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Username:Aysan1
Kennel Number:6{[ Six ]}
Name [of pet]:
Chance Key-I~I-
Afanasyii LockNames:
The key of chance.
Chance,there is a chance
you could win in life, or let
it's misery engulf you.
You only lose against chance
if you belive it is better then you.
Chance is just a child that wants something
and so it tricks us, chance wants something
of it's own. Something like...love.
When you own the key,
they key of chance.
So much better then anything.
You know it, the key of chance,
to controll your own life
Even if that is impossable.
It is chance.
{[ It's a little decoraited. Actual is Afanasi.]}
Afanasyii{A-fah-nah-see} means immortal.
An importal lock. Won't be phased.
But like chance, this is a child
who needs to be brocken.
Who needs something,something like love.
Love to wrap around it.
I fear to have brocken your trust.
A trust that is so hard to gain as it is to lose
A battering fight when your locked in.
A key to get you out.
Find me.
{[Orgins Greek/Russian]}
Gender [of pet]:
~
Male-I~I-
Male`
Breed/Species [of pet]:
Fox~Speacifics comming
Personality [of pet]:
The eyes of endulgence are blue~
Radeo head <I maybe for left
Background/History [of pet]:
The Series-I'm gone
In another life. I wish you'd be with me. I'd never let you go. Grasp your love like everything would dispear if I didn't...{[
The one that got away ]}
When you were gone
I use to paint the picture with you
Draw it from blank
In the snow white you could see colors
A rainbow through the pain
I was your muse
The song youd sing when standing alone
On a battle feild of silence
I wish you were here
but...were at two differnet sides of the world
And the rules draw me back
They push you away
And it's because of me
Your the one
The one that...
Got away
Black. I laughed. Stay. The pictures,the images in my mind. So peaceull. So joyfull. Such a lie. No. Not a lie. Memories. How I hate them. They disgust me. And this pain. I hate it. These scares,their only here because...I needed a pain,that would distract me. A noise loud enough. A pain far worse. But nothing worked! No pain fits this emptyness. Everything,everyone was deep into the blood. I was deep into the ink. It was black as nights air. Withouth no'stars. A soft stroke with the brush and I was done. It echoed. "Done." My happy voice exedes me. My forced voice. Why aren't you here? "You are my sunshine. My lovely sunshine. You make me happy when skys are gray. My lovely sunshine. You make me happy when-" I kicked the radeo clear off the stand. White stand,carved magesticly,no speck of dust on it. Why? Why are you gone!? "I-I hai-" No. I couldn't say it. I really couldn't say it. I hate you. It wasn't the truth. "I love you!" My jerked my body back as the noise filled the air. Old music,dronning on painfully. "But now you'v left me. To love another." It repeated. "But now you'v left me. To love another...and shattered all my drea-a-a-a-ms." It blanked out suddenly,the radio. Then with a jolt it was back. "My only sunshine. You make me happy when skyyys aaare grey." Finally it shut up. And I burst into tears. "You make meee haaapyyy when skyyys aaare gray." I gasped. "Shut up! Just-just shut up!" I was flouting in tears. Pain. Just plain pain. The one that got away. "Shut up!" It had already stoped,a soft buzzing hum redaiting out of it. My room turned to gray. The color seamed to seap out and drop onto the floor forming into a puddle of gray. Hands to my mouth I watched tear jerked as my red aint bottle fell over,spreading red all over. "I'm sorry." I whispered,voice quivering completly. I bit my bottom lip to endure the pain. My pathetic snivles filled the air and I stood glancing at my mirror coldly over my shoulder. If I won't have you back...why not come join you? I'll come to the other side of the world. Why did you leave me? I grabbed my jacket and stoped stiff wear I stood. Glancing at the door my ever risileant smirk crossed my lips. The smirk that had disapeared without a trace,a happy feelnig calmed over me. I crazy feeling. I should know my mind is lost but...I want you. "I love you." I hoped over my bed and into the balcony,with aswift hand I grabbed the railing and flew my legs over it. Jumping off. I felt the cool air against my face,brushing around my black hair even as my bare feet touched the cool grass. "Damn!" I looked around and smirked once again as I saw the small tree. Peaking underneath all the groups of trees I picked up my spare sneakers. Ink black. With color. I'm deep into it. Into the ink,but now there is color in this ink. Beauitfull vibrant colors. "Wooo!" I barely even put on the plain white shoes with only one pink lace wiring around my feet as I bounced my higher body up and stretched tiredly. I'll find you. Even if it kills me. I'll find you...my love. A happy apearance crossed over my mind. My eyes sparkling a fizzing blue as I made my way through the grass. Tall grass,deep green that brushed up against my legs,making the pale tan skin wrap itself in green specks. I'll find you! Be sure of that.
