its possible for me to love again but i rather not, it would only make me see how horrible life is without you. I am strong enough to keep going, and i do, still there is a place in my mind that is made up of everything we ever did together. Forget me, and i will forgive you.

- James

[Sariee_Fairy]

Dear ____,
You will never know how much I love you, I would do absolutely anything for you. You're so beautiful it's crazy, and it kills me that that you don't see that. You're sweet, caring, beautiful, hilarious and not to mention my best friend. Whenever you're sad, I feel sad cause I feel like I can't help you the I want to. I miss you so much and I just want to be with you and tell you how much you mean to me. You think you're nothing, but to me you're everything. I see so much potential in you, it's crazy. I want you to see that, I just want to see you're face again and hug you. You don't know how much I need you, life's been so hard, and I just want my best friend with me. But, I just want you to know that I'll always be here for you, it doesn't matter where I am. I will always be here for you. I swear, I will help you get through this. I love you

From,
Your best friend
Xoxoxo

Dear babes,
You also mean a lot to me, you've helped me so much. My feelings for you have been growing and growing, and I hate it.whenever you tell me that I'm special to you, or you tell me you'll always protect me it makes me feel so happy. But then that happiness leaves, and it turns so sadness cause you make me like you even more. And I hate that so much, cause you clearly don't like me that way. Ugh, I don't even know anymore I'm sorry for being a bother to you. I really am.

From,
A a sad Haruka

Dear self,
Please don't. You got this, don't break down again. It's not good for you, you can be stronger then this. A few tests and exams won't get to you. So, just wait a little longer. Everything will work out in the end. I know it will.

From,
A emotional Haruka

[icicle1107]

Dear G,
That night at H's was really good for me. I have a lot of stuff going on in my head that doesn't get out ever. I can't talk about it with A, 'cause well most of it is about him and most are things I don't want him to know or have to think about. But it was good to tell somebody and I think it was good for you to tell me the things you did. It's hard carrying so much stuff with you, and letting another person share the weight is really nice.
I don't talk to you much but it was nice to talk to you then,
~ icicle1107

Dear H,
Thanks for inviting me to your house over new years. I had a great time! Despite not knowing about any of you or G's punk rock stuff. It just isn't my thing. I'm sure it's fun and if I went I would have fun but I 1) probably don't have time with the amount of collage trips we are planning to do over the summer, 2) money is a little limited currently, 3) it ain't my thing, and 4) I want invited. So I wish you the best! But anyways I had fun, thank you.

Ps I'm jealous that T got to stay the night.
~ icicle1107

A,
As soon as things are good it seems they go bad. You weren't happy when I was at H's house. You weren't happy last night or today. But in between we were great! I don't know why it's such a rocky slope. And I don't like it. I'm used to you being the happy one, I don't know what to do when you are like this. I try to help but usually it doesn't do anything. And so we grow apart or we feel the lengthening distance. That's why I ran away from you at lunch today. You were sitting there saying bad things, you were joking but I wanted...No needed, to do something and play. But you didn't chase me you eventually found me and when I struggled you just held me there. I managed to spark some happiness into your eyes but as soon as we sat back down on that accursed bench it was gone and I couldn't get it back.
Where are you?
~ icicle1107

Dear self,
I realized that why I dress the way I do and expose so much skin is to prove to myself and the world that I am still okay and haven't broken. There are no scratches on my skin. And as long as that holds true, I will be able to pull through and continue. That may be why I'm not shy at all with my body, I simply am showing that I am okay. That I can deal with whatever comes.
I know that if I started and my skin was flawed by the scratch it would change everything. My clothing would change to conceal it and I would never be able to stop. It's a addiction I don't want.
~ icicle1107

[sagan]

dear "friend" who seems to have let me go,

i can't bring up the courage to talk to you. i don't feel like i know you anymore.
believe me, i would if i could. you know how it is. i'm sorry i've been such a bad person. last year was terrible for me, and i don't know how i managed to keep myself from slipping off the brink. it was probably, most likely, definitely you, and that's what hurts the most. when i came back, i had my high hopes that everything would resume like normal, that we'd be friends and we could continue like nothing had happened.

that was a mistake. i should have let you go while i was gone. that was another huge mistake; i made a lot of those. this is the first step in the right direction. i need to come forth and say i've been in love with you for a while. i understand that you don't, that you will never, love me back. that's okay. i don't have much to offer and i don't know why i'd ever question if one day maybe we could be together. i'd like that so much. but the truth is, i can't be your friend right now. i think this is the end. i can't handle it.

when did you stop talking to me? i'm sorry i'm not on the same social scale as you. i shouldn't be sorry, but i am. i'm sorry i expected anything out of you. i shouldn't have done that, either. i'm tired of being ignored by you. i'm tired of you expecting things from me when you will not put your own foot down first and be a friend when i need you. i'm not doing this any more. i'm refusing to listen to anything that troubles you, eating out of the palm of your hand, doing everything and anything for you because you know i will. i am done with you in general because you're worse than i am.

i hope this upsets you as much as it upsets me. don't ever write me back, don't talk to me, and don't give me your empty, worthless apologies and words. i'm done with everything you've offered me, but when i need it, tore it down and acted like you didn't know i existed.

sincerely,
the person who isn't waiting for you to leave her behind

[Krycifer]

Dear... A friend,

I'm sorry if I seem obnoxious and pathetic. I feel like you don't really want me around as often. You know, I kinda wanna talk to you but meh I don't knowww. >->
So many things have happened in these last two days, and I do kinda wanna talk about them with you, but I just.. It's difficult to explain. I don't know. But, perhaps right now would be a bad time, as you've stated you're in a really pissy mood and you don't want anyone to even think or talk to you. Heh... believe it or not, that kinda makes me wanna avoid you more. Like, I just don't know. This could be just a random odd phase I'm having, but I'm suddenly feeling a... a feeling that I should probably be leaving you alone or something.
I guess my best bet at this is letting you message me when you want, instead of me pathetically PMing you all the time and being obnoxious. And I will happily reply. But I won't annoy you. I guess... I guess I'll just say.. I'll pack my bags and see you around, eh?

[punkster301]

Dear people at school,
Yes, I'm a bisexual. Yes, I believe we should get married. Stop hating about it!!! Maybe, straight people should not be allowed to get married because so many bad people were straight!1! Stop teasing me because my beliefs are different from yours!