Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[ShotoTodoroki]

I just love setting myself up to feel stupid apparently, because I've done it again. Why do I even bother any more.

[Forceghost]

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[Shadow17]

j,
thank you. for everything. i miss you, and i love you. this week’s been hard. but i’ll see you thursday <3

a, c, and k,
stay strong. i’ll be with you every step of the way. my life has been a lot better with you guys around, and just because i’m not there doesn’t mean i’m not with you guys. have fun this fall.

p,
have fun. enjoy this life you have.

-a

[caesou]

you were chatty and down-to-earth when i first met you - in other words, the same as you are now - and i was intimidated back then. i felt so comfortable around you, but in my anxiety back then, i also felt like i wasn't good enough to hang out with someone as cool as you.
i felt so myself that i felt like you'd see how negative, how much of a bad influence, how much of an innately terrible person i was and that it'd put you off, or that i didn't deserve to be around with someone so much better than me. it was easy to let down my guard around you, and i enjoyed doing that, but the act of letting my guard down was terrifying. it's really hard to explain this feeling in accurate words.

this only lasted like a week. you noticed - not me actively avoiding you, just my missing presence. you mentioned it offhandedly: "i haven't seen you much lately. what's up?" or something to that effect.
and i thought, "maybe you really saw nothing wrong with me. you noticed but didn't think it of a bad or good thing, just a thing." and i decided to allow myself to let my guard down, enjoy talking to you, continue talking to you and reach out to you when i feel like it.

i don't know if this feeling is reciprocated, but you are one of my closest friends right now. it's inspiring for me that after a one-sided hesitation, i got to enjoy your company so much. i attribute you as someone who helped me step out of my comfort zone, even if it was only very small.

it's a bit embarassing - hazukashii, perhaps - to talk about how much you mean to me or how much i enjoy chatting with you. maybe i'll send another letter on this thread about it LOL because it'd start out as a sob story before getting positive. but yeah. my origin story with you was really interesting, from my POV.

[All Might]

i can't stand the hot and cold and playing on my anxiety. When you're good you're great when you're not I've never felt so worthless
so meaningless

I'm so tired of crying every day
and it's because of you

[Lynx21]

Dear A,

It's funny thinking about just how long we've been out of touch- I wonder if you still remember me? I remember seeing your dad for the first time and excitedly telling you that he looked like a pirate. I remember running around the apartment complex all those years ago, and playing on those old, dark green, static-ridden playground structures. We attended the same school for a year! All the kids in our complex got picked up at the same spot. Near where the dumpsters sat. Every time someone asks me about my childhood, I always list you as my very first and vlosest best friend. I hope you've been living well!

[Cerberussi]

dear tanner,

i am incapable of love, in the romantic sense (a marriage that never happened, countless exs and woes) but, with you, i feel like i can love you with all my heart, at least in any way I can. twin flame fr !
you treat me so well, even though we're not anything but friends. spoiling me, looking after/out for me, quality time, you're the only person i really see in my future. i have NO clue if you feel the same way. we joke and tell our friends we're married, and act like we're married, and honestly, if you proposed out of nowhere, i'd say yes without a question. i love being around you, and i hope you feel the same way, though, i suppose id be content to just be by your side. we joke about moving in together, going on holiday together, so many more amazing things that life-long partners make into reality. it sort of snuck up on me, this feeling. when you reassured me that life wasnt going to continue going downhill, that youd make sure everything would be alright, i put my faith in you, and i was right to do so. my number one friend, my number one supporter, and, if we're being realistic, my number one fan.

no matter what happens, i will ALWAYS be your friend, your ear when you need to yap, your annoying little cerb.

ive known you for so long, and i wish more than anything, that i know you for the rest of my life.

love, cerb.

[Jabba]

Dearest Me (haha, yes, I went there, get over it)

I know you currently have a lot of anxiety and nerves going into this afternoon's appointment, but remember you are not alone. This is one huge hurdle to overcome, but you have this. Just be yourself. Be calm. Remember to breathe. And don't go misplacing anything important in these last few hours before the appointment. You'll make yourself all kinds of hectic again.

[rudeboy]

dear Boba,

I love you, more than you'll ever know, and I know you're not ready for me but I swear I'll do anything it takes to make you believe I'm committed. I haven't felt this way in a very, very long time, and I hope I can show you that I am in this for the long run. I know I haven't been the best girl, but I swear I'll be the best girlfriend if you let me. I'll never hurt you if I can help it, I'll never abandon you or make you feel unwanted. I know you're scared of yourself, and of your mother, but things will be so much different when you're not there anymore. I'm going to come see you, and I'm going to hold you, and it's going to be okay. We will get through this, my silly boy. I promise I'm yours, and that's not going to change unless you want it to. We'll be alright, won't we? Just keep my letter, and know none of my kisses lacked emotion. I am in love with you.

[parx]

d,

i listened to twenty one pilots today and thought about u more than i expected to. i wonder if u still like them. i left them behind years ago now, but i had a nostalgic itch that needed scratching, so i listened to them while i cleaned. i think about u more than i probably should, considering how long it's been. not as much as i used to, but still pretty often. i wonder if ur still active on cs. i can't make myself look up ur username to find out. sometimes i wonder if u play any other pet sites i like. pixel cat's end? god i hope not. that site is my safe space away from other pet sites that remind me of u. it would feel tainted if i learned u played it. do u still like waterparks? i hope u don't. they're still my favorite band. i remember it took me forever to get u to listen to them. u always called them basic pop punk. and yet u were so jealous when i met them. jealous. negative. it's all u ever were back then. did u know every time i think about u and twenty one pilots i just think about the complete diversion show? i was so excited. it was the first show since the hiatus, the first show since blurryface era. when i talked to u about it u asked why u would be excited when u weren't there. it was in london. of course u weren't there. i hope ur more positive now. i hope ur happy and that u don't think about me the way i think about u. i hope ur doing well.

n