Pharaoh Luna wrote:I need some/an opinion here guys.
Okay, there's this girl I like. We have a strange friendship, we like to tease/insult each other jokily. Well more I insult her, she teases me. But we both know we don't mean it and we get on really well I think. We aren't in the same form and we don't hug (no time between lessons) and I really like her so I might just be imagining stuff.
This first thing was weeks ago. She awwwwed at me, multiple times. I don't know if that's just her or what or whatever but it happened. She awed at the thought of four year old me being read Harry Potter in the bathtub (don't ask) and at the fact I was bisexual and liked someone two years older than me.
Secondly, we talk quite a lot. The way we sit in maths though, she has to turn around and, though I'm not sure she fully needs to do this, when she's talking to me, she leans right back and turns her shoulders toward me. She smiles and her eyes seem to glisten a little
Thirdly, staring. Mostly, we're in awkward positions to catch each other staring (as in it's impossible to most of the time due to seating) as either I'm behind her and she can't see me or the other way around, so if this happens quite a lot when I'm in front and she's behind, that would change things. However, twice, I am sure I've caught her staring at me. There is a possibility that I've caught her other times but I'm not sure with those. The first, our whole band was in the main school hall being reset for PE. She was nearer the front than me, so should have been facing the front. I looked toward her and I swear she was looking at me. I swear. It really did look like it, she was turned in my direction. The second, we were in a different maths seating plan that we have once a week, I'm in front, she's behind, and as I was talking to the person next to me, out of the corner of my eye, I think I saw her staring or at least looking at me.
Finally (for now), we were in maths on thursday and I was commenting on how the weather was perfect and beautiful, and my favourite temperature and she said. 'That's so cute.' which was completely unexpected. I couldn't believe it!
Any opinions are well appreciated!
Sorry it's so long >3<
We were in the maths room with a different seating plan today and I'm sure I saw her looking at me again. I don't know if I'm just imagining things or not. I've never heard her call anyone else cute before, or tease anyone really, let alone the adorable way she teases me. Help is still appreciated here but that's not my only problem.
I feel weird, the way I like her. It feels so strong and even though I've liked her just under two months, the way I feel just seems so strong. Every time I see her, I feel butterflys and feel light headed, every time she smiles at me, I want to explode. Being away from her really, really hurts. She is beginning to distract me to the point where my brain can not fully function in the proper way it should. I'm not thinking properly, I can't concentrate, even when I'm not in a lesson with her in it. But when I am, it's so much worse. I just want to laugh with her and talk to her and smile with her. I think I might be in love with her but is it too early to say that? I feel like I do but it seems so sudden and fast and I don't know if I am or if I'm not or what and it's scary.