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by mandalorian » Fri Jul 25, 2014 8:44 am
Trying to accomplish my dream won't work.
I'll have to wait until I'm an adult.
But there is tons of famous teenage youtubers- I can make it work, right..? No.. I only have a laptop..
I need a hug and some advice :c
xx┌ ━ ━ ━ ━ ━ ━ ━ ━ ━xx❝ 𝚂𝚃𝙾𝙿, 𝚆𝙷𝙰𝚃 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙷𝙴𝙻𝙻
xxxxxxxx𝙰𝚁𝙴 𝚈𝙾𝚄 𝚃𝙰𝙻𝙺𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙰𝙱𝙾𝚄𝚃?xxlx𝙶𝙴𝚃 𝙼𝚈 𝙿𝚁𝙴𝚃𝚃𝚈 𝙽𝙰𝙼𝙴
xxxxxxxxlxxx𝙾𝚄𝚃 𝙾𝙵 𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙼𝙾𝚄𝚃𝙷.❞xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxlxxxxx━ ━ ━ ━ ━ ━ ━ ━ ━ ┘
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by Krycifer » Fri Jul 25, 2014 8:58 am
I'm such a brat. I don't realize it when my Internet friend is super busy, and before I learn they're busy, I'm all upset because they don't reply to a message.
I'm just such an annoying little grumpy brat who wants all the attention.
But that hasn't ever been me. Maybe it's because I haven't interacted with anyone all day, and I'm super lonely. But I'm the opposite of this Internet friend. They've got a ton of crap on their hands, while I've got nothing. I'm just laying here wasting my time, not being productive, while they are, and I'm being a brat about them not replying.
I mean, now I'm not upset because I know they're busy, but this had happened so many god dang times.
I always have an aftershock guilt. It's starting to take a toll on me.
Is a hug too much to ask for? ._.

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by SoundAndVision » Fri Jul 25, 2014 9:06 am
*Ki* wrote:I'm such a brat. I don't realize it when my Internet friend is super busy, and before I learn they're busy, I'm all upset because they don't reply to a message.
I'm just such an annoying little grumpy brat who wants all the attention.
But that hasn't ever been me. Maybe it's because I haven't interacted with anyone all day, and I'm super lonely. But I'm the opposite of this Internet friend. They've got a ton of crap on their hands, while I've got nothing. I'm just laying here wasting my time, not being productive, while they are, and I'm being a brat about them not replying.
I mean, now I'm not upset because I know they're busy, but this had happened so many god dang times.
I always have an aftershock guilt. It's starting to take a toll on me.
Is a hug too much to ask for? ._.
Hey you can pm me

I wont be on much tommrow or the weekend but monday-thursday on most day im all yours

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by Caela » Fri Jul 25, 2014 9:11 am
I promised myself that I wouldn't come here. I hide my feelings, I don't share them. But you know what? I'm tired of doing that. I've been ranting to my pet cats more than ever since I found CS. It's the cause of so much of my joy but also the man source of my depression and anxiety. Sometimes I wonder if it's worth it. I care so much about what others think of me but I know I can never be perfect. I'm afraid to say no and scared to say yes. That might not make sense but it's true. I worry about everything, I even worry about worrying. I'm easily depressed, partly because I care so much about what others say. One wrong word and I'll be thrown into despair, one right word and I'll be on cloud nine. Depression always returns though. I love art and it helps me stay positive, but I'm painfully aware of how much better my art could be. I look at the work of much more skilled artists and think If only if started drawing earlier... I might be able to draw that well, and I regret my attitude towards art when I was younger. I acted as though my art was the best thing ever even though I didn't practice. I've changed that attitude by now, in fact I'm quite the opposite, but those memories continue to haunt me. I'm paranoid that I might start acting that way again. I hate false praise and can't beleive that anyone could honestly love my artwork. I try to push off the praise of others as simply being said as a confidence booster, not a truthful statement, if that makes any sense.
I know my lot in life isn't that bad but it's hard to look at things objectively when you spend your life fighting off sadness because of what you love. For me, the thing I love is art. I always will love it even if it is discouraging sometimes.
Okay sorry about that. Just had to get it out before the anxiety stomachaches got any worse.
I swear I'm not a middle schooler.
For real.
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Do I ever do things in a timely matter?
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by SoundAndVision » Fri Jul 25, 2014 9:16 am
I dont want to be a burden on any of you guys, but I miss my math teacher from 3 years ago so much

she changed schools twice in the last 3 years and now I have no idea where she is. She was and is special to me, I want her back so her and I can sort things out, we went though some pretty harsh stuff together that at the time I didn't realize the risks of everything and I feel somewhat that it could have been my fault that she had to change schools...I just need a hug or a PM

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