And in the end
But when have we every listened to the rules?
I'll chase you
In this world I draw back my bow and shoot my arrow
Against the world
We'll be together
We'll fight against no one and become somebodies
Keep our promises
Never let each other go
We'll be together forever
I'll be your muse
Never let it go
My love
Stay
Maybe it's cold because of me and the quivering darkness wear nothing moves or maybe it's cold because my blood isn't surging well without you. But these tears won't be so inpecable if you were here. So lifeless without you. I'm dead laying there without you.
{[
Wish you were here ]}
Wishing on a little star
You're my star in the lifeless night
I'm most valnerable when your not with me
I'm most heart brocken when you say no
I'm most happy when your there
And like hell i'd wish for anyone else
I want you to hold and to have
I want your love as much as you push away mine
I know you care
Has it really been so long since you left?No. It just seams that way. Only an hour or so,and i'm worring like hell! I want him to come home already. I want you here. With me. I mean sure he was pissed. Maybe I would have been too. Maybe.
but the thing is..."I'm going to get gorcerys! Okay. I'll be back in a damn bit. Don't wait up for me Key." Doesn't seam like something healthy when in this situation. I turned on the radeo. "I always needed time on my own. I never though i'd need you there when I cried. And the days feel like years when your gone. And the bed wear you lie is made up on your side. When you walk away I count the steps that you take. Do you see how much I need you right now." I looked at the radeo slumly. Then my mouth opened. I was singing along with the melody. "When your gone. The pieces of my heart are missing you. When your gone the face I know is missing too." You made me belive. Wear am I gunna'go with this stupid life if,if the thing that keeps me belieaving,keeps me hoping,keeps me...living,isn't here,wear am I?Wear do I go? You're my safe place. You're the one who craddles me as much as I inspire you. You idiot. You dunce,you-...the door clicked open,with a soft tlack sort of sound. You saviore! I practicaly lost my balence ,how quickly I had jumped off my stool and scrambled over to the door. To him. Bang!Tlick,kkrr..The stool fell. "Key. I...I brough you somethi-" His eyes grew as he stared at me. Face stained with tears,eyes big,green dabbled and blurred with tears still being held inside,touching at the skin,it stung,rolling off my deep black eye lashes. He took me into an embrace. I was wearing maskara,yes,I did,when I had to. When I wanted to. He took his thumbs,rubbing under my eyes,whiping at the staines gently. "Sorry." His voice was subtle but sweet. It made my heart melt. What a stupid thing. Slowly he dragged out a teddy bear. Soft white lace creamea,big brown eyes and a pink dabbled nose. I gasped. "It's-it's..." he embraced me again. "Why?" He was asking about the crying,I was sure of it. "Ah...I got scared."My voice shacky as if he mite get angry at me right at this moment. A soft sweet smile grazed his lips. Though he looked protective,plunging the big teddy in and then locking the door he growled playfully at me,pinning me over onto the bed. I giggled and laughed. "Don't worry. Okay?" I tried to to give a smile,though it pended towards the weak end making me whimper. "Ah-I'll try." Blind words.I tried to sound sarcastic like,atleast a little. My voice shook,it whithered,it sounded like jelly. Not that natiose fruity vibrant stuff,but it shook,it was disorted,and I found I couldn't get my voice any louder. My through was wisted and with knotes I couldn't bother to figure out in this pain. If I did I would force myself,and then burst into sobs,tear stricken and into his arms again. I almost wished. His gaze turned even more protective,moving me to sit onto his lap. My face crossed a newly painted look,a bitter emotion. Hurt. It didn't seam bitter. Except for the pain in my cheast,that blurring over my vision and the sudden chill up my spine fallowed by the pang in my stomach wear butterflys crippled instead of soured,trying to find a path out,leading to the unbearable tickling in my throut. I turned red. Touching his shoulder daintly my lips seamed to meet his simotaniosly,without even trying it seamed that we were lead to one another. It didn't look like it but we were lead to one another almost,almost like moths to light. Stung and cringing? Yes. But somehow we can get over that and make it. He hugged me tighter,and I didn't know how deep we were going into this. This moment. Kiss. His lips. Their so smooth,so soft,maybe small but dabbed with innocent laughter. The kiss ended with a small whine from me.
