c h r i s t m a s wrote:guys i dont know what to do anymore. on tuesday i have my appointment to see if i need to go back to treatmnet for my eating disorder. I really don't want to, if i do i dont think that i'll be here anymore. i think it will led me to stop eating all in all and make me start doing things i shouldnt do. My depression is starting up again and my mom wants me to start taking my meds again. they DONT help and i feel like im so strange to everyone else that i have to take meds for this. i dont know what to do anymore.
*ear perk*
I heard eating disorder.
I know EXACTLY the position you're in. It's a bit crazy at times...
Scratch that. It's a roller coaster going downhill one hundred miles an hour, right into a brick wall.
As unappealing as treatment sounds, (for an eating disorder, I'm not sure about depression.) it's going to help. Just give it a chance, even if it's a second one, and see if it improves.
If I can recommend anything to you, it would have to be what I use to get around my own eating disorder. If you have the same thing as me, (not wanting to eat in general) then try
these. They have a lot of the stuff your body needs, and it's only one thing. As much as I hate it, you can just drink one really fast and move on to other things, instead of having to dwell on eating-related issues. I've been using them for a while now as a shortcut around my own eating disorder. It's a really nice way to avoid eating, while not hurting yourself.
Plus, they don't taste terrible either. :P
Well, there's my little bit of stupid advice...
Over all, just don't give up. *hug*