TheComfortCorner | V.10

[nobxdy]

ignore

[sinensys]

this is so stupid to overthink.

i used to be able to turn this all off, and now i can't: even still today i am reminded of my past mechanical ideations.

[Soy Sauce]

My life has been one endless loop for months. This weekend was the first change. I NEVER want it to end. (I really wanna ask this girl to hoco but I’m so scared)

[Custard Cat]

I feel like I have been stuck in the same spot for months..years, even. I'm watching my friends and loved ones grow and kick their goals of starting families, getting married, etc. I am watching from the sidelines constantly wishing it were me. It makes me so sad. It's taken me so long to come to terms with what I want, but man I want my own family. I want kids one day and I often fear one day I'll wake up and have missed that opportunity because I can't find a stable partner. I am too scared after my ex to even try seeking one.

I often feel like I wasn't meant to have the life I desire, but I really do hope one day my dreams come true. For the time being I will cheer on everyone else. It just makes me sad deep down, I guess.

The unknown is scary.

[aveticus]

I got broken up with nearly two months ago now. It's been so weird and sad to deal with. I still really love them but I am scared things between us are messed up forever. They won't talk to me. There is so much I want to tell them and apologize and fix but I can't. I keep hoping they'll come back but yknow, I can't just sit around and hope. It's been so, so weird. I haven't been back to school in two weeks because I keep having to see them and I got extremely stressed out. They don't look happy and I worry. But really, my biggest anxiety is all the change. So much change coming about in my life, and I don't know what the future holds. I'm also worried about skipping school again next week. I want to, but I don't think I should. I think I have a medical exemption for my absences but three weeks feels more extreme. I have a counseling appointment next week though which is cool. Everything has just been really scary. And I feel terrible.

[twilispark]

i miss my childhood dogs. the last one went earlier this year. my heart and chest feel so so terrible whenever i think of them .. i miss them so unbelievably much it hurts

[Ch!cken]

NOOOOOOOO I CANT GET SICK PLEASE NOOOOOOOOOOO i love being so stressed over minor things my immune system implodes on itself and i get sick this is actually horrible

[demodog]

i bite

[vist]

“ did you hear about the girl
who got frozen ? time went
on for everybody else, …. she’s
still 23 inside her fantasy, how
it was supposed to be”,

i can’t stop myself from getting sucked down into the
feeling that i missed out on a life i wanted and expected,
or the person i wanted to be,. i don’t know how to
shake myself of the expectation and the longing for that
outcome,. i don’t know how to let go and shed my skin
and move on, forward into the person i wanna be, build
the life i want for myself even if the base is wobbly and
unstable,. everyone around me is in full time jobs,
relationships, college, careers , building a family ,.. &
there’s me, chasing a childhood i wanted,. longing for
my first real friendship , im so lonely and i worry im
going to be hollow and alone forever,. no one to share
anything with, a movie, a song, a tiktok, a moment, a
space, an interest, views,.. i want so much , i want to
experience life and feel a belonging,.. i can’t do
anything but wallow within myself, there’s gotta be more
for me, more in me, more than me,..
i’m stuck in time & it doesn’t stop, and that scares me,
because i’m running out of time,.

[×Seven of Nine×]

why do I have to be aroace? and why must I be unlovable? I did everything in my power to get better and now I'm more lonely. being better isn't all it's cooked up to be I guess.