TheComfortCorner | V.10

[ghostbite]

i have a gut feeling my job is trying to work their ways into firing me
my manager and co-workers arent fond of me in the slightest despite not even doing a single thing wrong, my hours have been cut in half out of nowhere and i found out my manager (who doesnt like me in the slightest) has a relative of theirs starting to work where i am again next week. i literally am getting yelled at occasionally by my manager, always being left alone without a word of where my co-workers are going which leaves me to fend for myself, im a cashier at a grocery store so like, being left alone when people have their carts packed and theres constant line ups isnt fun. ive even have co-workers stand beside my till doing side work and keep telling customers to go to me instead cause they dont want to cash them out. im constantly being ignored, not included in anything either, its like im an outcast or dont even exist at all.
i was told i was doing amazing and their was absolutely nothing wrong that im doing, the next day i ended up having a situation where i couldnt figure out how i was short a good bit of money but i didnt have time to figure it out due to there being a severe weather warning and a family member waiting for me outside after the end of my shift so i left and wrote down why i left my cash in that situation, just to come into work again after a few days of being off to be told im screwing everything up and im not doing a good job at all.
im getting sick and tired of how people are constantly treating me like dog water. i mind my own business and help out when needed and im friendly yet im being mistreated so bad. i wont even care if i end up being fired from that place, i cant take it going there anymore even if i need money. it makes me so drained and is causing me some physical concerns as well.
thats just one of the many topics going on in my life right now, im not doing well in the slightest yet im trying my best to stay strong. for what? im not even sure at this point anymore. i need a break. i need some time to heal and be away from everything and everyone for a bit. ive been exhausted for a couple years now and am at such a low.

[dakotapaws]

having these set plans changed and fall through for my birthday thats long passed is. really making me feel unimportant again.

[BlueEyedKite]

My brother let me know he can't come to my birthday party :c I am really crushed because I love him and we used to spend a lot of time together before he moved one hour away. I am sure I will cheer up later but for now I am bummed at the thought of having my party without him

ps- don't worry I won't tell him how sad him not coming makes me feel. I don't want him feeling quilty

[viles]

• feeling very useless today. i have no idea to function as an adult and like,, idk. i know i could learn and i refuse to do so which is like,, idk. it's just making me feel worse about everything bc i'm like 'im so lazy and stuck in a victim mindset' which like,, are probably both true but like,, idk. those thoughts don't help me do anything besides stay in this cycle of not doing anything to improve my situation
  
  anywhoozle i have some rants but im not sure if theyre cs appropriate or not so im just gonna like,, go watch youtube or smth byeeeeee :v:

[demodog]

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[.destiny]

i wish someone could fix me. i wish someone could love me. even if it meant another person hurting me and destroying me all over again, at least it would mean i was important enough to be kept close. even if i have to sacrifice my self-worth again, i'd do it just to feel like someone wants me. self-sacrifice is the only thing that makes me have value. no one loves me and it hurts so much. i feel so alone and empty. i don't know who to plead with so that someone can fix me. or maybe i'm supposed to be this way? maybe i'm meant to be alone, too.
i don't understand why i can't be loved.

[neapolitan]

feeling kinda bad rn and i don't have anyone to talk to




maybe my mom is right when she says i'm rude and lazy and annoying and in the way. maybe no one actually wants me around. maybe i do go overboard and take everything for granted, even though i've clearly learned my lesson on that one. maybe i am ugly. yeah, probably. that's probably why the people i talked to never contact me. why i haven't heard from my best friend in 2 years. why the only person who wishes me a good morning or asks how i am or even cares if something happens is my girlfriend. everyone else have better people to talk to and i'm just here wondering if talking about how i feel makes me selfish and annoying. i feel pathetic. why am i crying over all these small things, like whether me disagreeing with someone will make them not want to talk to me ever again. why can't i just be passive and stay out of the way. why am i selfish and loud and always up in people's faces. i wish i could do something new, i feel so stuck. even now that i'm on holiday i still have things pressuring me until the point where i can't do anything but crawl onto the couch and cry.

the comfort i can find is helping my girlfriend, calming her down and comforting her.. but she has other who help with that. people who care. so many people who ask her if she's okay anytime something seems off. it's hard to believe that can even happen because no one ever did that to me. but in the end i'm just happy for her. i've done fine ignoring my problems before, so why not now?

anyway that's quite enough of that. sorry.

[Jokikaktus]

Sunday's gonna be my first full day off in months, and ofc my bf and my husband are both busy with work that day. At least I'll finally have time to draw then, but that doesn't really make it any less sucky :/

[scxr]

my anxiety has been debilitating the past couple days and it's KILLING ME. i can't relax, sit still, or sleep. nothing helps distract me from this constant pins-and-needles feeling in my hands and feet, my racing heart, the constant paranoia and weird existential dread. i'm just up and pacing back and forth in my bedroom, biting my nails and trying to reassure myself that everything will be okay but this itch in the back of my brain keeps yelling that SOMETHING IS WRONG but i DON'T KNOW WHAT. i'm safe in my house but i feel like i'm falling apart

[venti]

im sorry my results cant meet your high expectations.
im sorry.
even if i did good you still have a reason to point out all the flaws.
is it normal to be nervous when your parents look at your results?
but like... idk... seeing all my friends with their encouraging and supporting parents just breaks my heart... i love my parents to bits but i hate how much pressure im under and one little flaw makes them shout at me.

im an emotional mess.
i dont want them to see my results.
i dont want to cry again.