"Don't worry." That's what you said. That's what I herd. He is such a lieing little...augh! But I love you. I wish you were here. I don't need any presents,just your embrace. You'r love. But your gone. "I'll be back in a damn bit!" How long is a bit? I herd myself whispering this. "How long is a bit? How long is a damn bit?" I herd a sudden click. Jittery I started for the door,looking through the peep hole I started sobbing. It was only one of the neighbours. "Wear are you?" The phone ran and I let it ring in isolation. Untill the tone came,"Please leave a message after the beep" I hadn't herd a human voice so close in a wile. Then I picked up the receiver,waiting only one secound. "Chance..." I practicaly lost my mind,the reciever banging against my head making me go "owww" though I quickly changed to a silent little fox as soon as I herd the shuffling in the background,from the phone of course. "H-hello Afan-nasyii?" I herd a soft coughing in the distance. Then I herd more shuffling. "Don't hang up!" My breath caught. Somehow an image of him came up to me,my every thought laced with that soft budding. Afanasyii holding the reciver close to the phone,about to set it down and hang up on me wirred into my mind. That image. "Please!" I gasped. A moment of silence. Before he sighed. "I-i'm sorry! Please!" I was almost screaming. I was being tortured,I care so much,i've hidden it so well,i've tried atleast,to hide my emotions,but you were always so much better at it. And you know when i'm hiding,you know how to get me out. But near you I know I can always crumble and fall,waiting for you to help pick my ashes off the floor,wash me away with your love and bring me back to life. I sobbed. I started to,hiccuping and sniffling sullenly. "Why are you sorry?" His voice was strong,it was disgusted. Questioning me with no set emotion. But there was protection in there. I wanted that protection so badly right now. "I'm sorry." I repeated. He sighed,a moment before a slighht forced chuckle escaped him. "I'm comming home. Don't worry." Don't worry!? I was about to give him hell but then I herd him repeat his words. "Don't worry." And I melted into happiness. Don't worry. A smile dabbed onto my tear stained face,eyes sparkling with a bit of faith and hope in my seamingly hopless desires. "Okay." I sobbed out,heart rejoicing. "I love you." I whimpererd and winced suprising to even me, as if the sudden silence was like a pounding bang into my ear and a crashing through my body,stoping my heart and disfunctioning brain. Tumbling as the tears into my eyes. He let out another sigh. He doubted I loved him? "I love you too babe." He...I gasped out a sigh. "Please come home quick and becarefull,I love you!" I herd his breath catch in suprise though all I did was blow a kiss to him through the phone speaker and then hang up quickly. I love you. I do. I really do. I love you.
When your with me
My heart starts to beat faster and I wonder
Wear would I be without you
Probably digging my grave but
I'm scared
I don't want to lose you
In the fire
I don't want to lose you
In a tornado
and I know you love me
and I know you love me
I love you too
Maybe my heart may stop
and maybe my breath would catch
but I don't mind
So stay
As long as you are here
with me
I don't mind
{[
Somethin'something' ]}
I picked up a can of pop,already open. Sitting on the couch I layed on my side and opened the tv. "The battle converse seams to be trailing on for many hours now. No one is sure if we'll reach a settlement with the half'n'half." I sighed. I wonder if a war will really happen. Picking up a soft green wrapper with a stick at the end I tugged the wrapper off and popped the lolli into my mouth quickly, drinking my pop right after. More talk of the news went on and then the door opened. "Afanasyii?" I herd a soft cough then "aha." I grinned and pulled my legs slightly closer to me. "Come sit." I tapped my foot on the place near my feet, now slightly open enough for him to sit. "Alright babe. One sec." He took over a plastic bag, putting everything into the fridge and cupboard before grabbing some pop of his own and joining me. "So what's the talk about now?" I layed my legs on his lap and smiled, eyes slightly closed as he rubbed my legs gently. "Still about the war." My voice dronned in annoyance. "Oh you say so?" I scoffed. "-Oh- I know so." He inched his hands to my thieghs then took his cool coke touching it to my skin. "Ah..!" I kicked his stomach softly and he chuckled. He took the remote making me yelp "hey!" and then he changed the channel. "Now is it about the war?" I cocked my head. "Yes." Another news channel,again talk of the war. He growled to himself changing to a different channel once again, this one with music. He tugged me onto his lap. "Lets dance." I frowned even if this was my suggestion, waiting for his 'no', I should have expected it,but I had gotten exited. He nuzzled my neck and gave a slight purr, glancing at my frown he smiled warmly giving off a soft sigh. "Alright." My hands were place into his. "Now get up princess." He I stood up,and he held my dainty hands out in the air, beside me still. Then he stood up. "I'm no princess." He smirked. "Of course not." Voice sarcastic he gave me a witty remark. "Oh you doubt me?" I questioned slyly, eyes burning into him. I did a swift spin and faced him. He was holding me close by my middle, breathing softly onto my face. I hesitated before kissing him, cheeks bright red. I love his lips, their so gentle, so protective, firm but soft. He leaned me back slightly as the kiss went on. "I love you." His soft breath brushed against my lips cooly, making me feel a rush of heat. My blush grew and I tried to think. I was so flustered I almost fainted into his arms. I mean I knew he did, he loved me. He's made it clear he loves me. "Love you too." Grinning doofly I let out a soft purr. " Oh you do?" My grin stayed. He was being pretty cheeky today. It's wasn't war yhat was going to stop us, it couldn't stop our love...but then what could? Our love wasn't perfect, even if every touch sent me flying and when we were together it didn't seam like nothing could pull us apart. It was perfect in someways. Wasn't it? The warmth he surged through me, it always stayed. "Stay with me." His smile faltered for a moment. Just for a cold black moment. Then came back, with a fading bitterness in his eyes, mixing with a sweet sadness. Bitter-sweet. "I won't. Ever." And he embraced me. The room was quiet, every place of the room seamed to bud with light then, in front of the darkness. And we just hugged, radiating the sadness after our love. Cruil. Yes?
