I cannot explain the power you have over me.
A tug, a pull towards you.
It shouldn't be there, and
I try to ignore it, but
you feel it too.
Don't you?
This tug,
this pull.
Our hearts intertwined
on a thread that cannot be cut,
only stretched.
Have I stretched
it to the point
of breaking?
For now I can't breathe
when I am near you,
and can't be in the same room without
feeling the urge to run.
no, that's a lie....it's still there.
But now, now I can feel it slipping away.
Can you feel it?
I am scared.I am ecstatic.
This change
that must come soon is
all so terrifying.
I have waited so long for it to be here,
and now I wish
This tug
,this pull,
this thread will last a little while longer.
What will happen when it is gone?
Will we forget everything that has happened?
Confused by the emotions of the past?
Or will we build a new thread,
one of a different color and make
to keep a connection....
even if it is no where near as strong?
I am afraid.
Afraid that we will make it stronger!
Afraid we won't
and it will die,
alone with the love
we have of each other.
I want a new thread.
One not so demanding,
so controlling,
so inseparable that I feel
a constant tug, a constant pull.
Iwant a thread that will allow us
to relive our old memories
with joy,
that will keep us connected
but not make us ever so inseparable
that being around you makes me feel like running in opposite directions.
I want to be friends,
but I know....
I know that can never be.
Still,
I cling to hope,
and live off of the ecstasy and fear.
forever feeling
that pull,
that tug...
constant.