TheComfortCorner | V.10

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[MementoMorian]

I dated my best friend for a while cause he would constantly talk about how no one would ever love him and that everyone hes ever dated has been a chaser slash abusive so I gave it a shot once my ex dumped me cause I do love him a ton. After a while I realized that while I do love him, it's not romantic (I'm aspec) and when I told him this he had a meltdown and freaked out at me for 6 months. It was all really scary and concerning esp cause he was living with me. (He never hurt me physically though, he'd just accuse me of being cruel and lying to him and such. A lot of yelling.) He finally moved out cause the last straw for him was me saying that I'm not comfortable sharing a bed with him anymore. (He had his own room and bed. He just has bad night terrors and didn't like to be alone so I gave in for a while.)
I'm glad hes gone somewhat and I hope he can get the help he needs but the part that hurts the most is... All of our friends think I'm terrible and horrible cause of things he said about me. We're all adults and none of it is true. It's petty highschool level drama at best and the just believed him without talking to me. I only found out cause I got a message last week from one of them saying I had been voted out of the groupchat but that I was still "allowed" to DM them all privately if I wanted but that they were upset at me for being terrible. When I gave my side I was met with "I don't know what to believe anymore." and none of them have messaged me since. I just lost all my friends from this and it sucks cause I know a couple of them have gone through similar things of realizing the feelings weren't romantic and still continued to be friends afterward. It's also been known I'm Greyaromantic. It all just hurts, especially when they've all been arophobic to me about it.

Sorry if this breaks any of the rules I just needed to talk about it somewhere cause I kinda... lost everyone I'd usually talk to about it all outside of my therapist.

[dratio]

I wake up with ptsd-like symptoms every morning. I can't eat because I will vomit. The smell of food gives me bad nausea, and I automatically gag. Brushing teeth has me puking. My face looks haggard. I can't tell if people look at me because I dropped weight or because I look like I got let out of the psych ward too early, which is what happened, but the conditions in there were awful. I can no longer function like an adult in any capacity, and I need constant supervising. The medications barely work. I don't feel like myself. I don't even know why I like the things that I do, and why I don't like the things I don't. What happened. Why does everyone want me to live. They tell me they're happy I'm still here, but I can see the doubt and concern about my crumbling personality.

[BlueEyedKite]

March is coming :c March is the worst month of the year for me. March has the anniversary of my mother's passing. Late Feb I get so anxious. Like I wish I could dig my feet in and prevent the months from changing. I just know I am in for it. I can't put off the grief in March, it finds me, it won't let go. I would like to skip March... sigh.

[ClawedFrog]

Christmas, birthday, dream trip... I don't care anymore. Nothing makes me excited, it's like I've lost the emotion and just can't find it and I can feel joy slowly following in its footsteps. I'm not worth it. I'll never be worth it. I'm a mistake.

[daisukes]

I wish they'd just understand

[EmilineRose]

Car fell apart ._.
Fuel line broke, exhaust fell off, passenger window doesn't roll up, windshield washer fluid line broke...
Plus we're moving this weekend.
It's all too much at once.
I'm stressing.

[FNAF]

why do you always run from me

[flooxii]

im scared i won't be able to save you one day.

[Spearow]

ugh had to go make a dinner for the afer-funeral, dinner procession? idk anything about funerals. it was my last grandpa's funeral. had an anxiety attack and I didn't even go because I don't go to funerals. bleh, have one more day of bereavement and then have to somehow transition to midnights after working 8-4s for a month, I have a third day i could use but if I use it I feel like something will happen so i'm saving it..