{[
Ours ]}
The sweetest things are dreamt together
In your arms I can fade away
Because i'm fearless
when you are with me
When I am alone
I dissapear
Colors are forming
bleeding into a dream
a dream I fallow
of love and
dispair
my boquete
I wish you to be my saviore
I wish for you
hold me close
I want you to
keep me there
come along with me
lets dissapear
into a dream
let's dissapear
and together we'll become something
Make something new
a new love
as we watch the world
dead silent
but
it'll be alright
"Come on love." I grinned at him. "Comming!" Pulling his arm into my grip I gently tugged Chance back. "I have something to...tell you." I hesitaited grabbing a conerned "yes?" From him. I smiled warmly. Soft eyes grazing around his and dancing along with his eyes and each emotion. "You know how-we've been friends for so long. You know like-" I hesitaited again "A few months...?" Three or something? No. I knew it was atleast four months, I had kept track before but then I would be getting to possesive. Right? So I stoped. He butted in slowy "six months." I smiled the fringes of my heart sparking. He kept track... "Six months. And I want to ask you,do you feel that i'm your friend?" He nodded. Instantly too. Good. "Anything else?" He hesitaited. Of course nothing else,what am I expecting?I should have already given up this faithfull feeling but it was so lovely. "Mhmmm." Voice a soft shy whisper. "What?" He looked up with hopeless eyes. "Yes." I practically chocked.
"I-I..." Another soft whisper. I didn't wait,couldn't. I kissed him,and I could see his eyes go big,beautifull round soft eyes before they closed into a calm esence. His lips. They were soft,they were sweet and they felt so great against my lips. He leaned his whole body against me. It was warm,and such a fragile thing. I was never used to something so fragile. "I love you." I panted. He panted back legs looking wobbly. Heck,he was cute and fragile and so right. Maybe that's why I was...I am so scared of breaking him. "I love you." This time his voice wasn't a whisper, it was exited, as if an energy rejuvinaited just comming out of sleep so kindling and frail. He bounced, wrapping bouth arms around my skinny neck. "I love you." Hot breath on my neck,flirty build and a sweet scent all made me quiver. With exitment of my own of course. I snagged him into another kiss, glad that the shadows were there to hide us. Not that I would hide him, now that he was mine, but he isn't just an item, he's aliving being and I would never want to break this little ones heart. "Your so cute." I panted after the kiss. He flushed pink and kissed me again. "But aren't we going a little...fast?" He frowned and jumped,and in that one frozen moment he had wraped his legs around my waist and was giggling. "Love is unexpected Affanasyii," He said voice cool,face pink. Words of wisdom sounded so wierd, but I knew he was right. Love comes unexpected. But I don't care. 'Cause right now your mine and i'll keep you there. In that locked up place within my heart. You've brocken through. It's like your a key,breaking into my locked heart. Wait...a key,and a lock. Isn't this story a little bit old? A story of how this world started. With one key finding there soulmate,the locked heart they can break into. In some ways Chance,you are a criminal. Brocken into my heart and stolen my heart, havn't you, but somehow I don't mind. Because if it's you I can let it go. I can let everything drift. But only if it's you. Be calm on the subject of this love, because it's the love I care most about. More than anything. It's the love that I share with someone special. You.
