i miss you. and i know you'll never see this, but it hurts. it hurts opening games we used to play, it hurts seeing other people with their best friends, and i don't know how to process it. you seemed fine, i thought you were fine. ever since you died I haven't found a way to do the things we used to do without crying. I get on roblox and I cry because you're not there. I get on overwatch and I cry because your commentary isn't there anymore. I keep waiting for a text message or a call and my heart hurts when I realize it's never coming.
you were my best friend. one of the first people I really got close with on amino, and one of the very few people I still talked to from that time period. you were the kindest person i had ever met and we all love you. i'm sorry we didn't get to say goodbye, and i'm sorry we never got a chance to meet. I know you wanted to this year, but I'm gonna save up and visit next year if possible, even if you aren't there, I want to see all the things you told me about and honor that wish. thank you for being my best friend and for being there for me when nobody else was. I honestly don't know where to go from here, neither does Seph, but we're gonna figure it out.
Thank you for being my best friend for 6 years, and goodbye.