TheComfortCorner | V.10

[OKULTRA]

i hope he's doing ok. i wish he'd get over and forget about me, i'm no one to grieve, not after the way i left

[♥ mizu]

tw for direct mentions of weight, weight loss, etc.

i'm not stressed about it, more like concerned. i'm 96 pounds. the doctor wanted me to be at least 115 pounds. i weigh (statistically) less than 99.99% of the girls my age which is extremely bad. i don't do this on purpose. in fact, i'm trying to gain weight. i literally do nothing. i don't work out. i eat "bad" foods. i sleep a lot.

i know what's wrong though, i think. i've been so anxious about so much recently. dad won't buy those ensure drinks because he thought i was drinking them instead of eating properly - which was not true. i was actually gaining weight, up to 112 pounds. but now i'm 96 lbs. do you realise how bad that is? i'm literally starving and it doesn't hurt. i don't want to be skinnier. i want to gain weight. i don't have an eating disorder. there is nothing wrong with me. the doctor has always been concerned about my weight. and dad keeps saying "we need to get some meat on those bones" and yet, he won't buy what the doctor specifically recommended. she told me to get those supplement drinks. but he stopped when he thought i was drinking them too much. i'm really annoyed at him, actually.

i've been trying to gain weight on my own. but the food in our house is so unappetizing. i'm living in an ingredient house when i want to be living in a pre-made food house. i'm so anxious all the time and i hate being in the kitchen around my parents so i just go out, grab a few snacks, and go back to my room. i eat properly for dinner and lunch, it's just breakfast. i hate eating early in the morning but i also just don't really want anything they offer. my school has great meals but i obviously don't want to go in any earlier than i already do.

we've been having such freaking good lunches at school recently. we had garlic bread, spaghetti, salad, and rice pudding and it was excellent. i didn't eat all of it because i felt full but yeah.

[Soy Sauce]

I keep finding songs that make me want to scream really loud and is start like violently sobbing. Which is weird cause I don’t cry anymore, it’s not like I don’t wanna I just haven’t cried in like three four months. But god I just want to scream the words so loud, like your right there is nothing here worth saying aloud :)

“WHATS THAT SONG ABOUT, ITS NOTING WORTH ME SAYIN’ ALOUD”

“NEVER THOUGHT YOUD STOOP SO LOW, GETTING WITH THE ONLY GIRL YOU KNOW. I CANT REMEMBER HOW TO SAY. YOUR. NAME.”

[qtip]

TW!!!!

I only weight 80 pounds i need to eat mroe

[qtip]

srry double post but this guy stole my sharpie, i had PROOF of me having it, i gently poked him with the eraser of my pencil to remind him to give me it and he scratched himself saying 'i broke the skin' and he got me in trouble for nothing????

[Hellagia]

I’m sorry I tried not to bother people when I lost my corn snake on Sunday, but it’s not even been a week and I just lost my cat. I hate this week… any cute/funny pictures would help. I just want to stop crying…

[survira]

breakups are hard

[hellevi]

So... It can literally be the best day ever. And my mind constantly makes me feel small,excluded, non-existent even though I know better. I know my power. I know my heart. But my mind wants to make me continue to hide me. I'm [removed]. I wonder if anyone else still struggle at this age to interact with people. And with feeling like your from a complete and totally different planet? Yay! I'm grateful. But i so need to get better in my head.

[LittleMaple]

I'm alright now. Weird human emotions

[♥ mizu]

bro can i just say that the way we act around different people is so weird

also i think it's funny how i'm like. the epitome of cringe culture here on chicken smoothie/toyhouse but i literally have boys (and girls lolz) trying to like. be with me. and calling me names i can't actually describe on here. i'm a minor so obviously i don't engage but it's funny. and then i go to school and be ultra professional and polite. so there's cringe culture me, objectified me, and school me. how many more mes am i going to meet.

but it's just funny. like, that person you're thirsting over on tiktok? they could be completely different and have totally different experiences on different platforms. irl, nobody would EVER expect that i have 5 pages of made up pixels with personalities. nobody. and yet here i am. i'm not the person you would expect to like these things. i'm fairly popular in my school. i've literally set fashion and social trends. i have lots of friends now. my teachers really like me. i'm one a few sports teams. and yet here i am saying things like "omg look at his silly lil paws :3 x)" online. it's SO weird bro

also this emoticon kind of looks like a horse. i've noticed this for years but i want to solidify it :2