Though things change
I've never held something that's like you
Warm and sweet
Is this love?
How much lust fills into my voice
You've brocken me
Still the lock in my heart is opened
With such a fragile touch
Sparking so much emotion into me
It's so black inside me
But with one touch
Just one touch
Color bursts everywear
Blues and red's splurting out
Everesent pinks
Cascadding greens
And so much more
This is why
Why I love you
We're so different
But my hands fit into yours so easly
You are my muse
Chance goes~
{[
The story of us ]}
In this poem you start off with one line and skip one and go to the next. Now wich line you begin at is up to you and to this story.
The secound line is Chances ideal
And the first line is Affanasyii's <3
You can read it as a full poem or in bouth the boys versions/ideals
~ ~
You can't push me away
I want you to stay
Grab onto you and never let go
Pull me in and take me away
Everybody knows this is
Love
Love
Love is something
Something unavoidable
Listen to me
So listen to my calls
And the banter rains louder and clearer
Stop it
Stop the pain
Stop everything
And we'll stand here
Just you and me
Just me and you
Stop and stand and just stare out
Tighten my grip on your hand
And kiss your warm cheek
"I love you."
"I love you"
I always have
And the dream is real
"I love you."
True to the fullest
"I love you"
I love you
I love you
I love you
And you love me back
No one else...
The music was loud, the lights were bright, everything was blarring and I was just dieing. "Chance!" The voice called on behind us. No, no, no, no, just no! "Chace come back!" He gulped and didn't hesitaite as he ran quickly behind me. I bolted faster for the door, people pushing against me and me against them in the heat. "I-I didn't mean it." And his words were with no hesitation. I turned around, bouth hands locked in weak fists straight on my heart. "You-you..." I was all chocked up, making a soft mewling noise. "You idiot!" My hand flew and it hit him, over the cheek and as I turned around I saw him. Eyes watery, head hung in pure missery. Figure growing weaker as I made my path, and a small thought in my mind howled, it howled and called and yelped and grew loud, grew louder and louder. It called loud 'Come after me...Come get me, fallow me, fallow me. Fallow me!' But he stood there. So sullenly. The tears are warm, warm dew drops streaking down my cheek. "I love you! You idiot I still love you!" I slammed against the brick wall and hurled back before slumping against the bricks once again, sliding down, against the material sobbing. Then footsteps filtered behind me, and before I could stand, before I could turn, before I could look I knew and before I could do anything, do anything at all...he was there. Stepping closer. Affanasyii. "I-" He gasped and panted, clearly out of breath. "I didn't mean it!" He burst. I still sobbed, I didn't stare at him, he was so determined. Why...he was so afraid of 'breaking me' and yet, he was even more afraid of losing me. "You-your just-s-so-" I tried to punch the wall but he grabbed my arm. "Stupid," I whined in a slosh pit of tears and sniffles and sadness. The aura around us was dim. Deep and of course dark. "I won't break, I love you, and you were going to leave me because y-you thought i'd br-eak?" I gulped, gasping softly for air."I-wo-I wo-w-won't!Break!" I coughed in a hot mess. He grabbed me, right into his arms. "I love you, babe, I love you." He rubbed he head against my neck and kissed me, shivers sent all over my body. "I'm sorry," I whimpered. He flinched. "It's alright, it's all my fault, all mine. I love you to peaces, i'm just afraid, you're so fragile, so frail and I couldn't bare hurting my baby doll." Baby doll, that's my nickname. And well I call him...idiot, stupid, lovey...a lot of things, all with so much love and dispair, so much lust. I love him. "I love you." He purred softly licking my shoulder like the social little fox that he was.
