I don't know what's up with the red font but I'm just going to mention that it does not agree with my eyes and therefore I have read neither post.
Horsegirlmadison wrote:I'm in love with my best friend. He knows and I've told him. Many times actually. I'm not sure if he still does, but he used to have feelings for me too. He said we shouldn't be together because he's dating my female best friend and he cares about her. I used to be really open about my feelings for him but now i hide them away to stop the fighting between the two of them and I. Recently i ended up becoming good friends with the most attractive guy in school and I looked to him to be my support. I started to feel like I was kind of pushing those feelings i have for my best friend on him and I didn't want to hurt him so we stopped talking completely. Now instead of hanging with the other guy i'm with my friends watching them be mushy. I hate it and after a year it still hurts for me to see them together. They think I'm over it and it's driving me crazy because I love him more than anything and at this point i'm just a really close friend.
That's tough. To be honest, telling him frequently doesn't sound appropriate to me. A couple is okay but beyond that I worry it would feel like pressure to him, maybe make him a little uncomfortable since he doesn't want to do anything about it right now. Also if he is dating your best friend then I definitely don't think it was appropriate. I understand wanting him to be aware of it, but saying so a lot, well, I can definitely see how it would have caused problems between the three of you.
To be blunt, the decision is up to you. You can continue to be a friend and support them, you can tell him that you still have feelings and that you don't feel comfortable hanging out with them a lot, etc. Also I'm not sure how your friend feels about all of this - does she worry you'll steal him away or that he may like you more or anything? Does she know how often you told him about your feelings and, if so, does she have a problem with it? It may be worthwhile to talk to her about it some and see what her feelings are. If you also really care about her, repairing and possible damage that happened may be worth it to you, such as apologising for possibly making things complicated and letting her know you don't intend to ruin things for them.
Beyond that.. I'm not really sure what you are looking for in terms of advice, unless you were just posting to vent.
