TheComfortCorner | V.10

[Echo Revna]

I don't know what to do anymore, I feel like everything I say is wrong sometimes, but then if I say that, I might come across as manipulative, and I don't want to do that.

My home life right now sucks. My mother is constantly trying to manipulate me now, but I can't move out yet, because home isn't currently a place I can go to. I neither have the money nor the other thing I need to be able to move there.

The most important person in my life is completely stressed out and half the time I feel like I'm just making it worse when all I really want to do is fix it. So, I'm not talking to said person as much lately and that's not helping either of us, but I don't know what to do.

I hate the holidays; I miss the days that I used to actually enjoy them. I hate having to be around my family so much, I just want to crawl into a hole and be left alone.

I spend so much of the time crying now. I just want to sleep, I'm so tired. I'm lost again, I haven't been lost in over a year, I had finally found myself after years of not knowing who I was or what to do and now I'm lost again. I don't know what to do, I just don't. I need help, I need someone to help me, but every time I talk to anyone about this, they always just make it worse. I need a therapist, but I have to make sure our insurance covers it, cause if they don't, then I can't afford it. I need to find a job again, but that's easier said than done. Everything is just crashing down around me right now and I don't know what to do. And all I really want to do is move, but I can't, so the next best thing is just to stay in bed all day and pretend like the world doesn't exist, but that's not healthy and.... I just can't, I just can't.

I'm breaking, the little bubble I used to protect myself is cracking, and if it shatters, if it fully disappears... I just don't know.

[medikament]

feeling absolutely exhausted and sad

[♥ mizu]

i'm not religious but the symbolism of something that might have just happened to me in real life is actually terrifying and i don't know what it means but it feel it's very wrong. i don't know.

i don't feel comfortable explaining it but. i'm not sure something that happened even happened. for example: you're cutting carrots and afterwards you realised that the carrots chunks you cut off had weird black growths on them. you don't know if they were there before but you don't think they were. anyway that isn't at all what happened but it's just what i mean if that makes sense.
but the thing that actually happened isn't necessarily too awful but what it symbolises in traditional culture is an extremely bad omen

i don't really know how to feel. i have anxiety and im probably just getting concerned over nothing. time to whip out the bible and pray 👍 /hj

[DizzyGlitchez]

i need to stop being so lazy. i need to stop procrastinating. i need to stop losing interest in everything and letting everyone down.

[mourning dove]

im really never gonna feel safe from those people huh. time and time again they prove they aren’t really gone.

[gamer]

I was dizzy when I went to bed and still dizzy 6 hours later when I woke up. I wish I knew why I keep getting dizzy, it's so annoying :/

[Paprikat]

i made a post here a few days ago. im not better. im worse. this is... awful. im absolutely terrified of my bed, the shower, everything. im so so upset. this is so scary and new and awful. when will it go back to normal. i want to go home, im scared :( i wont be drawing on cs for a while. i have no energy. i dont eat as much anymore. i dont even get out of bed until what... 4pm? i dont start my day till 7pm. the first 3 hours is usually a mix of showering, lying in bed, and having panic attacks soo.
yeah
sucks
:(

[qtip]

why does my dad want me to eat something i just dont want to eat? i ate it so much in the past MONTHS and im tired of it
no means no so get it right

[Thianna]

Have you ever felt your heart breaking in a thousand tiny pieces because the one person you thought was in your corner for life, is just -not- listening to you? Insisting that you are wrong on something instead of acknowledging your feelings and thoughts about a matter that is truly hurting you?

Yeah. Me too.

[Neeko nordestina]

I wish I liked my bf's style. His clothing, his preferences for furniture, even his WALL COLOR preferences are so... opposite of what I like.
He is so eccentric while I am extremely basic, I genuinely don't know what we're gonna do about our house when we move in together. I like a lot of styles and there is A LOT I would be willing to accept in my home despite not being my favorite things/colors, but his preferences are so in my face I just can't ignore. We do plan on having our own "caves" (aka rooms that are basically our own hobby and decompressing rooms that we will decorate and do whatever we want with), but what is the rest of the house gonna look like? Our tastes don't intersect at all, not even slightly.
He is the kind of person who likes cups that look like real fish, I like transparent mugs and very clean/simple designs. He likes colorful walls with wallpapers EVERYWHERE, I like white walls with maybe 1 wall painted a different color and even then the color needs to fit in with the rest of the room. He likes a lot of clutter while I avoid clutter at all costs because I have dust allergies and hate having to clean a bunch of tiny stuff constantly.
It feels like living together will be such a complicated chore, are we even compatible enough for that? The idea of living in such an ugly and chaotic space gives me so much anxiety. Things would have been so much easier if I had a basic, cutesy, preppy or goth bf. Honestly even steampunk vibes would work. Even super nerd would be fine. But of course I had to end up with an eccentric artsy dude.