Affanasyii begins-
{[
Tell me i'm wrong ]}
In the beggening
In the begening we were bold
We were shy
we were innocent
then we got a little tipsy
a little misunderstood
did nothing wrong
but felt like the world came collapsing
then I saw you there
and my world was bound to fall
and you held me wear I stood
untill I grabbed out
and held you too
Let's stay here
Love is one confusing thing
"H-hello." The new kid. Beautifull? Yes. Musconsidered? Surely. "Could I sit beside you?" And he was so shy then. What happened to that little bungulo of a silent sweet voice asking me to eat lunch with him? "Sure." Not to say I didn't love it. And that silent voice did grow,it got exited and I was happy hearing it enthusiastic. Slowly I learned I cared too much to be just a friend. But what would he think? "Hey Affanassyi can I please eat with you?" Maybe it was that begging, that pleading voice wich made me lustfull. But I couldn't be with you,I wasn't the faithfull enough type,what if...i'll betray you,and die in the flowing guilt. It'll flood over me,render me lifeless and let me wallow in your pity. But I would never leave you fully if I knew your life would be a wreck when I did,not when I did,afterwards. I wish you would go back to normal and could be happy without me,because im scared. What if,what if i'm not the one who can make you happy? And yet with that one stare wear your eyes sparkle and your smile is brimming like the suns everesent rays as if there is nothing wrong to come. But if I hurt you,even that small percent I don't want to risk,I will die in that sadness. Don't pity me,I wish I was more corageose. To be able to live with you with no fear. Young love. Show me how that is. Blind and special against the cruil cruil tear stained,death rained world. Show me? I nibbled on my balony sandwich carelesly as Chance stared off into the distance. The wind blew his hair around playfully as we sat on the roof of the building. I could hint his shivering,though I was reluctent to wrap my arm around his shoulder and give him a warm smile. I still did it. "Chance you need to wear warmer stuff." He leaned his head against my cheast,ignoring my words compleatly. "I can hear your heart." And with thouse words my heart bounced. Embaressing much,he was the one listening to my heart bounce now as I flushed. A soft noise pushed through the thudding through my ears. A gentle purr. "Ch-chance?" He didn't move. "Chance?" I prodded him. "come on Chance!...it's not funny," I whispered softly. He was asleep. With a soft sigh I let him slump his head onto my lap drouzy. A small chuckle and a warm smile streamed from me, I stroked his head. "Oh Chance." I smiled,sadly. There was this bitter-sweetness in my smile. Like wanting, and to know I can't have it. It kills me inside everyday. But i'll never wish that I hadn't met you. Because you make my world spin 'round. "Afanasyii." He whispered my name back making my skin crawl with ectasy. "You awake?" And I was answered with a sleepy looking face. No. He was still asleep. His mouth opened and my name was said smoothly again. I turned a slight pink. "Chance." not a question, I was just saying it. Rassuring him as I moved him over a bit. More conmfortable for bouth of us. We've been friends for so long. And I wish I knew what he truelly thought of me.
I love you
Cresent moons and nights cold front
I can't see you
But I breath you in
And even if this feelings denied
I wish I knew
What's wrong with me?
Are you my key
And if so how can I be so scared
It hurts
It hurts to shy away
And never say these words
But maybe
When i'm aloud
When I can
We'll be more
~~ ~ ~ ~~ ~ ~
{[
In the end...not likely ]}
Rolling up and down
It's okay to dream
I am a hoper
I am a dreamer
I believe in the impossable
I believe in us
and I won't ever leave you
I know you will hide it
and I know that you don't want to
but for some reason were going round the bend
and I know it's impossable
but we belive
Walk 'round the bend
Run between the trees
and see that sunlight right before
the rain push's us down
hevy in grief
in this rain
let's go
be together
in the rain
in the sun
'round the bend
'cause life ain't easy
if you're not around
"Uncle Fin!" I was panting,bike parked beside the phone genirtaor as I put my nickle into the machien listening for anything at the opposit end. Static was my greetor as I yelped out his name. "Uncle Fin!" But no. I fiddled into my pockets picking up another nickel and tossing it in. More static,I sighed almost slamming the phone down right before I herd..."Hello...?" Oh gloriose. "Uncle Fin!" I cheaped for the third time in just a few minutes. "Yes...?" The voice responding was reluctent. "It's Chance," I panted. "Yes boy?" With pants I spoke,quickly,almost not even making sence to myself. "What'r you thinkin' boy-oh?" He asked trying to seam like he didn't think I was mad. "Uncle Fin,please!" Uncle Fin had a plane,maybe he could get over the wall deviding the furr half of the world and the skins. Afanasyii was on that side,the opposit to me,so far away,I couldn't bare to see him in my mind. A sigh came back to me. "Alright boy. I'll be there by next week." Next week? No,no,no! "Uncle Fin I need to come over there as soon as possable." He clicked his toungue is disparoval. "Boy you just stay there for a week." But I was already so far away from home. "Uncle Fin i'm no wear near my house," I said sullenly. "Fine." His voice was hourse and dry as he took what I said in. "I'll be there in three days." I sighed. "Three days?" With a soft whimper a tried to think. "Well,you get some sleep and it'll be two days and two nights." Another sigh escaped me. I felt like a guitar,left alone after so much playing,and the musician,the singer that strummed his fingers all over my body and into my heart...he had just left. Not realising how it hurt me,a string brocken,and as they say,weak as their weakest link. My weakest cordsnaps and it all comes to one fatal blow before I set into a fasade of brocken notes. But it was always a lie,wasn't it? So why am I even fallowing you? For that inkling bit of hope? Yes. For that little bit of hope. For that unmistakable trust. Of love,and of lust. Everything in me. Because I know i'll never be able to let go. So i'll hold on. Untill life will make me let go. Let go of everything and subside into a missory. A missory of nothing. Except gray matter,nothing but gray matter. I hung up the phone and looked through the glass hopelessly. Maybe I should have been feeling more extravigent? Though right now as the snow flakes fell,dribbling down as if water splashing,I felt alone. These did not bounce back up as if trying to get back into the sky,such energetic spirits now dripping down. Falling almost. Though they've already fallen. Maybe it takes time to realize you've already fallen,that you're on rebound,playing that old cord again. That same song. But sometimes...that same song is your favorite story. The one i'd love to here again. Of how we met. Of you and me. And I remember something...it all started...with a dramatic shymphony. Called you. Called me. Called us,called we. The best not a brocken down insturment can play. Leaning my back against the glss I closed my eyes,it was all so sareal,just for a moment,and I didn't even hear the shattering glass,and the striding snow,the slipping wheels before...bam,I went flying. Through the crackling glass,shards falling all over,flying so high and yet so hopeless,and then I landed. Hard too. After that. It all was blinding. Black and lifeless. The only things I could hear were the footsteps,light,so ghoustly and lathering the pavment with quick steps,quivering steps. The soft smell of blood in the air,and the raste of it too. All I could see was black. But that didn't stop me from knowing. Knowing what was going on in my life,because as I was picked up I noticed something,it wasn't me who was warm dispite the barren freezing,it was the one holding me. A warm furred body. Maybe I was mistakcen to think...uncle Fin,or even worse off to think Afanasyii but I had to think it. Because the truth,it was seaping out worse than ever. And my eyes opened,and they closed, and I saw black but I believed. It was him. But there was noone holding me up. No. Then what did I..."Afanasyii. I love you." A soft whisper in the evening and I swear I herd his gasp. My lovers gasp. Even though no one held me and I was awake...I wasn't,and someone did hold me. We were bouth unconciose,and he held me in his arms,and he saw this unfathinable dream too. With me he saw it. But...I knew when I woke up,he would too. And nothing would make him come over here,because he wouldn't believe that I was...maybe if I can keep that sliver of hope. Even if it's oh so heartbreakings. It's hard. It's hard Afanasyii. So please come save me,come love me.
END END END END END END {NOT REALLY} VVV Down there but first we gotta get there! C;
And this story begins near the end with one shade and one line: Black. I used to paint the picture with you.
Submition Story Plot:
A gift to one another;the key and lock ornaments
'You are the key to my lock.' 'You are the lock to my key';Without you I could never open.
So lonely.
Stuck in that barrier.
And now i'm open.
But without you,
my speacle key,
formed for me only
I have nobody
I am free
Without you
there would be no me
I fit in with you
I am me when I am with you
No one will treat me differnetly
If they were all like you
I may be the one that broke you
but your the one that saw me
Saw me and nobody
Nobody else
You are the one that broke me
and I know that I can find you
Because you're not lost
you're just locked
And this is Life Before They met:~
Chances version:
I steped over the cold autumn breeze flowing over my head. "Hello, hey, hi there!" I tried to shut out the one on the phone trying to catch my minds attention. "I want to talk to you about you fathers work movment." A soft hazy growl flowed from my lips. "...Again." This conversation happened more than too often, my dad hopped from work to work place to often, every stupid time I got close to people we moved, everytime I got used to some place, every time I got friends they made me move! It's the stupist thing ever! I gave my phone a death grip, this tiny bit close to just throwing it on the ground. And they spoiled me bratty, tried to made me happy with items. I don't get enough love, I wish they'd come and be there for me. The thing is...i'm adopted. I lived in the slumps, I lived in the streets, and the alleys. I didn't want them to pick me up, I was fine dieing there at the age of ten but they picked me up, showed me what I craved more than I already thought I did. Love. "This is stupid moth-" She snapped. "I am your mother! Behave Chance." And I snapped. It was like a branch being brocken, snap and then the raging currents. "No you're not! I don't know my mother, I was adopted!" I turned the phone off, hand flicking as I debaited throwing my phone down a gutter. With a gutteral growl of my own as the water from the gutters sloshed I frowned. I didn't feel like crying, I felt enraged but tears fell down my cheeks anyways. Eff this! I felt like yelling it, and I did. I yelled it in my mind atleast. Maybe that was it, I hide my emotions, i'm so afraid to show them. And it makes my stomach knot, and my body tenses, I feel heat and drowsy, cheast burning and throut sore. "I hate it! " My yelp only came as a soft whisper...but it came. By chance I was put here, by change I was found, by chance everything changed. It's all by chance this game of life we play, but life won't ever let you win, will it?
Use [for pet]:
Why I really want these two beautys is because the fasinaite me trully. I mean lots of things intruige me but if I have no use for them,have no love for them,want them with a yerning...then why go for them?
They're brillaint little things,beautifull,eye catching and fasinaiting. They captured my heart quiet quickly and maybe I can admit I had doubts,slight doubts but I theres this feeling in me that won't let me doubt fully. And so I love these guys,i'm gunna'try hard for'em too <33 {bad english xD}
Other [Art, Likes, Dislikes, Mate, Age, Appearance, etc.]:
Innocence is being untouched. Just childish. You don't know the world just yet. You don't know what real pain is. You don't know anything. Not about suicide,or what life trulley is. Innocence isn't being naive. Innocence is believing that the world can be happy. No matter what. Seaming to be there. Innocence is a hard thing to describe...because I know everything terrible and yet I am...innocent.
In this world you are eather someone who's in the catergory of 'lock' or 'key'. Key's like actual keys open up lock's,wich are people in the category opposit of key's,but...every key only goes into one lock.
This lock,if they find them is their soulmate. Their perfect match.
Open's up their locked hearts and shows them something. gives the keys a way of life.
Now usually keys that open locks could be a little more dominent but it seams the colder being is more of the upside match. So what if your a key or a lock...the thing that matters is that they fit differently depending on the being themselves. Everyone is different,unique,un-chnagable,speacle. Not nobody else.
Locks are usually ones of sollitude. They don't let their barriers break. They let you realise what's happening and fall with a big bang if they crash and fly to the ground. Fall with no support. They can barricade their emotions back into a the protection of a shield but...there are bruses,bruses that will never leave them. They'll do their best to not show these bruises but when they finally break you can see so much emotion in these beings. So much. It may even hurt you. They have that effect,but concider yourself lucky if one opens up as greatly as this to you,or even less. Lock's are precariose things,flowers waiting in a sollitude,into a sheald of rain and petals,untill it opens in the sun,slightly blinded and happy yet. Precariose.
Key's are more of the type to be open. This being said they sometimes trust too easly and so on and so forth,equals a brocken heart. Needy of wanting comfort Key's are very vanerable after their shatterable trust is brocken. Thoguh they'll try their best not to show their emotion it's shown on their shoulders quite frequently. Their emotions,though not always as they can be very sneaky. They have a fiery pation. I fiery emotion and personality. And when I say fiery I don't mean fearce,I mean out there,like fire,a spark,that leads to the trees falling to the earth in solitude. But now,not neccisaierly bad is this fire,for new life will grow. New life.
Hah...I love how everyones making this a romance,lovely thing wear there oppasits and one breaks the others barrier. Or just twins who see one assss...well sort of dif,unique,opposit to them but alright. Sure...mines some what the same. Buuuut...I never liked -not- being different,friends with the group but not in it. c;
My idea: Theres a war happening
Not the natural kind eather
Will be used in a conversation: gotten from here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZZgVv3ux ... re=relatedGirl: Is a day without me like A Year Without Rain?
Boy: NO
Girl: Do you start Falling Down when the world starts spinnin' out?
Boy: NO
Girl: Who says im not pretty?
Boy: ME!
Girl: Do you Love Me Like A Love Song?
Boy: NO
Girl: I thought you liked me, Guess not.
Bye then.
Boy: A day without you is like a CENTURY without rain. I start falling down when your not around. You're GOURGEOUS but i dont love you like a love song. Because words can't explain how much I Love You! <3
Theme song//Play list:
Radeo head<1 maybe
Stereo hearts
-Meg and Liz-
Run away
Love you like a love song
Just a Dream-Nelly~Jason Chen
Next to you
Brighter than the sun
Afannasyii:
<3 When I look at you</3 Who owns my heart<3 I'm not good enoughChance:
I promise you-Seilena Gomez
Aly and AJ-Potential Breakup song
Bouth:
Undecided:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bqpA5Acc ... re=relatedOrientation:
~Bisexual-I~I-Bisexual`
~More comming
We live in a world wear there are tails and ears. Human figures and conetently pressed things. No one judges us. Only if we are...not straight. Not on the path. Then we do not go the straight path. And step into missery. Then in the forest we turn full ravage. I am an animal. And only WE know that.
`-W~I~P-`
